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Violet Ledger growing up with an emotionally abusive mother and a father who did little to stop her (I know Lord Ledger loved Violet a lot, but he was not doing enough and I will stand by that). Violet Bridgerton marrying a man who loves her fervently and unquestionably, and creating a safe, loving home for all their children. Violet Bridgerton knowing her daughter’s best friend is not treated well at home and treating her like another child. Violet Bridgerton watching her son marry Penelope Featherington and give her the loving home she was deprived of but always deserved.

Isn’t it funny how history repeats?

BRIDGERTON | SEASON 2 (2022)

hi I was wondering if I was the only one who wondered if Tilley Arnold might have a connection with Sophie?

I know it's very unlikely that Lady Arnold and Sophie have a connection together because Lady Arnold's character is only there this season to be Benedict's sex friend but a side of me still imagines a connection between her two characters

so I wonder if I was the only one who imagined a link between his two characters?

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Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma sister! reader

Description: Anthony Bridgerton has declared he's looking for a wife. He now has every debutante competing to capture his attention in hopes of becoming a viscountess, although there is not a lot from whom to choose from. However, with a new season also means new comers, and the Sharma family has entered this season.

Warnings: friends to lovers, angst (obviously) , both Anthony and y/n acting like a pair of idiots denying their feelings for each other, fluff, slowburn, roller-coaster of emotions

Note: this is my first Bridgerton fic so excuse me if it's not as great as it could be, I guarantee it will have grammar mistakes or language that was not used back in the 1800s but as I have fallen completely in love with Anthony, I couldn’t resist writing my own fic about him

Status:ongoing

Started: June 19,2022

Finished on: July 1st, 2022

Bold writing +*** = smut

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Part 1 : Introducing the Sharma sisters

Part 2 : The Ball

Part 3: The New Diamond

Part 4: Off To The Races

Part 5: The Poetry Reading

Part 6: Pall Mall

Part 7: Dinner night

Part 8: Inappropriate Encounters

Part 9: Unacceptable Feelings

Part 10: A Swim In The Lake

Part 11: Revelations

Part 12: She Knows

Part 13: A New Plan

Part 14: Another Scandal

Part 15: A New Step ***

Part 16: New Beginnings

Part 17: Make Him Chase

Part 18: Finally

Epilogue

Bonus chapter 1 ***

Bonus chapter 2

*they will also follow the storyline from s2 apart from a few things I will change or that I will add

The New Diamond

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader

Word count: 1.6k

Summary: will the queen finally name this season's diamond, and how is it gonna affect the Sharma Sisters...

Warnings: probably grammar mistakes, most probably is cringy

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There is nothing more quite like the sweet scented smell of success.

But after taking in the scene from last night’s festivities, it is clear the season won’t be quite so fragrant for everyone.

The Viscount Bridgerton's own mama may have loudly declared her eldest son's lofty intentions to marry, yet I can not be the only one wondering if this former Capital R- Rake is, indeed, ready to flourish.

Perhaps the viscount, like the rest of us is simply waiting for the queen to finally name her diamond.

Or perhaps, this author, should take matters into her own hands.

Though, out of the many purportedly well-trained and bred hothouse flowers on display this year, this author must wonder if the more surprising choice might still be in store

Whichever darling miss receives such high esteem let us hope there is a suitor available of only the sharpest wit, lest his dry musings leave a young lady wilting like a parched rose.

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We are currently sat on the drawing room, suitors gathered around, waiting for their turn. We smiled as the two young gentlemen sat on the stood to leave.

“The younger ones would do, if the eldest just got out of the way” One of the men said, I frowned annoyed. Suddenly I no longer like them.

“The sister is dreadful” the other one said.

I looked at Lady Danbury who smiled tightly, holding a cup of tea to her lips. Before it turned in to a scowl.

“Not on my chair” She exclaimed at Newton, who hopped on her chair. I smiled as a butler came in and picked up Newton. Lady Danbury took a sip from her cup, sighing frustrated.

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“Can you believe it?” I exclaimed to Kate. We were getting ready for the ball. Edwina was somewhere along the house with mama getting ready, while I was waiting for my turn.

“the nerve they have to come into our temporary home and say such words” I huffed infuriated “the sister is dreadful, the younger ones are better” I mimicked the gentlemen from the morning

“Just thinking about it vexes me” Kate chuckles

“Bon, it is fine, truly” She assures me looking out the window “ I am not the one they want to marry, and thank God for it, these gentlemen certainly don’t know how to keep up a conversation” The door opens behind us, Lady Danbury entering our bed chambers.

“Your tea grows cold, my horses do not” She starts, my face goes pale “ Did you both plan to ride again tomorrow morning” we kept quiet

“I know all that goes in my home and since you insist on sneaking around, I may as well save us all the trouble, correspondence” She holds up an envelope “ Miss Sharma” she looks at me “ your mama told me she is ready for you” I nod and exit the room, wandering down the stairs to where Mama was waiting for me.

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We walk down the stairs of the queen’s ballroom, I hold on to one of Kate’s hand while Edwina holds the other. We walk to where the queen is standing, we bow in greeting, Edwina and I smiling as what we were told to always do in front of her.

“I do hope you are finding everything in town to your satisfaction, Lady Mary” The queen says to mama

“Indeed I am, your Majesty “ Mama answers

“This time around, that is” the queen sneers

“Perhaps your mother, would like some refreshment Miss, Sharma” Lady Danbury says smiling tightly towards Kate. We walk away and towards the other side from where they are.

We look around and something catches my eye, I smile once I saw the Viscount with his family. I stare at them for a few minutes before they walked off, the viscount catches my eyes before he turned, I turned my head away smiling.

“Miss Sharma” I turned my head to the side, the viscounts face greeting me “May I have the honor of you conceding me this dance?” He holds his hand in front of me, I smile cheerfully, going to grab his hands when another stops mine.

“Oh I am afraid she cannot, Lord Bridgerton ” Kate interrupts smiling falsely “ You see, she is-“

“I would be delighted, My lord” I hold on to his hand, ignoring Kate’s protests, making the Viscount smile triumphantly

He leads me to the dance floor, where we got In to position and started to dance.

“How nice of you to ask me for a dance” I tease Mid-dance

“What?” He feigned confusion “I cannot ask my lovely lady friend for a dance now,” he smirks

“Oh” I raise an eyebrow “ we are friends now?” I jokingly say as he turned me around

“Are we not?” I look at him from the corner of my eye “ It is not everyday I meet a lady such as yourself, who does not trail after me for my looks, title or money, why is it wrong that I want to have a dear friend in such person” I chuckle

“I was joking, of course I am your friend” he turns me around once again “Who else is going to be able to dance with you so your mama leaves you in peace once and for all, without expecting anything in return”

"Nothing goes past you now, does it?” He sighs

“Of course not, soon you’ll learn that” I smile “ Do not worry, it does not bother me, in fact, I am honored that after knowing me for 1 day, you already consider me a friend” we bowed as the dance ended, I turned my head and saw Kate beckoning me over, Edwina, Mama and Lady Danbury near her.

“Now if I may be excused, my sister is calling me” we bowed in farewell before we walked to the opposite side of each other, Kate looked at me questioningly once I reached her.

“I am going to marry him deedee” I suddenly say shocking her, I smiled happily.

“Oh dear God, no anyone but him” Kate shook her head furiously, I furrowed my eyebrows.

“Why not? He is a gentleman, so far I have seen he is a good person, and maybe he could come to love me, so why not?” I argued

“Because, Bon, he does not-“ Kate couldn’t finish her sentence as the trumpets sounded throughout the room

“Your presence is noted” the queen starts “ and your queen most appreciative, allow it to now be my honor, to present to you this season’s diamond” we looked at each other nervously as the silence was prolonged, making us restless. I saw the queen look between Edwina and I for a minute.

“Miss Edwina Sharma” I smiled happily for my sister as everyone clapped.

A man came and led my sister towards the queen. Edwina bowed before her. I once smiled before it faded once I saw someone I started to like walking to her.

“Viscount Bridgerton” The queen said “Have you yet met my new incomparable”

“ I am most grateful for the introduction, your Majesty, only hope I shall be afforded the pleasure of a dance” I heard him say.

Edwina accepted holding on to his hand, he lead her to the dance floor, he turned his head, catching my eye for what felt the millionth time this evening, I turned my head quickly, not sparing him another glance. Blinking my eyes furiously, trying to blink away the forming tears.

It is stupid really, it is a silly thing to be sad about, I did not even know him that very well nor were we courting or anything, he can dance with anyone he desires, even my sister.

“Oh Bon” Kate said sadly rubbing my shoulder comfortingly

“I am alright” I gave her a tight lipped smile. Lady Danbury approached us.

