I'm Not Happy With It - Tumblr Posts
soo... I did a quick art, that took me waaay too long for something so simple (and yet, I haven't drawn in ages), of my MC from The Sole Reminiscence by @lilac-den I guess I could as well introduce them to the World.
Name: Astra
House: Val'hai
Gender: Non-binary, they/them. Assigned male at birth.
Ability: Therianthropy
Love Interest: Maverick
Standing at 5'5, with long, wavy black hair and purplish-blue eyes, they're the newest cousin of Countess Val'hai. (And what a feeling it is, to once again call someone family). With demeanor so gentle and sweet, most can't help by wonder - how the deep, ugly scar adorning their neck came to be? They heard the rumors already, or some of it, what, with so many merchants ready to share a gossip or two: of fire that never was in a small city they wonder if ever existed. Maybe the people of this world will point it to that story too. Hopefully, no one will see other scars hidden underneath the pretty dresses they wear, it's only so much they can bear.
Sometimes they wonder what it would be like, to tell someone about their past. Of all the hardships they went through, the love and then pain so hard it left them numb to it all. But how could they? How to burden someone with a sorrow and anguish so big, when each day it feels like that first one again. Their last world, they left feeling nothing more at all. This new world, with all its pretty, soft dolls and happy kids, feels like a curse in their eyes. For how can they be at ease, when they feel it mocks their beloved ones' sacrifice? Even with a Princess so sweet they could give her a hug (they won't, not with all the blood on their hands), a new home by Syphina's side, they can't forget just like that.
Oh and isn't it fun? They're losing it again. With voices they prayed to hear again and touches that left them alight.
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Sooo, a silly little idea about maybe MC having more scars besides the important one we chose at first? bc I can see my MC actually trying to feel something that way back in their world but still, the neck one is a must. (I want them to suffer alright? there's never enough of angst) Or, at least a headcanon of mine: no one cares about any other scars, not after seeing that one, haha.
Also interesting thing my youtube did, bc it changed from dark academia playlists to ones named like our time is gone, what it feels like to fade away and finally, as I write this post what it feels like to forgive yourself and I find it funny how well the titles sound with all that MC goes (and will go in the future) through.
I’m honestly thinking of taking down Little One so I can re-write it.
Dratchet is just somethin’ else. and i adore them. it WAS going to be them dancing. but i couldn't do it. My brain was like “yes this is nice but we cant do that” so i just blocked them out.