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So I’ve been thinking about Sunrise on the Reaping, how it’s gonna play out. You know what would be really depressing?

Haymitch Abernathy, “first” victor from District 12. Winner of the fiftieth Hunger Games and the second Quarter Quell. A poor boy from the Seam who defeated twice the number of tributes. The unlikely champion.

He’d used the Capitol’s arena against itself. He endured extreme pain and injury. He had to witness his beloved Maysilee die right before his eyes. Watched as an ax cut through a girl’s head. Remember the countless young lives he took. The horrors that could have driven him to insanity.

After being announced as the victor and being taken from the arena, he received medical attention before having to sit through countless interviews being watched by everyone in Panem. Haymitch put on a smile, saying exactly what the Capitol wanted him to. The entire time he hid his emotions, not letting anyone see through him.

All Haymitch wanted was to go home. To see his family. He caught a glimpse of them waving and cheering as he stood before the District, but the Peacekeepers wouldn’t let him go to them. His mother, who he could always confide in. His father, who never expected him to say anything but would always listen. His siblings, who he could open up to and show his weaknesses to without being judged. His pet, because he found that being around animals was healing.

He was finally allowed to return to his little home on the edge of the Seam, facing the woods. This was where he grew up. He knew the house to be noisy and warm with fire from the coals harvested by his own father. Haymitch was impatient to step through the door and be greeted by his family, surely proud of him.

But something was different.

Silence. The house was cold, empty, and dark. There was no sign of struggle; all the furniture was standing up, but nothing seemed to be in its normal place. An uncut loaf of bread rested on the kitchen countertop. Everything was clean and perfect. Perfect, except for the lingering smell of blood. Haymitch immediately dropped his things, his victor’s crown clattering to the floor. He felt tears streaming down his face. He took a step forward.

Lying on the dining room table was an ax, and a glass vase holding a singular white rose.

Yeah I write sometimes. Haymitch is my favorite character so obviously I’m going to dump more trauma than necessary on him. It’s how I show affection 🫶

I am not exaggerating when I tell you I screamed and immediately started working on fanart when I heard Sunrise on the Reaping was coming out, I’ve been waiting for this for idfk 4 years?? Which isn’t very long but I’m quite impatient

The drawings above were made by me :D there’s the full picture, then a close up of the rose + ax and another of Haymitch. Woody did an amazing job as Haymitch but my heart belongs to the book accurate POC version of him ☺️ I suggest clicking on the images to see them better

Sorry if everything looks weird :/ I’m not used to drawing stuff like this

Mammon is proud of me?

Hello there! I'm finally writing something...I want to try writing Mammon and Satan fic since not a lot of people write about them. ( Alternate meaning : I have read all of Mammon and Satan's fic on Ao3. I'm simply just waiting for the slow updates. Haha ) SO! I decided to write one!

I also got some inspiration on YT, Ao3 and Tumblr.

Warning! : Bad grammars, out of character, and bad writing.

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Satan's POV :

I was looking for a book to read, to come up plans on pranking Lucifer. Just as I pull out a book, a small " poof " and I could feel my body getting smaller. When I opened my eyes, I have turned into a cat...

" Not again... "

I put my paw on my face as a sign of disappointment. I looked around to see if any of my brothers are here. Thankfully, everyone is absent at the moment. As I was about to hide in my room, the door in the common room opened wide.

" Yo! Lucifer- Huh, what's a cat doing here? "

Not Mammon, whatever it is. It has to be other than Mammon. Mammon bent down and pick me up carefully.

" Ayumi must've snuck in another cat. She's gonna be screwed if Lucifer found out. "

Ah, that's right! Ayumi is the right person to depend on right now.

" But she's at Lord Diavolo castle right now. Hmmm....I'll just take care of ya until she came back! " Mammon said while grinning mischievously.

Shoot.

" Meow! "

" I'll let you stay in The Great Mammon room till Ayumi came back from the castle. I-it's n-not because I like her or somethin'! "

There he goes with that tsundere attitude. He then carefully manage to hide me away from Lucifer and locked the door as soon as we enter his room without being caught.

Mammon finally put me down on his messy bed. He should really clean up his room once in a while. Well, it's not like my room is any different with books scattered all over the floor.