“I suppose I should thank you” Kate told Lady Danbury “ Although I wonder, why Edwina and not Y/n”

“Oh do not ask me that, I told her majesty either of the younger Sharma Sister would make an excellent diamond, it was her final choice” She said “ and it’s much too soon for that, you must know, the real work begins now”

“Indeed, there will be mire to wade through on behalf of my sister, to be sure, speaking of, where is my sister?” She looks around for her

“She is dancing with the Viscount” I nodded in their direction, Kate grabbed my hand and along with Lady Danbury we walked towards them when the dance ended

“Kate, Y/n” Edwina said

“Ah, Lord Bridgerton, I see you’ve met Miss Edwina, this is uh-“ Lady Danbury exclaimed

“Her sisters” The Viscount cuts her off

“Miss Sharma and Miss Y/n Sharma, my lord” he nods at her and turns to me, I gave him a small smile

“the Viscount Bridgerton is the most excellent dancer, perhaps I may learn a thing or two from you, my lord” Edwina compliments him, I looked between them both

“Would you join me in the retirement room, sister” Kate told Edwina, grabbing her hand and tugged her away.

I stayed behind with the Viscount, he looked at me once again, before Lady Bridgerton approached him.

“She is a lovely diamond, dearest” She told the Viscount while he watched Edwina walk away

“Indeed,” he affirmed “ She is who I shall marry” I felt a painful tug on my chest. I ignored it before I walk around him and after my sisters, who waited at the door. The viscount now watching me walk further away from him.

Long last, the queen has named her most precious stone

The poetry reading

Summary: after all, it didn't turn out how Kate wanted, the Viscount is now one step closer to capturing Edwina’s heart

Paring: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader

Warnings: bad grammar, most probably is cringy, wrong use of words that were probably not used in those times, unedited

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“To be fair, you did not give him any chance to defend himself”

I scoffed angrily “ He did not deserve a chance to defend himself, trying to fool deedee, who does he think he is?”

“Maybe he just wanted to spend some time with me” She murmured

“And you think that was clever, what he did, to spend time with you?” Kate asks

“No!” Edwina exclaims “ You both always told me apa said it takes a courageous man to go after what he wants”

“Apa also said that the market of a true gentleman is honesty, something the Viscount notably lacks” Kate argued

We all turned once we heard the doors being opened in front of us, the queen approaching us. We bow before her.

“Your majesty” Lady Danbury greets

“Lady Danbury, Miss Sharma, Miss Y/n Sharma and my diamond” The queen greets us “This way, there is much to see”

We follow her as she leads us to the opposite side from where she came through.

“These are called Zebras, stripped horses from Africa, in fact, seven more arrive next week, though I can’t think what to name them all” Her majesty complains “ After 15 children, I seem to run out of ideas” we stand in front of a barrier, a handful of zebras scattered across the yard In front of us

“Miss Edwina” The queen calls out

“Yes, your Majesty” My sister answers

“ I do hope you have been enjoying the attention you have surely been receiving as the season’s diamond” The queen tells her

“Very much so, ma’am, it has been a exceptional honor”

“It is not an easy mantle to take on, you realize, to have so many eyes upon you at all times, regardless of the truth, people, nay gossips, they will contrive shameless falsehoods, rumor can oftentimes be a great hardship to endure, just ask your mother, just ask me” The queen advised her

“My sister aspires to learn from your illustrious example , your Majesty, your marriage, the wondrous love you share with the king, my sisters desires the very same” Kate flatters the queen

“And they shall receive it, Should they know who to trust” The queen replies “Miss Y/n” She turns to me

“Although you weren’t named this season’s incomparable, I seem to notice you receive almost as much attention as your sister does” She comments “I would also like to take you under my wing, together with your sister, as you also have qualities of a season’s incomparable, it would do you good to receive some of my advice” I looked at my sisters and Lady Danbury, who nodded at me happily

“I would be honored, your majesty,” I smile gleefully

“Lady Danbury has been a steadfast guide for us this season, and my sisters have me watching them as well” Kate informs her majesty

“An inner circle, if there ever was one” I chuckle along with Lady Danbury

“Though you must know, there will many people trying to break it apart for their own ends, when those persons inevitably reveal themselves and their rather sly intentions, I simply ask both of you that you tell me who they are, so that I may decide if they are worthy, of course” The queen advised us

“Miss Sharma, perhaps you would like to take your sisters to see the rest of these splendid grounds” Lady Danbury tells, more like demands, Kate

“Yes, the cassowaries are just across the bridge but do not veer to close, they are quite irritable” we bow before walking away

“Can you believe it?” I said cheerfully “ the queen said I have qualities of a season’s incomparable”

“Of course she did bon” Kate laughed “ You are a beautiful, amazing woman, who have a lot of gentlemen vying for your attention”

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“They were called Zebras, I believe” Edwina told mama

“So it was a pleasant visit them” Mama wondered

“Of course it was, mama” I cheered “ Can you believe, her Majesty herself told me, that I had qualities of a diamond of the first water, and that she wished to take me under her wing along with Edwina”

“I am quite sorry I was unable to attend” mama said

“Oh I am certain this will not be the last time we will be invited to the palace” Kate turned in her seat, the doors opening while she did so

“Correspondence for Miss Y/n Sharma, ma’am” a butler told Lady Danbury who grabbed the letter and held it out to me.

I stood taking the letter and opening it, reading it’s contents

Dear Miss Y/n,

I sincerely apologize for what happened at the race the other day, I did not mean any harm, I simply wished to spend some time with your sister.

I know you love your eldest sister but you can admit she can be quite overbearing and controlling some times -

I stopped reading. What a good thing to say about my sister while writing a apology, but I admit that is true

-I simply told Mr. Dorset to talk to her, the enjoyment and interest he showed towards Miss Sharma, was simply him being genuine.

I would never tell anyone to feign something like that, not even to my worst enemy.

I dearly hope you can forgive me for what I committed, it would pain me if someone as amazing and fun as yourself stopped being my friend over a mistake on my part.

Okay, now I admit I am complimenting you so I can have a better chance of you forgiving me, though I know you already knew that, after all, nothing can get past you.

I let out a chuckle at the words

I also know it won’t be that easy to repair what I did with just a simple letter, so I promise I will show you and your sisters, I also promise I wont complain when you brag about how right you were about your prediction about Nectar and High Flyer.

And If you accept on being my friend again, I simply ask of you to call me Anthony. I know what you think, it isn’t appropriate to call you by your given name, then at least call me by my name when the ton is not around, no friend of mine is going to call me Viscount Bridgerton, that would be too snotty of me.

I will make true to my words and show you, and your sisters, how regretful I am, starting with Miss Edwina.

Sincerely, someone who hopefully is still your friend,

Anthony Bridgerton

I chuckled when I finished the letter.

“Pardon me” I heard Kate say and walk out

“Who was it from?” mama asked curiously, Lady Danbury and Edwina also looking at me

“The Viscount” I answered walking towards the window

“The Viscount” Lady Danbury repeated shocked

“Yes, he was apologizing for what happened at the race, and told me he hopes we can still be friends” I replied “the Viscount is outside” I pointed out the window

We walked out of the drawing room and outside, Kate already talking to the Viscount.

“Lord Bridgerton” I greeted smiling at him, Edwina beside me doing the same, bowing before him, he nodded at me, smiling back

“Miss Y/n, Miss Edwina” he greeted

“I bought you, uh, a small token, to remind you of our fine time at the races yesterday” he walked backwards to a horse with a red ribbon behind him, I gaped at the horse in amazement

“Oh, the horse is for me?” Edwina said disheartened

“It is beautiful” I said happily, the Viscount smiled at me once again before he turned towards Edwina

“I thought you liked animals” He said confused

“I do” Edwina nodded her head “ but usually the kind that can curl up on my lap” She laughed

“My apologies” Lord Bridgerton said awkwardly “You said something about Nectar reminding you of a beloved horse” he walked in front of her

“That horse, is a character from a novel, I novel of love” Kate replied smugly, I looked at her, annoyed at her apparent dislike of the Viscount

“ I apologize for the confusion, but it was a lovely gesture indeed,” Edwina smiled at him

“Come Edwina, we must come inside” Kate nodded inside, I stood still , while Edwina bowed in farewell “ Y/n?” Kate said questioningly

“I’ll be there in a second” Kate pursued her lips before nodding and walking inside

“I appreciate the letter, my lord” I told him appreciative “I accept your apology, and… I guess I can still consider you a friend” the Viscount smiled

“I am glad, now I have at least one sister on my side” he grumbled making me laugh

“Yes, Kate is going to be hard to win over, but not that difficult if you keep trying to court Edwina, she will eventually see that you are genuine” I shook my head “ it was a thoughtful gift, I must head inside now" I bowed in courtesy before turning and starting to walk away

“Do you want it?” Lord Bridgerton said stopping me, I turned around, raising an eyebrow

“The horse” he clarified “ I have enough of them already, consider it a gift for the start of our friendship” I smiled nodding

“Alright, I will” I gave the horse’s lead towards the butler who started to take the horse down to the stables “Thank you, truly”

“See you later…. Anthony” I left after that, feeling his eyes watching me from behind

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“Why are you even sending him an invitation?” Kate said angrily “ He should not even get one”

“He is my friend” Kate scoffed at my words “ You should get used to seeing him around more often, not only is he planning to court Edwina, he also is going to spend some more time with me” She raises an eyebrow

“As a friend” I rolled my eyes “ Besides, he gifted me a horse, I should at least have the courtesy to send him an invitation to the soiree, seeing as you only sent Lady Bridgerton, Miss Eloise and Mr. Colin Bridgerton , one”

“But-“ She argued

“Kate” I looked at her “Enough, he is getting one, and final” She huffed frustrated

“Sometimes I wonder if I, was supposed to be the eldest one” I murmur as I sat down on the desk, grabbing some paper and ink

“At least make haste, some guests are already waiting” She implored, I nodded in agreement

Dear, Mr. Bridgerton,

Or should I say Anthony?

