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2|12|19 13/100 days of productivity

I had to go to the city archive for one essay I have. I actually already went there once, but found out I hadn't written down all of the information I need, but I'm not one bit mad I had to go back, because it's in a beautiful part of the city ♡

I've been feeling really down because of how unsatisfied I am with my major and how I don't know yet how I can change it. But getting to go the archive and seeing this part of the city is an experience I'm truly thankful for. I wouldn't have ever done this at a different major. Today for once I truly feel that this semester I'm not just wasting my time, but that there's something good to everything :') We'll see if this means something for my productivity or not :D But at least for once I don't feel garbage.

Wishing good vibes upon everyone ☆~

26|12|19 37/100 days of productivity

I spent almost the entire the with family and friends. We watched a few movies and I was able to do more reading on my laptop. Now right before going to bed I had a sudden wave of energy to compile some notes from my reading :)

So far even with this relaxed pace it really seems that I will be able to do everything in time for finals just fine and I'm feeling so happy with myself♡ ^.^

30|12|19 41/100 days of productivity

I'm feeling a lot better today; I got plenty beauty sleep, finished some lecture notes and got positive feedback on my essay proposal, which is fantastic!

I went to my hometown library for the first time since my first semester started and it felt so nostalgic and homey♡ Looking forward to maybe feeling happy at New Year for once~

31|12|19 42/100 days of productivity

Did my notes from last five chapters of my textbook babyyyy☆~

I'm so happy this time around I'm entering a new year feeling pretty proud of myself.♡ How is everyone else doing? My dog is bummed out I won't let him eat my food :D

14|1|20 finally stopped procrastinating :')

So after my finals on Friday I decided to take a day of, because I was so tired from studying, and then that break turned into procrastination. But I'm back to my senses now :D and I finished lecture notes for a course about medieval universities and literature that I didn't get to during the semester. I also took a test on my computer at home for one of my courses :).

I got final test results on those two Friday exams and I passed both of them! And I somehow got an A on the one I was dreading the most!

I'm so happy about it♡ Although I don't care about grades this year, since I will be going somewhere else next school year, it still feels damn nice to do well :D I suppose I might be an overachiever sometimes.

“What came is gone forever every time – that is good! That leaves it open for no regret…” – Allen Ginsberg (Kaddish)

25. 9. 2020 - Eventually I sort of stopped talking about me trying to change my major on this blog, because a) I wasn’t sure if there’s anyone at all that’s following that saga, even though that’s why I made this blog to begin with and b) everything in the world got so complicated even I myself didn’t get the time to stop and think about my progress. But for anyone that was still wondering and wanted to know:

I got accepted to English Language and Literature and am starting school on 5th October. I still had some finals to do and other stuff so that fact didn’t register for me for weeks. But now that’s all done, I filled in a form to leave my previous field of study minutes ago and it has finally hit me, that I made it and it’s real and it’s happening. And although most of my classes will be distance learning and I hope I’ll get to make some friends and not be completely lonely, unlike last year when I was entering uni for the first time, I am so overwhelmingly excited for it all. And most of all, I am extremely happy today.

I might make some infographics about what I learned through this experience like I was planning on when I made this blog, but that will probably come at a later time. Now I want to take a moment to bask in this good feeling and live in the present; leave it completely behind just for a bit. I want to read some of the books I’ve had on my list for years, so I opened Hermann Hesse’s Demian this morning. Later I’m meeting some of my friends from high school and having a sleepover.

I wish every one of you a good day! 🥰

4. 10. 2020 - I finished reading the first chapter of Demian yesterday. I know, it took me a while :D But this chapter titled Two Worlds instantly reminded me of when we were learning about Melanie Klein and child psychology in high school, so I spent a lot of time reading up on that aswell and adding sticky notes and scribbles into my book.

Semester starts tomorrow but I won't have many classes yet. Still, I'm vibrating with excitement.

5. 10. 2020 - Most of my courses are only starting next week, so today was lecture-free for me. But I already started with readings I do know about, because I'm so excited for it all.😅🥰 These are some notes from Alan Brinkley's The Unfinished Nation, second chapter Transplantations and Borderlands about the first English settlements in America. I never really learned about this in high school, so it's all very new and interesting to me.✌