Jungwoo Angst - Tumblr Posts

He is so cute 😍.

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to be better.

get up from his bed, dress yourself and leave, you have to. he will be happy without you. you will be okay without him, happiness will bloom for you, smile will rise upon your face, tears will dry out and love will finally walk in, if possible.

you will be okay. so, will he.

you have to leave, you are not what he needs, the more you stay, the more darkness will cloud him: your darkness. you are not healthy for them, hell, you are not healthy for yourself. he deserves better.

getting up on your feet, you gathered all your tossed clothes, “leaving again?” jungwoo blankly spoke up which frighten you, unaware with the fact that he has woken up; jungwoo and you have been in this position multiple times: landing on the bed with arms never leaving each other’s body, lips never parting away from one another then the after-party of you shaking yourself out from his grip and the bittersweet feeling of the empty space next to him.

jungwoo never utters a word about it, never questions you about why do you leave him cold every morning. however, he did not need a reason from you since your actions spoke more than you ever did, “can’t you stay? just once?” he pleaded, eyes still sleepy, stretching his arms to reach out for you.

your heart was begging you to feel loved by someone for once, that it is okay to be held, to be vulnerable with someone yet your mind was demanding you to leave, you do not deserve the love he is willing to give and you only destroy people who tries to come close to you. but; what you wanted was to be okay, to smile with no baggage of feelings burdening your heart and your mind. so you chose,

“leave me some space, will you?” you chuckled, dropping your gathered clothes and settled down beside him, tilting your head with the support of your palm to look at him more clearly as he stared back at you with emotions too much to handle, you did not deserve this. “why are you not sleeping? you got class today, don’t you?” you played with the fringe of his hair on his forehead, pushing it aside, a fresh look, you assumed.

“im just,-” he sighed, leaning towards you, nuzzling his face on the nape of your shoulder, “scared that you will not be here when i wake up.” he softly spoke, the moment was too odd, too unusual for you but for him, it felt love blooming in all corners of his heart, he felt happy.

this was not the plan you had when you first decided to spend a night with him. one day started to turned into several days, then, came a wave of emotions that you have no idea of controlling: emotions that should have never been there at the first place. such a pity party for you. “close your eyes.” you covered his eyes, which he attempted to remove from his face. he had no idea of the emotions you were battling with but neither did you.

you leaned towards his face, slowly caressing his cheeks, “you are so beautiful,” you mumbled, your eyes did not stop admiring him. sometimes, just sometimes, you wish you were better, you wish you were not like this.

you just wanted to be happy.

“i am so sorry, baby. sleep well.” you kissed his cheeks as he dozed off.

you chose, to walk away.

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[9:32 am]

heartbreaker!jungwoo thought he knew exactly how to get you to fall hopelessly in love with him. it had worked with everyone else. jungwoo had never failed to win a heart over with his endearing laugh that made his eyes curve into pretty crescent moons; his playful teasing that brought shy blushes to countless cheeks; and his puppy brown eyes that gazed and glimmered in concentration into the other person’s bashful eyes during a conversation. 

and jungwoo had thought he’d won you over, like every other time. when he asked you out, though, you rejected him.

it wasn’t like you weren’t in love with jungwoo - it was impossible not to be, after all those late night calls, jungwoo teasing you in the morning when you fell asleep first, snoring lightly; after all those midnight boba runs, jungwoo helping you sneak out of your house and feel free for the first time in your life; after all those horror movie marathons at his house, jungwoo entwining his hand with yours and squeezing it tightly whenever he got scared; and after all those arcade “dates” that weren’t really dates the two of you went on, jungwoo pouting and continuously refilling the shooting game with coins so that he could have another shot at impressing you with a victory as you giggled.

you were so in love with jungwoo that your heart constantly tried to bang its way out of your chest and throw itself at him, but you knew that jungwoo would absolutely shatter your heart if you trusted him with it. 

little did you know that you had shattered jungwoo’s heart for the first time in his life. maybe it had been your lovable laugh that brought a joyful sparkle to your eyes, even at the stupidest jokes; maybe it had been your soft hands squeezing his playfully as jungwoo’s shoulders lifted abruptly at each jump scare; or maybe it had been your beautiful eyes that seemed to whisper demands for him to love you every time jungwoo looked into them. 

whatever it had been, jungwoo’s heart had leapt out of his chest before he even realized, and had shattered itself at your feet.