I once again thank you for the horse, you must know I will cherish it immensely. Therefore I though I should at least have the courtesy to invite you to the soiree being held at Lady Danbury's home, which I am sure you know of by now, seeing as my sister did not send you an invitation.

Consider this it. If you are planning to come, I must remind you that a lot of gentlemen are invited, so you must do something grand if you are planning on wooing Edwina.

I apologize if this letter is not long but we already have guests waiting and I must make my presence known.

Sincerely, your friend.

Y/n Sharma

I sealed the letter in a envelope and gave it to the butler. “ To the Viscount Bridgerton, please” he nodded and left while I made my way downstairs .

We sat on a davenport while gentleman after gentleman, stood in front of the fireplace, presenting their, I suppose we could say, talents. We clapped after each and everyone.

“Kate” I scolded once Lady Danbury told everyone to take a break “ Will you please stop making your dislike of the Viscount be so clearly shown, and in front of his family? In front of his sister?”

“Sister” She sighed

“Honestly, I am getting tired of it” I huffed “ I understand your dislike for him, you are entitled to your own opinion, but please, I implore you, to stop telling everyone of it, he is my friend now, and he could be your future brother in law, also it will only make us look bad in front of the ton” She looked at me silent

“Alright” She agreed “ I admit I may have put a toe out of the line, I will try to be amicable with him” I smiled happily

“I said try, don’t expect us to be best buddies overnight ”

“That is more than enough for me” I gave her a hug and walked away towards another person.

“Miss Eloise Bridgerton, was it?” I greeted who I know to be the Viscount’s sister

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“Gentlemen, thank you all for the most splendid display of your talents this evening” Lady Danbury thanks them after everyone has passed “ A memorable occasion to be sure”

“Pardon me, Lady Danbury” Someone interrupted

“Lord Bridgerton, I didn’t expect you” Lady Danbury said shocked

“Well I have to thank Miss Y/n, a last minute invite” the Viscount smiled at me grateful, I nodded in acknowledgement

“Surely you would never deny a young man you’ve known for nine and twenty years the pleasure of your company” he flatters her “ neither would your footman at the front door”

“Apologies, Viscount, you appear to be late again” Kate said rudely

“Kate” I said standing up, giving her a look “ Go right ahead, my lord, we certainly have time for one more” I gestured in front of us

“Y/n-“ Kate started, I shushed her, grabbing her arm and tugging her to stand behind the davenport beside me. The Viscount thanked me

He unfolded the paper he held in his hands and started to read.

“What is it, truly, to admire a woman? To look at her and feel inspiration, to delight in her beauty, so much, that all your defenses crumble. That you would willingly take on any pain, any burden, for her. To honor-“ he looked up catching my eye, I smiled reassuringly, nodding at him to keep going “To ho-“ he stopped himself and crumbled the piece of paper, throwing it into the fireplace.

“My apologies, I cannot do this” I frowned

“ I cannot claim, these words as my own, they’re someone else’s entirely, truth be told, I’m not-“ he sighed “Not a man of poetry, words of flattery are beautiful and sweet, but they also are hollow, unless accompanied by action. Miss Edwina, I could stand here and pretend to be someone I am not, I can pretend to want the very same things as you but I would be lying. I may not be able to, offer the display, the passion, that you truly deserve, but I assure you that when it comes to action and duty, I should never be found lacking. I hope that speaks louder than any pretty words can” he bows his head as he finishes and walks towards the refreshments table.

I swallowed hard, before I followed quickly after him as everyone else clapped.

“Lord Bridgerton” I called out, he turned his head at my call and smiled

“Miss Y/n” he greeted whilst I bowed before him

“That was most beautiful” I said in awe, he chuckled “You really outdid yourself”

“I’m glad you liked it” He smiled “ I first sought the help of my brother, Benedict, but as I read them, it felt wrong for me to say words that I didn’t write myself”

“What you did was better than any poem you could have said” I grabbed his hand reassuringly “ I am certain my sister liked it, one step closer to wooing her” I assured him, he held my stare for a while, nodding his head slowly

“Lord Bridgerton” I let go of his hand quickly as Edwina approached us

“I will leave you both alone” I bowed and walked away towards Kate

“Didn’t turn out how you wanted it, sister” I said amused “ the Viscount ended up saying just the right words to enchant Edwina, already one step closer to courting her” we turned to look at both Edwina and the Viscount.

The Viscount, as if sensing our stares, turned his head, holding eyes with Kate for a second before looking back at me, we stared at each other before Edwina spoke to him.

Kate walked away angrily, colliding with a helper, before marching on, and out the room. All of us watching her walk away.

Pall Mall

Summary: A game of Pall mall and heartfelt talk

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader

Word count: 3.7k (longest one yet)

Warnings: Probably bad grammar, unedited, probably will make you tear up at the end, atleast I did,

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We all know the great lenghts a young lady would go in pursuit of a proposal, and apparently she will travel great distances too.

Lord Anthony Bridgerton appears to be inching ever so closer to selecting his Viscountess, and to that end, has invited our diamond to join him for an excursion at his ancestral home, Aubrey Hall.

Country air indeed, clears the mind, and invigorates the body. Might this be the final gust that pushes the Viscount over the precipice of a proposal?

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“A week, at Aubrey Hall, how marvelous” I exclaimed, looking out the windows of the carriage we were currently riding in.

“Perhaps, I’ll wear my pink silks at dinner tonight” Edwina wondered

“Whatever you wear, you will look beautiful, Bon” I smiled at her

“Do you think Lord Bridgerton will like it?” Edwina asked us

“Of course he will, Bon” Kate assures her

“ you need not worry about the Viscount’s favor, Miss Edwina” Lady Danbury tells her “ It is an exceedingly good sign, that he’s invited us to spend a few days with the family, before the rest of the ton arrives for the real party” we all chuckle

“Perhaps by then, you will have an engagement to announce” Mama cuts in, my smile dimmed ever so slightly, before I brightened it once again.

“ he will be assessing me, I know. Considering how I may perform as Viscountess” Edwina said boastful

“And he should not be the only one” Kate advises “You too must consider, if Lord Bridgerton is everything you want in a match as well”

“Of course he is, Kate” I argued “ The Viscount is a wonderful person” I nodded

“How would you know?” Kate questioned “You have not spent much time with him”

“Perhaps not” I agreed “ but we send each other correspondence too often, he is most definitely everything i- Edwina, wants in a man”

“He sends you letters?” Edwina asks confused “ Why does he send you letters?, he does not send me letters” Mama and Lady Danbury sent each other looks

“I- well- I do not know Bon” I murmured “ You know the Viscount, he prefers action over words, and we talked about you, your likes and dislikes, I was helping him to know more about you” She nodded, more content after my explanation

“Besides,” I started “ Anthony and I are friends as well, it is not a crime to share letters with your friends now, is it?”

“Anthony?” Mama asked “You call him by his given name?”

“It is not a big deal, mama. As I said, we are friends, we should all pass the week with open minds” I gave Kate a look

“ I should be the very picture of amiability” Kate agrees

“Very well,” Edwina smiled “ pink it is”

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“Now, the only reason to endure such a journey” Lady Danbury exclaims as she steps out the carriage, us stepping out behind her

“You remember Edwina and Kate” Mama said to Lady Bridgerton while I looked around “ And Y/n” I bowed when I was called

“Of course, how nice to see you again, sweetheart” I smiled at her “Thank you, once again, for coming over for tea last week, Eloise was most happy that her new friend could join us” She thanks me

“Of course, how could I not” I said “ After all, we may become family soon" I winked at her, she laughed before starting a conversation with mama.

I looked at the house once again, walking forward as my eyes wondered over the beautiful home.

“You’re smiling” someone said

“Anthony” I greeted smiling brightly “ You have a marvelous home, I have never seen such a beautiful house” he looked at the house

“ Yeah, I guess it is beautiful, the place I feel more at home now, which I am sure you already know, as I have told you before “ he nodded chuckling

“I just hope I do not get lost, God knows all the times I have gotten lost at Lady Danbury’s home, and I’ve lived there for some time now” we both chuckled at my comment

“Do not worry, I won’t let you get lost, although, I’ll tell you a secret” he stepped closer, as if sharing some secret that everyone else should not here “I have also gotten lost here, and I’ve lived here for nine and twenty years ” we laughed loudly, once again

“And you must be Miss Edwina” One of his sisters said as she approached us, we turned to look at her “You most certainly are as beautiful as Anthony described you, I can see why he is smitten with you”

“Oh no” I denied with wide eyes “Lord Bridgerton and I are just friends, I am Edwina’s sister, Y/n” I contested, smiling at her humorously

“Oh forgive me, Miss Y/n” She apologies, I shook my head, reassuringly

“Although I am quite flattered, your grace” I bowed respectfully, feeling Anthony’s eyes on me“ Allow me to introduce my sister, Miss Edwina” I called over to Edwina, who approached us

“It is an honor, your grace” Edwina bowed, I looked over to the side, seeing the duchess’s baby.

