Ever Since I Started My Meds - Tumblr Posts

lalottycupcake

2 years ago

I need a little insight, is this a type of sleep paralysis?

I want to get up, because my brain thinks I'm awake (so I AM aware of myself) and so it gives my body the order to get up, and it FEELS like I do, but then I realize I still in fact am asleep and haven’t moved at all

the hardest part is gathering the willpower to 'open' my eyes (I don’t, physically)

these 'dreams' repeat themselves, usually 5-10 times

it feels like that stage between dream and awake, when you are too sleepy to get out of bed

and I can't move - that moment when I realise that I in fact have NOT gotten up, because I’m still asleep (not-asleep? antiawake?) is so exasperating, I feel like a failure, and each time the desperation and fright grows

it's so hard to break through to the waking world

Can someone please answer?

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it's been going on for years ever since I started my meds and my psychiatrist won't LISTEN when I say I want to change them starting to feel like I'm loosing my mind all over again sleep paralysis sleep problem tw mental illness peanut is confused and desperate sorry this is all over the place peanut speaks

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