" Hah, Ayumi should really thank me after this for cover her. Imma go lie down for a bit. "

Mammon laid down and took out his D.D.D. Probably texting Ayumi. I stood on my four paws and went down form Mammon's bed and started to look around.

I suddenly realized how I never get a good look in Mammon's room, there's so many things I saw that I didn't knew was there. Flower crowns, mangas, some wrapped gifts and books...?

I walked toward his bookshelf, which surprised me since Mammon hardly read anything. I climb onto the small bookshelves and saw a book that caught my eyes, " Ginger the stray cat " . The very first book that Mammon had read me when I was born. I felt nostalgic and a tinge of guilt in me as I look back onto the past.

" Hey, kitty. Where did ya go? Watcha doin' there? "

Mammon walked toward me with a curious look on his face.

" Meow! "

" Hm, what're ya pointing at? "

I pointed the spine of the book with my paws. Mammon picked me up with one hand and took the book with him with the other. He carried me until we reach his bed and he began talking.

" Ya want to see this book? I bet you could even mutter a word reading this. "

Tsk, for once I agree with the idiot.

" Ya know...I used to read this to my younger brother, Satan. He would always come running up to me and beg me to read this book for him. I think I have an album of him somewhere. "

Wait...he has an album of me...?

He grabbed an old album under his bed and wiped the dust away. He then start went through pages one by one, reminiscing the old times.

" This is when Satan first time walk on his own two feet and oh! this one is when he starts gnawing everything. He even bit Lucifer arm once. " He laughed in between as he explain.

" Hah...I miss the old times...I'm very proud of him even though he always get angry, but he's still my cute little tan tan...I sound like a mom right now don't ya think? "

That nickname...It's been centuries since I last heard it.

" Hey Mammon, Lucifer called for you- what's this? "

" Ah, Ayumi! Ya better thank me for covering you! Ya would've been dead if Lucifer found out. "

" But, I didn't bring any cat. Other than Jinx of course. "

" Eh... "

" Can I name it? "

" You aren't planning keeping it, aren't you?! "

" Well, I just heard you talk to this cat by yourself. So another one wouldn't hurt. "

" W-what ya mean?! I ain't talkin' to t-that cat by myself! "

" I'll call it Tan Tan. "

" Tan...Tan...? "

" Yeah, it looks like Satan. So I'll name it Tan Tan. "

Oh Ayumi, if only you knew that I'm actually Satan right now. And how did she knew my nickname? Or is it just a coincidence?

" Hmm, now that I mention it...Where is Satan? "

" He's probably in his room or somethin' "

" Alright, I'll be bringing this cat with me. Satan would love to see it. Oh, and Lucifer called for you by the way. "

" Ughh...what does he need me for now... "

Ayumi carried me to my room and looked around.

" Weird, he's not here. "

Suddenly anther " poof " is heard and I've returned to my normal form. Except...I'm being carried in Ayumi's hand right now...

" Oh, hello there Satan. I'm guessing you got yourself into a little accident. "

" Y-yeah uhmm...could you please put me down. "

That was a little unexpected and...embarrassing...[ -///- ]

" Ah, sorry about that. "

Ayumi put me down as I trying to regain my composure.

" What did Mammon talk to you about? "

" Just about the old times. "

" I see. "

" You should go now, I have some things to settle first. "

" Alright, see you later. "

Ayumi closed the door, leaving me alone as I requested too. After a few moment of silence, I finally spoke.

" Mammon is...proud of me...? "

I felt my eyes started stinging a little...And are these...tears...?

" Out of all times, why am I crying now... "

He might be an idiot, but he's that same brother that took care of me when no one else would. He's the one that praised me extensively on controlling my anger. The one that gave my love for cats and books.

He's also the same brother that I belittle everyday, without ever thanking him for what he have done.

" I'll have to come up a way to thank him as a repayment for his kindness. "

The things you have done for me will not be in vain, I became who I am today because of you, Even with all the burdens and pain, I'll be forever grateful having you, So thank you my dear brother, For I promise that I will be better for you.

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I literally have to do research on children books and read them since I don't read that many storybooks when I was little haha...

I added a poem in case...

I hope you have a good day!