“Oh!” I exclaimed, they looked at me startled “ Is this your son, your grace?” I walked over to the baby as Daphne nodded happily

“If I may?” I asked Lady Danbury, who was holding him, she smiled and handed him over to me

“Oh how cute!” I said I’m awe, holding the baby carefully, and walking towards the side of Daphne, as Edwina and Anthony continued their conversation “Just look at him, he is the most beautiful baby I have ever seen” I complimented, feeling the other’s eyes on me

“Thank you” Daphne said happily

“Well now, you must be weary from your travels” Lady Bridgerton commented “Mrs. Wilson, show our guests into their rooms so they may get refreshed” She ushers us in the house

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“This will teach Colin, last time he put a wicket behind the goat barn” Daphne exclaims shoving a wicket down on to the grass

“What exactly are the rules of this game?” Kate asks as we trailed behind her

“Pall mall is less about rules, more about the goal” Daphne answers “ which is, of course, to hill your ball through each wicket, the first player to send their through the last wicket wins, simple enough”

“Something tells me, it is not that easy” I said making Daphne nod, chuckling

“Though if you are feeling devilish, you can use your turn to knock an opponents ball far enough from their next wicket as you would like” She added

“Why lose a turn, if the point is to get ones own ball through the wicket” Edwina wondered confused

“Oh bon” I shook my head chuckling “ I am sure that is the fun part of the game, infuriating your opponent”

“Precisely, it is a poor player who plays the game and a wise one who plays their opponent” Daphne smiled

“ Why I would like to play this game, I am rather weary from the journey, so if I may be excused, I am going to sit down with Lady Danbury, Lady Bridgerton and mama” Kate excused herself and went to sit down

“Just you and me, Bon” I put my arm over Edwina’s shoulder “ I am going to enjoy playing this game” I said smiling

“Right, now Benedict is a solid shot but he avoids conflict” Daphne informs us as we kept walking “Colin is crafty, he will strike when he thinks you are least expecting it, so, always be suspecting it. Eloise, concentrates entirely on defeating her older brothers, the hope is that she gets so absorbed in them that she completely forgets about you” we looked at the rest of the siblings who were coming on to the field

“I, of course, am a complete enigma who will divulge none of my own secrets, and there is Anthony, -“

“The most ruthless, cutthroat player” I cut her off, Daphne looked at me impressed

“Why you have made his acquaintance” Daphne expresses “That is not to say he has no honor, he is usually the most gentile sportsman, except as far as this field is concerned” Daphne added once she saw Edwina’s face

“I’m sure the Viscount is an excellent player, we will pass a most excellent afternoon” Edwina said

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“Let us toss a coin” Colin offers

“You promised this year you would let the youngest pick first” Eloise argued

“We pick based on Alphabetical order” Anthony argued back, I laughed amused at their fight

“It is meant to be a game, is it not?” Edwina whispers to me making me laugh once again

“Perhaps” I said making them quiet down “You should let us pick first, seeing as we are your invited guests, are we not?” They hummed thoughtfully

“Yes” Anthony agreed “That would be better” the rest nodded in agreement

“Take your pick first, Bon” I urged Edwina. Edwina walked forward, pointing to the blue mallet.

“Yes, and excellent choice” Anthony said, grabbing the mallet and holding it out for her to take

I walked forward, stopping in thought for a second, before grabbing the black mallet.

“The mallet of death” Eloise said with raised eyebrows

“Would you look at that brother?” Benedict said to Anthony teasingly, I looked at them in surprise

“Is this yours?” I asked Anthony, he shook his head

“No, No, you’re welcome to it” Anthony answers as the rest of the siblings looked at him surprised

“You nearly threaten to beat me the last time I touched tha-“

“You exaggerate” Anthony cut Colin off

I chuckled, in a competitive mood “Are you the superstitious sort? I know some men cannot perform without their familiar tools, like a child without a blanket” The siblings laughed amused at my comment

“I can play perfectly well with any mallet” Anthony argued, surprised but amused at what I said

“I can grab another if you would like” I offered, he shook his head again

“It is alright, you can take it” Anthony smiled at me “Truly, I insist” he added once he saw me open my mouth to object. I nodded, going back to my spot

“Are we to be around liberating all day, or should we play?” Eloise huffed.

The siblings looked at each other before lunging for their mallet, leaving Anthony the pink one. I laughed, holding the black mallet out towards him, he gave me a look making me retreat it back. Then we moved forward towards the track.

We played, Edwina and I having the first shoot, and after, it was the youngest to oldest. After Anthony, who hit it with too much strength, it was my turn.

“Didn’t practice much, did you brother?” Benedict teased

“My turn” I said competitively, I got into position, hitting the ball softly, it going perfectly between the wicket. I cheered, jumping up and down happily. I looked at Anthony smugly, he shook his head amused, clapping proudly. And we continued with the game.

“Eloise, stop cheating!”

It was Anthony’s turn once again, he knelt down, observing the wicket carefully, before standing up and hitting the ball. Unfortunately it was, once again, a poor shot and ended up hitting the potted tree nearby.

“Do not worry,” I said, reassuringly as I took my place “ You will be able to shoot it between a wicket at least once” I shoot and hit it perfectly.

“Are the demands of the day affecting your game, brother?”

“Not a chance” Anthony looked over to my sister, walking towards her “Miss Edwina, o believe you’re next, I did not wish to leave my ball in your path, so I’ve left an open space, so you can send yours”

“Oh yes” I interjected “ And it was on purpose, most definitely was not because he did a bad shot or anything” I taunted, the Bridgerton siblings laughed, while Anthony only looked at me

“Miss Y/n! Do not out me in front of your sister” Anthony said playfully, us laughing once again, this time, him joining us

Edwina hit it but unfortunately it hit the side of the wicket and bounced to the side, we clapped for her anyway.

The other 2 brothers walked off towards their ball taking their turns. Once it was Eloise’s turn, Lady Danbury approached us and gave her some pointers.

“There now Eloise, send it” Eloise hit the ball, sending it perfectly between the wickets, we cheered for her

We all continued with the games for some time, it finally coming down to me, once again, I looked at my ball and saw that Anthony’s was next to mine. I looked at him thoughtfully.

“You have the chance to best him” Eloise tells me while I walked towards my ball happily.

“That would not be very sportsman like, now would it?” Colin said

“That is the fun of it all” I tell him “Besides, I was told unsportsmanlike conduct was a requirement for this game” I looked at the duchess

“Fast learner you are, indeed, Miss Y/n” Daphne chuckled

“What do you say, my lord?” I asked Anthony “Are you in a loosing mood?”

“My mood, will remain unchanged regardless of your move” I pursued my lips, before nodding

“Then you should not mind this” I said before hitting my ball softly, it hitting Anthony’s and sending it off towards the forest. Everyone laughed, even Anthony, after it was all in good game. It definitely would have been different I’d Kate played

“I knew I liked her” I heard Eloise say behind me

“Miss Edwina, it is your turn” Edwina walked towards her ball, she hit it sending it towards the forest

“I am bested, I see” Edwina said dejected

“You can still retrieve your ball if you wish to stay in the game” Daphne informs her

Edwina looked at me questioningly, I smiled nodding. She looked out to the trees and made her decision. “I think I should cut out”

“I can get it for you, Bon” I offered “I’m sure they will not mind it, if you still want to play, I’ll get your ball” She smiled at me and shook her head

“It is alright” She bowed before the duchess and left. I looked at Anthony and nodded towards Edwina. He looked at me before leaving after her.

Anthony returned once it was Colin’s turn. Colin hit the ball, unfortunately sending mine where Anthony’s went a few moments ago. I shook my head, chuckling. After all, there was no point in getting mad or frustrated.

“What a shame” Colin said unapologetic “You two better go fetch them, unless you would like to quit, here and now”

“Not. A. Chance.” I said and walked off to retrieve my ball, Anthony following behind me.

“A good shot, was it not” Anthony said “ Shame I did not think of it before” I scoffed, pushing him playfully making him laugh, I laughed after him.

I looked back at the others, the rest except Daphne continued on, the duchess looking after us with an unreadable look on her face. I ignored it and looked forward.

We stepped between the branches and looked under them, the balls nowhere in sight.

“I know regret sending your ball here, they appear to be nowhere” I said as Anthony removed some branches from above, before groaning

“Dashing” he said. The balls were in the middle of a most beautiful sight. Not. In the middle of a puddle of mud.

“We could pluck them out” I looked at him “ no one would be none the wiser”

“But I would know” he said and walked off, I trailed after him.

