I'm Having A Really Hard Time - Tumblr Posts

Maaaaaybe I'll make this blog a bit more personal and a little less gallavich centric, so to kick it off:

HOW DO YOU MAKE FRIENDS AT UNI????

And like ok. I know the answer is to go and talk to people but here's the thing. I AM TRYING. I'm not exactly the poster boy of being social anyways, plus I don't think I'm a first impression type of person. More like third or fourth impression. BUT I'M TRYING. I'm giving compliments to people left and right in an attempt to strike up conversations with them, but I end up having EXACTLY the same dialogues. Like word for fucking word.

And like. It's only the third day of uni but still. So far I've met one person that has friend potential, not best friend but I'm willing to give her a shot. AND I TRY TO BE INTERESTING. I spice the convos up a bit, I try to give them silly dilemmas like "Would you rather have to try to tame a yeti or a chupacabra and would your answer be different if they exchanged personalities?" when I see that the conversation is going nowhere naturally. And I do go for coffee with people after classes. BUT. So far the people I've gone to coffee with are likable people BUT PEOPLE WITH WHICH I DON'T THINK I FIT WITH AS AN INDIVIDUAL. And now they've made a group chat and they're talking about a meet up AND MY ANXIETY IS REALLY TRYING NOT TO ACT UP cause I don't want to go out with them. For the simple reason that if I do, I'll feel the weight of the social convention and I'll think that I have to hang out with them at uni BUT I WANT TO MEET OTHERS AND I'M WORRIED IT'S ALREADY TOO LATE AND ALL OF MY ACTUAL FRIENDS ARE ATTENDING UNIS IN THE OTHER SIDE OF THE COUNTRY AND I'M FREAKING THE FUCK OUTTTTTTT.

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