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Here is a preview of a story I’m working on with all my other stories. I just felt like sharing a little of what’s to come because why not? ✌🏼

It doesn’t take long after Buck rolls over in bed groaning from a long night of restless sleep and opens his eyes to remember what today marks.

7 years.

Today officially marks 7 excruciating, haunting, and painful years since he’s last seen his sister and he isn’t even out of bed yet before knowing today is already going to be one hell of a day, and he still has a 12 hour shift at the fire station ahead of him. All Buck really wants to do is hide under his covers like he used to do when he was a kid and drift away from the world. He wants to pretend he doesn’t exist and has no obligations to anyone or anything other than himself, but unfortunately he has people counting on him. So, it’s with a heavy heart wrenching sigh he pulls the warm covers off of him and lets the cold morning air sink into his bones as he gets up and tries to move forward with his day.

Each step feels heavier than the last and if more effort is required, as if he is attempting to move forward in quicksand but each step is just dragging him down further and taking a little piece of him bit by bit until there is nothing left to give—burying his soul way before it’s time.

Buck supposes he always feels like this on his sister’s anniversary, because usually he is a lot more upbeat and confident and can throw a smile on at a moment's notice with all the jokes his crew throws about.

Not today though.

Today doesn't deserve smiles and happiness and cheerfulness, not when his sister isn’t here to share it with him. His team knows what today is, too. That’s why Bobby told him to work at least a 12 hour shift after Buck told the man he wanted the day off, because his friends knew that all he would do is mope around at home and drink himself to the point of blacking out, and that is no way to go about dealing with his demons. Why feed them when you can shut them down all together for at least an afternoon?

Buck really doesn’t want to be alone anyway if he’s honest, because then his mind will be stuck in an endless loop of what if’s and how he could have stopped his sister from walking out the door that morning for school just to never come home again. It would constantly play on repeat the last time he saw her at only 13 years old and how she hugged him goodbye and told him she loved him and would be home to see him off the school bus. How she walked out the door and down the driveway only to look back and smile at him with so much love as he watched her disappear down the street from the big living room window as he always did. How he got off the bus that afternoon with no sister in sight. How she didn’t make it to dinner that night, or any other night for the next 7 years.

On October 8th, 7 years ago today, Maddie Buckley walked out the front door to her home, and she never returned.

No one knows what happened to her. Maddie just seemed to vanish with the wind, out of sight from everyone, and no indicator of where she had blown to.