“It is to watery” Anthony said, touching the mud with the stick part of the mallet

“We have no choice then” I said and pulled up my dress a little, and stepped into the mud, when I was in front of my ball, I hit it, getting it out of the mud, all while Anthony gaped at my action

“Your play, Anthony. Unless you do not want to dirty your boots” he gave me a look and stepped in. I held in my laugh when I saw him almost fall. He hit his ball and walked backwards to get out.

I smiled and stepped forwards before my foot stopped me. “Uh, Anthony, I appear to be stuck” I held out my hand for him to help me

He sighed and stepped into the mud once again, he pulled on my arm, tugging me backwards “ow” I exclaimed when he tugged to hard, hurting my hand

“Sorry, really sorry, but you are really stuck” he said apologizing

“Just keep tugging”

He grabbed on to my waist for better hold, he tugged once before we fell backwards, us squealing surprised. We sat up, I looked at him, he looked at me, before we burst out laughing

“Certainly the highlight of my day” I said between laughs, standing up and holding my hand out towards him to pull him up.

He grabbed onto my hand, laughing, I pulled him up, this time successfully. “Of course, jumping into mud is always so enjoyable” he said jokingly

He looked around before he set his eyes on something, looking at it intensely.

“Anthony?” I called out to him, I followed his eyes and saw a little spot, with a few benches and what looked to be a grave.

“Your father, is it not?” I said softly, he looked at me with an unreadable expression. Cheers suddenly erupting from the others, which we ignored

“I know that look in your eye” I tell him “It is the look of pain mama has when she thinks about apa, one that is present on Kate’s face so often”

“One that comes onto my face when I think of everything he is missing of our life’s. That he will never see me walk down the aisle, nor see the children that I will surely have. Or approve of my future husband and like him as much as I would” Anthony looked at me sadly, Holding my eyes, which were brimmed with tears.

“I know how you feel, tony” a tear dropped from my eye “I understand your pain, I feel for all of you as I, myself, know of the loss of a father we so clearly loved” Tears started brimming in his eyes

“Do not hold your emotions in, that is why we have our family, so they can support us, they would not judge you if you do. I may not remember much of him, but I remember something he always used to say. “ You cannot show someone your best-“

“-Without allowing them to see your worst” Anthony finished quietly “ My father also used to say that”

I held onto his arm and pulled him over to a bench were we sat down, side by side. Us sitting in a comfortable silence.

“He was stung by a bee” Anthony said after a few moments “ To see a great man felled by a such a small creature, it was, it was humbling to say the least” I rested my head in his shoulder, rubbing his arm comfortingly.

“Ever since, I’ve been scared, that I will live a short life such as him, as I cannot possibly overthrow him in age” he confesses “ My mother was destroyed when he died, she would not leave her room, not even when her newborn baby, Hyacinth, my youngest sister, cried out for her, she would not speak to anyone, she would not even eat” tears streamed down his face, my own mirroring his.

“ And I decided, that I cannot possibly marry for love, and then leave her destroyed at my inevitable death, I do not wish on anyone what my mother went through, I cannot put anyone through that pain, no one deserves that”

“So it is better that I marry, not because of love, but because of obligation, it is my duty, as a Viscount, to continue my bloodline. I cannot fall in love, I would certainly not do it willingly. And I apologize, I know that is not what you want for your sister, but that is all I can offer her, security, happiness but not because of love, but if what comes with being a Viscountess”

“I understand if you tell your sister what I just said, it is better that she has time to make her decision when I ask her” He stopped talking

Us sitting in silence, once more. No one has anything more to say, all consumed with thoughts. I do not know what to make of this, but one thing is sure, this talk only brought us closer.

And now that I have seen this side of him, definitely more closer to breaking me when he inevitably asks my sister to marry him.

Dinner night

Summary: It is the last day before the ton joins you in the country, will there be a proposal or not?.

Word count: 1.4k (shortest one I have written)

Pairing : Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader

Warnings: The fright of your life, unedited, probably bad grammar

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“Where were you?” Daphne appeared in front of us as we were walking back to Aubrey Hall “We were all looking for you both”

“You need not worry” Anthony answers “We were by father’s grave talking” Daphne went silent, walking along with us. I walked a few steps in front of them so they could have a moment.

“You told her about father?” Daphne murmured surprised from behind me. I pretended not to hear them

“She is my friend” Anthony said in an obvious tone, Daphne hummed thoughtfully

“Are you sure it is Miss Edwina you want to marry, brother?” Daphne wondered

“What nonsense are you saying, sister” Anthony scoffed “Of course I am sure, Miss Edwina is the diamond of this season, she will make a perfect Viscountess”

“Is that what this is?” Daphne huffed “You going after Miss Edwina, only, because she is the incomparable?”

“Anthony, I see you get along better with Miss Y/n, conversation is easily made between you two, she makes you laugh and smile, a genuine laugh and smile, not one of those you give everyone in the ton” She shook her head “ And I know what I am talking about, I have observed you both closely this day”

“Enough, Daphne ”Anthony exclaimed, I looked back at them surprised, Anthony gave me a tight lipped smile, before I turned back around

“We will not talk about this any longer, Miss y/n and I are just friends, I will marry Miss Edwina and make her my Viscountess, End. Of. Story” He said firmly, I looked down at the floor as we entered into Aubrey Hall

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“He is quite funny” Edwina said as she got ready for a bath

“I have told you both, that before” I said

“Intelligent, too” I hummed

“And the conversation, there were almost no awkward pauses, truly” She stopped walking “Although he did mention Y/n quite a lot” I furrowed my eyebrows

“Yes, unconsciously I suppose, but he would say something along the lines of, ‘ Oh, Miss y/n said the same thing’ or ‘ Miss Y/n does not think that’, was really not quite fun to hear it, but you are friends after all” She looked at me “Or is there something I need to know?”

“What?” I said incredulously

“Perhaps you both have feelings for each other” I started to shake my head “It is alright if you do, truly, tell me now before it is too late and I will tell the Viscount to stop pursuing me, after all, you did see him first”

“Not at all, Bon” I stood up “Anthony and I are just friends, there are no feelings on his part”

“And on your part?” She asked

“Anyway, he is pursuing you, not me, tell us, what did you talk about?” I ignored her questions, changing the conversation, she looked at me knowingly but nodded

“His family, for starters”

“It was all about him them” Kate scoffed “ Bon, if the conversation went one sided-“

“Only it did not!” Edwina exclaimed “ I was convinced my poor show at the Pall mall field left the Viscount, indifferent, only he asked me questions about myself, most of which he already knew, y/n” She looked at me

“Guilty” I smiled sheepishly

“About our family, he was interested in everything I had to say, deedee, in the books I have read even in the books I have not”

“Well, I only hope his intentions are genuine” Kate sighed

“They are deedee” I tell her “He told me so a few hours ago when we were looking for our balls”

“I truly believe something will come out of this” Edwina started to undress for her bath “ A proposal deedee, I can feel it” I smiled down at my lap.

I can also feel a proposal coming, when?, I am not sure, but it will be in the coming days, the only left is to be prepared

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“This room is exceptionally well lit, Have you noticed col? The twinkle of the candles, it is as if we sit in the stars” Benedict said from in front of me

“What is wrong with you?” Eloise asks, I hold in my laugh, some silent chuckles escaping me

“I was just telling Benedict… how brilliant the stars were in Greece” Colin answers unsure

“Really?” I said amused “Tell me more Mr. Benedict” I chuckle, Kate shoved me, laughs also escaping her as she shook her head

“The air is refreshing” Benedict answers “ You can just feel the aromas floating in the air, the smell of the breeze of the sea” Colin puts down his utensils, looking at him as if he has gone crazy

“There is no sea nearby, brother” Colin informs him as Kate, Eloise and I, laughed.

I looked towards the head of the table where Anthony, Edwina and Daphne were sat at. I catch Anthony’s eyes, which were already on me, I think nothing of it and smile after him, turning back towards Colin and Benedict.

“It was a revelation, made all the better by the knowledge that I, may have been, the only brit to see it in decades” Colin explains while Benedict moans as he eats.

A chuckle escapes me, once again, by his behavior. He stretches his hand, knocking over a glass making us gasp in shock, he laughs, covering his face childishly. I cover my face to hide my laugher.

“Benedict, dear, you alarm our guests” Lady Bridgerton reprimanded him.

“It is alright, Lady Bridgerton” Kate assures her, I bite my lip nodding, agreeing with my sister

“It is time for a toast” Lady Danbury said clicking her spoon on a glass

“Good idea, to cheer our guests” Lady Bridgerton agrees looking at Mama

“Or to tend to other pressing matters” Lady Danbury insinuates looking at Anthony

“I, I believe my sisters and I have grown rather weary” Kate tells Lady Danbury

“A toast, yes” Anthony stands up. “My sincere gratitude to the Sharma’s, for joining us, it is been spending having you here to witness, what is now my second annual lost at Pall Mall, all thanks to Miss Y/n” he gave me a look as we all chuckle, my laugh fading more quickly than the rest

“Not to be repeated I assure you, and my special gratitude to Miss Edwina, it is certainly been a privilege to truly make your acquaintance this past days, in fact, I believe there is a question I would like to ask you” My heart starts beating faster, as I start to breath heavily

“ I should like to, uh,” He catches my eyes, holding them for a second before he turned towards Edwina again “ I should like to ask you to, please, refrain from telling anyone back in London about yesterday’s loss, I fear the harm to my reputation would simply be too great” I sighed in relief, looking down at my lap, my breathing going steady once again.

