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NOT SURE I CAN HOLD ON

by: thaunknowndreadhead

Im holding on desperately by a thread that is as thin and delicate as a hair. Doing a full pull-up with both hands clasped together! Index finger and thumb atop its mirroring counterpart, as every other finger and descending muscle supports the weight in an attempt to save my life. Im slipping and the harder I pull myself up on that thread, which is my absolute will to save my life, the closer I come to ripping that thread and falling to my death. To just live and only just live, I should just hang still in lifelong anguish.

However, an entity has grown and become a part of my life. A guise of myself of whom which I despise greatly! This very unwelcome and terrifying unknown entity greatly resembles my physical identity. It sits directly above me on a plank that reads "MY LIFE". This plank is very long and firmly connected to a greater stronger unreachable piece of matter that reads "LOVE HAPPINESS SUCCESS PROSPERITY JOY" and "FAMILY". The plank holds the top of the thread that I hang from which keeps me from certain death! This entity, this likeness; which of whom is dreadful in appearance and spats horrid remarks of disdain towards me, proceeds to constantly saw away at the very plank it sits on!! This thing! It has gone insane! As I still desperately hang on, I noticed it sits on the wrong side of the plank as it saws away! It will die with me if it completes its task! But as I look at this likeness, THIS DISTRESSED LOOKING INDIVIDUAL! I want it to proceed. As it is me.

idk how mentally stable i am but i think i’m not doing well cause likeee i just cried by watching a dog video aaannd idk why