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Can i tell you something?
There's some question that has been arguing inside of my mind again. Specifically because of the season of the year. I'm realizing this happens every year.
Why i feel like the summer is a gross temporary?
I feel the necessity of relaxing. Even when I don't actually want to. Summer makes me feel pressured to be something i am not. Because there's no 'me' in a summer without you.
Summer is so greasy, summer is so hot that it hurts. It burns, not good, not together. Summer now burns alone. It hurts, alone. Summer grieves, all alone.
As time went by I realized that this triggers the pressure cooker of emotions inside me. Imperfections in my perfect soup start to appear. It doesn't look elegant or perfect, nothing is right. Nothing that my mind touches seems to make me happy. Nothing that our memories have touched seems to be comfortable, even when it actually was.
And i hate it. I hate it because I'm supposed to be happy and enjoy it. Even more so in this environment. I used to be happy in summer. We used to be happy in summer.
I don't like to not understand things. Now everything is falling apart, now i am.
I hate summer in the way i hate to not be a part of you. There's too much buried in grass and sand that i want to forget. But then I don't.
If only you or I could come again and paint them with a rainbow, if only i could make them all look as sacred as it was, I want to convince myself somehow that... this date will ever be exciting and beautiful again. I want to see you come back with some smoothies and only worry about go swimming later.
I feel like I'm asking for too much. Please tell me it is not. I don't need a lot, I don't need the world, i just want to feel like I'm good enough to stay with you, forever.
Della.
Water and ink
These photos are dedicated to my classmates that didn't show up for photo class ù_ú so i was alone and couldn't do emotions portraits ú_ù ue ue
So i did this instead
Water is so much fun to drink when there's a tiny rubber duck in your cup!