“To pleasant days ahead ”He hold his glass of wine in the air

I looked up once again, catching Kate’s eyes who was looking at me knowingly, I looked to the side. This time seeing Daphne looking at me, an unreadable look in her face. I ignored them and looked forward. We all took a sip of our wine after Anthony finished.

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“The rest of the ton are now set to join us in the country. Surely if the Viscount were to propose, he would of done it by now, yes?” Edwina said as Kate brushed her hair. I was sat on my bed, looking at them.

“What if I have missed my chance? Perhaps I should’ve found out more about the Bridgerton’s, I should have known more about their interests, I should’ve been better” She held back her sobs “ I have bungled this entire affair and now I feel like a fool” She cried. I got up from the bed and knelt down beside her, hugging her.

“Never say such a thing, Bon” She knelt down from the other side “I knew he would only end up hurting you”

“Please stop Kate, you are not helping” I plead “ Anthony is not like that, Bon, he would not lead a girl on, surely he will propose in the days coming”

“I hate seeing you like this” Kate told Edwina, who cried

“I thought he liked me” Edwina murmured, I frowned, feeling bad for feeling so relieved when Anthony did not end up proposing, how could I be like that, and not think of the way Edwina would have feel.

“You are the diamond of the season, there is nary a gentleman back in London who does not wish for your hand” Kate assured her “You have choices, Bon, all will be well despite of this disappointment with the Viscount, I assure you” Kate wipes her tears away

Edwina nodded and hugged us both tightly.

Inappropriate Encounters

Summary: 2 more encounters that lead down to a more dangerous path

Paring: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader

Word count: 2.6k

Warnings: unedited, probably bad grammar, Bee stings, Anthony panicking, Angry Y/n and bewildered Anthony, encounters that Y/n and Anthony should stop before it gets out of hand

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I was walking around the garden meanwhile Kate was riding on a horse around somewhere. I breathed in the air, it hitting my face softly.

I got to the entrance, where I saw Anthony looking down at the flowers.

“Anthony” I called out

“Y/n” he turned to me “Is your sister..” he trailed off

“She is in her room,” I approached him “Not feeling her best today, it seems”

“What happened?” I asked “You told me you were going to propose to her, and yesterday was the perfect time to do it”

“I did not mean to disappoint her last night when I did not declare myself” He murmured “But she should not be disappointed for long, rest assured I will still propose to her”

“Well you should tell her that, not me” I huffed

“Last night wasn’t the right time, with my brother acting strange, and everyone staring at me, I panicked, my feelings would not allow me to speak ” He tells me as we walked back to the house

“So your feelings are too strong for you now?” I said incredulously

“Y/n-“

“No, no” I cut him off “ You did not see Edwina yesterday night, you toyed with her emotions, she was destroyed, she thought she was not good enough to be Viscountess and that she should have been better, you are my friend Anthony but if you keep on playing with her, I will never forgive you” I snapped

“Without offense y/n, but Miss Edwina seems perfectly capable of forming her own impressions-“

“So now you claim to know my sister better than me?” I said angrily

“I know she wishes to be happy-“

"Precisely" I exclaimed making him look at me annoyed

“That is all I want for her, I know you are a good man, you have been so good to me and with her,” he looked down at my chest, his face paling “but how is she going to be happy if you only delude her and when she is at the peak of excitement , you disappoint -“

“Do not move” he pleaded

“Do not interrupt me, I am g-“ I shook with anger

“No, No, stand still, damn it” he grabbed my hand exasperated

I stayed quiet and looked at him carefully, he was breathing heavily, looking down at my chest scared. I looked down and saw a bee, realization showing on my face. I moved to shove it off.

“No, do not do that!” Anthony exclaimed, I did it anyway, waving the bee off

“It will be fast and it will not- ow-“ I exclaimed in pain as the bee stung me. Anthony started breathing more heavily, panic in his eyes.

“Are you hurt?” He asked

“What?” with the pain I felt, I did not pay attention to what he was saying

“Can you breath?!”

“Anthony, I am fine, I have gotten stung before” I tell him

“Are you certain?!”

“Of course I am certain, Anthony-“

“No, No do not-“

“Anthony!” I looked all over his face, trying to think of something to do to help him with his panic attack

“I am unharmed” I shook my head trying to reassure him

“I am unharmed” I thought for a minute before grabbing his hand and putting it on top of my chest, on top of my heart.

“Anthony” I stepped closer, grabbing his other hand and, intertwined with mine and put it, this time on top of his heart.

“I am fine” I look at him sadly “Listen to me, I am fine” he nodded looking intensely into my eyes, trying to calm down

“Feel my heartbeat” I urged him, he rested his forehead next to mine, concentrating on my heart “Breath” he looked back into my eyes, his face getting closer to mine.

We jumped apart when we heard horses nearby and people talking. Anthony assessed me one more time before he walked away. I sighed, closing my eyes, thinking back to a few moments ago and that if we did not hear the horses, we could have possibly k-

I cannot possibly fall in love with Anthony, it is absurd, we are just friends, he is my sister’s suitor, no, just no.

I picked up my gloves, that seem to have fallen, from the floor, before running quickly to the nearest wall.

But I cannot ignore the way my heart raced as our faces neared each other.

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I stare out the window, deep in my thoughts.

“Deedee? Is it the sting” Edwina said, I turned my head quickly towards her

“What?” I panicked thinking that she found out about what happened between Anthony and I “Whatever do you mean?”

“Is it still bothering you?” She clarified “seems ever since the awful creature stung you, you’ve been keeping to yourself” I shook my head

“No, not at all, bon” I tell her standing up

“Are you sure? You have been very pensive lately” Kate comments “Did something happened that you did not tell us about?”

“No, nothing happened, why?, should something have happened?” I rambled “Anyway, how are you Edwina, are you still feeling upset about Anthony’s lack of action”

“His mind also seems elsewhere lately, I thought I’d be announcing an engagement at tomorrow night’s ball” Edwina sighed

“We return to Mayfair in a few days, where there will be many other suitors” Kate said cheerfully

“Suitors will only suspect that there is something lacking in me when they discover the Viscount is no longer interested” Edwina snapped

“Bon,-“ I huffed smiling, going to hold her hand in reassurance

“He is the one I want, Y/n” My smile faded as she pushed my hand away “The Viscount, his family, this home, the life he offers me” Kate and I stayed quiet

“I’ve been thinking and, I am now quite certain I know why he has not made his declaration” I looked up at her “It’s because of you both”

“Kate, you hate one another and Y/n, he has seen how hostile you’ve been towards this past day and has regrets his decision on proposing to me” I sighed in relief

“I am sure that is not why” I assured her “ Anthony knows I am still his friend, and even if I am hostile towards him for 1 day, it would not change his mind”

“And hate probably too strong a word” Kate adds

“It is clear from your exchanges with the Viscount, that he shares your feelings” Edwina says “All this time I though I needed your help getting him to fall in love with me-”

“You know how Anthony feels about love, bon” I remind her, she only gives me a look

“Maybe it is something I can change” Edwina wonders making me laugh

“I love you Bon, but nothing and no one will change his mind, not even you, I know him and he told me so” I murmured

“That is why, you, are going to help me win over his heart” Edwina smiles, I looked at her shocked

“I beg your pardon?”

“You, will spend more time with the Viscount, tell him nice things about me, and subtly convince him to propose”

“Edwina I can-“ I start

“Please” She begs “I really want to become his wife” I looked at Kate asking for help, she only shrugged.

“fine” I agreed, she squealed in delight and hugged me tightly.

What have I gotten myself in to?

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“Y/n!” Edwina calls out to me when she sees me

I smile and head over to where she is sat at, Anthony seated to the side of her.

“It has been a wonderful evening” i laugh “Little Auggie is the sweetest baby ever, he definitely gets that from his mother, although I have not met his father, the Duke, so I cannot be completely sure” I said sitting down opposite of Anthony, nodding at him in acknowledgement

“Did you tell the Viscount about your bee sting?” Edwina said

I sighed amusedly “ I got stung”

“Ah” Anthony said as if he did not know, I nodded

“I am well” I looked at Edwina

“Ah” He said once again, looking at me

“Y/n was telling me how eager she was to see more of the grounds of this magnificent estate” She informs him

“I was?” Edwina kicked my foot under the table, giving me a look “Yes, I was, you know I like to explore all kind of magnificent places” he nodded

“Might you give her a tour today while I spend time with the ladies” Edwina insinuates

“Uh i-“

“I am certain Lord Bridgerton is occupied with other guests” I said chuckling

“Shooting, in fact, with the other gentlemen” He said “the party is to leave quite soon, I am afraid”

“Did you know, Y/n, is an excellent shot, Kate taught her, after all” Edwina smiled

“I am sure she is” I raised an eyebrow

“Are you all set for the hunt brother?” Benedict approached us, patting Anthony’s shoulders

“Y/n! Tell him how you used to shoot all the time with Kate” Edwina urged me

“Miss Edwina” Anthony chuckled

“She is just being modest”

“Do you not think it true?” I asked getting angry, seems like ever since a few days , our friendship has gotten closer and closer to being non-existent. Why? Who knows

“Perhaps your sister aims straight in a field” Anthony started “but surely she would have some trouble managing-“

“Why would you assume I would have any trouble at all?” I raised an eyebrow

“I only mean to say-“

“Because I am a women, is that it?”

“No, no y/n, just only meant that-“ I could hear Benedict chuckling at his brother's expense

“What did you mean exactly?”

“You could get hurt, that is why ladies do not hunt”

“Do not, or are not allowed to”

“I am certain, Lady Danbury can spare a maid to act as a chaperone” Edwina cuts in

“No, there is no need Bon, I would not be able to endure being around egotistical, prideful men who think they are superior to women in every way” I stood up from my seat angrily “ If you excuse me, I am going to talk with the better Bridgerton’s, no offense Mr. Benedict” I marched away huffing, leaving Anthony to stare at me bewildered

“She has grown rather infuriating these past days” I hear Anthony say behind me, I stop in my steps

“Oh, I'll show you infuriating” I start to march back to him, Kate grabbed my hand, stopping me.

"Sister" Kate laughs nervously "Let us go calm down, yeah?" She led me inside the house while I muttered angry things about the Viscount

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I lay in my bed, late at night, rain pouring down. I stared at the ceiling. Once thunder sounded again, I stood up carefully.

“Bon?” I hear Kate whisper

“I’ll just be going outside for a little, I won’t be long” I whispered back

I walk down the corridor, until I found the library, opening the door and entering after, leaving the door slightly shut so as not to wake anyone up with the noise it would make. I neared the bookshelf’s and grabbed a book. The door opening behind me full once I did so.

“Anthony” I turned around and looked at who entered

“I did not mean to startle you” He said “I saw a light and thought I let a candle lit” he explained

“No, only me” I stepped down from the stool

“Could you not sleep?” He asked, I stayed silent “If your lodgings are not comfortable-“

“No, it is the storm” I tell him “I’ve always found them unsettling”

“I was 12 when apa died, but I remember he used to read to my sisters and I during monsoons, now the rain makes me think of him” I approached him, he grabbed the book I was holding, grabbing it carefully

“This was my father’s library, these books were some of his most treasured possessions “ I stayed quiet

“I apologize for this afternoon, I did not mean to offend you in anyway,” he apologizes “it just is not appropriate for a lady to hunt around a bunch of me, that is not how the rules work” and there he goes again

“Ugh you and your rules” I scoffed, he started to get frustrated, I looked out the window

“Perhaps if you’ve not been out once again the other morning, we might not have been put in such a difficult situation” I looked at him once again

“Exactly which difficult situation are you referring too?” I scoffed

“Your-“ he stopped himself, I raised an eyebrow “The other morning” he nodded as if that made everything clearer

“When I was stung?”

“After which you put my hand to your bosoms”

“To show you I was unharmed, you were overcome, and I did not put your hand on top of my bosoms, it was my chest!”

“I was not!”

“You were the one who then looked at me”

“You looked at me!”

“Not in the way that you did”

“How did I look at you?” I stayed silent, us looking at one another, breathing heavily

“Alright” Anthony sighed “ Let us not fight, let us just forget about that accident and not speak about it anymore” I nodded agreeing

After a moment, he spoke up once again “I will need help proposing to your sister”

“I don’t really know how Edwina wants to be proposed to” I mused, he hummed

“How would you like to be proposed to?”

“Edwina and I are very different, I am not sure what I want is what she wants”

“Just answer my question”

I thought for a minute “I would like it to not be a big thing, the moment being private between us both or at least with just our families present. It does not matter if he gives me flowers or not, but it would be nice, Lilacs, especially, my favorite, symbolic of first love ” He nodded

“Although I am not sure if I would be able to marry, I would like to , yes, but I am not sure how” I admit

“What do you mean?”

“There is the matter of my dowry” I answer “ It is just mama, my sisters and I, we do not have any title or money, and no one will want to marry me without a dowry-”

“I would” I looked at him surprised “ I mean I would marry your sister regardless if she has a dowry or not, I have enough money as it is, I do not need more”

“Edwina is very fortunate” I smiled slightly

“And you need not worry” he assures me “ When I marry your sister, I myself, will provide you with a dowry”

“Are you serious?” I gasped

He nodded “Of course, we will be family and besides that, you are my friend” I laughed happily and hugged him, he gasped surprised, while I muttered thank you’s

“Once again, my sister is very fortunate that you are pursuing her” I pulled back from the hug and smiled at him as he stared at me.

My smiled faded as he continues to stare at me intensely. My eyes trail all over his face, before they stop on his lips for a second. I can feel him getting closer, his breath fanning my face as my heart starts to race. I look back up to his eyes, he leans in before a thunder interrupts the moment.

“Oh” I gasped pulling back “ This is not appro-“

“No, it is ok-“

“I should bid you goodnight” I say and bowed

I march out of the room and into my bedchambers, trying not wake my sisters up. I lean against the door, trying to calm my racing heart.

I am heading down a dangerous path, and I should stop before it gets out of hand.

Unacceptable Feelings

Summary: the last day of the country visit, will it turn out how Edwina wants in the end?

Paring: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader

Word count: 2.2k

Warnings: unedited , angst, more inappropriate encounters, more angst, btw, not that anyone was asking, I was listening to The Last Time by Taylor Swift while writing the first part, so if you're in the mood to cry, listen to that while reading, it really made me cry when writing it, so it either made it hurt more or I'm just that sensitive.

Also, if anyone has any opinions, feel free to express them, I really want to know what you think.

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“Hey Bon” Kate greets me as she joins me in the garden, sitting down at the bench with me, I smile at her

“You have been very pensive lately” She mused

“I do not think I am going to marry this season, deedee” I say quietly

“What are you talking about?” I stayed silent

“You know you can tell me” She lays her head on my shoulder “You are my sister who I love more than anything, I will never judge you, on anything”

“There is no one, who captures my attention enough to marry, and there is the matter of my dowry, and-“ I swallow as tears stung my eyes “I fear I have done something entirely wrong, Kate” she stayed quiet, letting me continue

“I have feelings for someone, someone I should not feel anything for” I admit, blinking my eyes furiously “But I cannot help it” a tear dropped from my eye

“ I cannot marry anyone while I have feelings for this person, it is wrong for me to do it, and I wish I did not feel how I feel, but every time we spent time together, and I got to know him more and more, I got to know the kind of person that he is, and with the way my heart started to race every time he touched me, I knew i fell” I sniffled “And it hurts” I cry out, sobs escaping me.

“I have been thinking since this morning, and I figured out how I felt. I know I can never be with him, not in a million years, especially since he is going to ask someone else to marry him. Something I know is going to break me when the time comes and it is all my fault. I knew from the start that he was not interested in me, but I ignored it and now, now I am going to pay the price” She lifted her head up from my shoulder and stared at me sadly

“I am breaking, deedee” I sob loudly and hugged her tightly “I hate this, I hate this feeling, I hate him for making me feel this, I wish I never met him and got to know him!”

“Bon,” Kate pulled away from our hug “He does not deserve your tears” I nodded, trying to stop crying, but I was not able to

“No one does, especially not Anthony Bridgerton” I went to speak up “Do you think I have not seen how you look at him” She smiled sadly

“Even before you figured out your feelings for him, I knew how you felt. You did after all say you wanted to marry him since the first day you met him” She wiped away my tears as I calmed down, sniffling “How about this,”

“What if, after Edwina is married, you leave to India with me, I was after all going to leave immediately after either of you married” She offers “You come with me, the less you see him, the more your feelings for him will subside, and you get to visit our home, once the season starts again, you come back for your second season, after all, there is no rush to get married, you are one and twenty and on your first season, you still have a few seasons to go before you are considered a spinster” I nodded

“Yes ” I smiled feeling better

“Yeah?” Kate smiled happily

“I would like that very much” I nodded

“Great!” Kate stood up “Now, let us go take a walk around the garden, no need to think about that hideous man anymore” I laugh along with her as she pulled me up from the bench to start our walk

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It is the night of the ball. I was walking down the staircase along with my family and Lady Danbury. I look down to the dance floor. Couples dancing all over and families stood over to the side.

“Miss Edwina, might I have your first dance?” I looked down a few steps, Anthony’s face gracing my sight. He looked at me for a second before turning back to Edwina.

“Certainly, my lord” She accepted and walked off with him leaving me to stare after them.

I looked back at my family, smiling at Kate who smiled back reassuringly, and then she walked down with Mama. Only Lady Danbury and I left. I approached Lady Danbury.

“Have you been enjoying your time alone with the Viscount” my face paled as I looked at her “You are friends and there are times you both are nowhere to be seen, like yesterday morning, in fact, I assume you both went for a walk, chaperoned of course, right?”

“Oh yes, he is a marvelous person” I smiled lightly, she smiled back humming and walked down. My smile faded as I sighed tiredly

I walked down to the refreshments table and walked away after I grabbed a glass . I looked out to the dance floor, where Anthony and Edwina were dancing, as I sip on my drink. Edwina approached me once the dance was finished.

“Lord Bridgerton has gone to get me a glass of lemonade” She tells me cheerfully, I hummed “We’ve just finished our second dance, I am certain he would have not asked me for two, if he did not have intentions for the evening”

“I am pleased to hear that” I smiled at her

“I need you to dance with him” She demands

“What?” my smile faded

“I need to know if he is going to declare himself by the end of the ball, as I hope, and you are the only one who can find out” she explains as I look over to Anthony, who is staring back at us.

“This may very well be my last chance” Edwina pleads, I stare at her conflicted

“Miss Edwina” Anthony called out, handing her a glass of lemonade

“Lord Bridgerton” Edwina said giddily “ My sister wishes to take to the floor”

“Ah” he hummed staring at me, I stared back emotionlessly

“With you” Edwina clarified smiling, grabbing his glass of lemonade from his hands.

“Miss Y/n, may I have this dance?” he held out his hand, I looked at Edwina, who nodded encouragingly.

I am only doing this for you Bon, only for you.

“You may, my lord” I grab his hand and he leads me to the floor

Music starts as we get into position and we commenced dancing. We looked into each others eyes as we danced, us being a little bit closer than we needed to. Which was not helping with my feelings.

I could see my family and his watching us from the sides. As I catches Edwina’s figure, I was reminded of why I was dancing with him in the first place.

“Are you going to propose to my sister by the end of the evening?” I asked, looking forwards

“Will it make you happy if I did?” I furrowed my eyebrows. Why did it matter how it made me feel?

“I want my sister to be happy” I ignored his question

“Do you think I can make her happy?”

“That is a question for you” I say “Can you make her happy?”

“If your silence is an indication you are considering your declaration-“

“Is that what you want? For me to reconsider?” He cuts me off

“Of course not, that is not what I want” I exclaim “It would break Edwina’s heart if you did not propose”

“Is that really what you want?” I decide not to answer and instead change the conversation

“I am to return with Kate to India” I inform him, his face goes pale “The moment Edwina is married”

“You will abandon her?” Anthony says angrily

“Far from it, Anthony, she will be married, she will not need me and for personal reasons, it would be better for me to leave and return once it is time for the next season to start, or maybe not at all” we stopped dancing as he stares at me with wide eyes

“It is better that way” I bowed as the dance finishes, he swallows and marches off. I look at him as he walks further away.

“Where is the Viscount going?” Edwina approached me

“I, I do not know” I answer

“Well what did you say?” I breath heavily

“i- I shall find him” I say to reassure her “Give me a moment” I walk off in search of Anthony.

I see him walk off into a study and follow after him quickly. I close the door after him.

“Why are you so distressed?” I questioned as he paces angrily.

“When will you leave?” He ignores my question “immediately, once your sister is married?”

“That is what Kate and I agreed on, yes” he looks all over the room

“And you will not concern yourself with finding a match of your own?”

“I said I will return for my second season, then am I going to find a husband”

“Is this an excuse to keep me away from your sister? Did Miss Sharma put you up to this, so I would not marry Miss Edwina, that is it, is it not?”

“No, of course not!” I exclaimed getting frustrated “Why does it matter if I leave or not? You want to marry Edwina, not me”

“Then tell me why you are planning to leave” he walked closer to me “Have I done something wrong?” He said exasperated

“No!”

“Why, are you leaving then!” he exclaimed, I huff.

“Pardon me, Anthony, but it does not concern you, you really are starting to vex me with all your demands!” he huffs frustrated

“And what is it, do you think you do to me?”

“What do I do to you?” I exclaimed

We stared at each other, us both breathing heavily. He got closer to me, making my heart start to race.

“You anger me” he murmured

“Well, you anger me too” I whispered nodding my head. His eyes roamed all over my face.

“I am a gentleman” he got even closer to me, I could feel my heart getting ready to burst out of my chest.

“And your heart” I whisper staring into his eyes “is with my sister”

“And my heart” he looks down at my lips “Is with your sister”

His nose brushed mine “What are you doing” I question quietly

“Say you do not feel anything for me” he whispered into my ear, giving me goosebumps “tell me you feel nothing and I will walk away” I closed my eyes

“I feel..” I start to say “ I feel..” he leaned in, his lips brushing over mine.

The door opened making us jump apart quickly, as if our bodies suddenly caught fire.

“Oh” Daphne said shocked “ I am so sorry” She apologized and left quickly.

“Daphne” Anthony said and hurried after her, looking at me one last time and closing the door after him.

I breathed out, blinked my eyes rapidly as tears started to brim my eyes. I closed my eyes after, rubbing my head angrily. A tear escaping my closed eyes.

It will really be better that I leave.

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Dearest gentle reader, while much occurred at the Bridgerton country visit.

This author feels not all is fit to print, especially when so much is already known by far too many members, but if you thought that we would reach the end of this journey without this trusted author finding a truly delectable marcel of gossip, rhen you are solely mistaken.

While Prudence Featherington secured her match, it was not the only appearance of note.

The next morning, we walked down the stairs after bidding everyone a goodbye, giving a hug especially to the Bridgerton family, Daphne stared at me knowingly when I hugged her. We were leaving today for Mayfair.

“I am sorry things did not go as planned Bon” I tell Edwina who walked along sadly, Kate on the other side of her.

“It is not your fault deedee” She tells me “We both did everything we could have done, the Viscount’s feelings are clearly not there for me” I looked down at the floor

“Perhaps they are elsewhere” She said as we approached the carriage, I looked at her, debating on whether to tell her the truth, Kate nodded at me comfortingly from beside her.

“Edwina” I start “There is something I must tell you-“

“Wait!” We turned to the our left side, Anthony approaching us rapidly.

“Anthony” I murmured

“I need to speak to you” I look at him confused “Miss Edwina” he added once he saw I was looking at him

“My lord?” Edwina questioned, when he got closer to her, he knelt down on one knee, my heart started to race quickly.

“Miss Edwina Sharma,” he opened up a ring box, tears started to brim my eyes “Will you marry me?”

I tried to hide the pain I felt from my face, but based on the concerned look Kate gave me, I was not successful.

“Yes, yes” Edwina exclaimed happily, handing me her gloves “yes, I shall be your Viscountess, I shall marry you” Anthony smiled and put the ring on her finger

Anthony Bridgerton is now betrothed to Miss Edwina Sharma.

Victory indeed.

A tear dropped from my eye, I wiped it away quickly, making sure nobody saw me. But everybody was focused on the now betrothed couple, happiness displayed on their faces.

But I, I could feel my heart breaking inside.

A Swim In The Lake

Summary: uh oh, a new suitor has come for Y/n, a Duke to be precise, how does Anthony feel about this? Guess we'll find out, you know you love me, xoxo imalexaalonso1

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader

Word count: 1.9k

Warnings: unedited, a wet Anthony 😗😉, a little, sprinkle, dust, of angst, also, a new suitor that will change things between y/n and Anthony

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The frenzy competition, the thrilling delight of hassling your all, I am referring no to the lure of London luxurious gaming halls, but to a gamble of far higher stakes.

Matrimony.

For, once that particular wager is placed, it cannot easily be undone, a fact of which I am sure, is met with both, regret and sheer relief .

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My chest heaves up and down rapidly, I flutter my brise fan, trying calm down.

“Calm down, bon” Kate says from beside me

The doors open in front of us, Anthony stepping through them. He walks closer to us, holding my stare as he does so. My heart races quickly.

“Miss Sharma” he greets Kate, making me look down.

I let out a sigh and walk into the room after him, Kate following behind. Everyone was already sitting. I sit down on an armchair, Kate next to me.

“Now, tell me of your wedding plans” The queen urges them, I look at Edwina and Anthony “There is no talk of a special license, I would hope” they chuckle nervously

“Of course not, your majesty” Mama assures her

“I believe a modest family affair would be fitting” Anthony adds “Perhaps back at the country, at Aubrey Hall”

“In the country” the queen raises an eyebrow “No, that would not do, you must have it here, in town, in fact, I should host the nuptials, myself” Edwina laughs cheerfully. I wipe my hands on my dress, smiling slightly.

“That is most generous, ma’am”

“Most generous”

“But not at all necessary-“

“nonsense” the queen cut Anthony off “ She is my diamond, after all, it is only right I give you both a wedding of that title” I grab a cup of tea to distract myself, swirling the spoon.

“Besides, one could almost credit me, myself, with bringing about this illustrious match” I stare at them as thoughts consume me, thinking back to a few nights before. Anthony looks back at me, sensing my stare.

“Can you believe it sisters” Edwina asks Kate and I “It is like a fairytale come true”

“You deserve nothing less, bon” I smile at her, Kate nodding agreeing

“Nothing less, for a true love match” the cup shakes my in hand, almost falling off.

“My apologies, your majesty” I say

“It is alright, my dear” the queen waves me off “Miss Y/n, now that you are here, there is someone I want you to meet.” I look at her questioningly

“A family friend” She explains “The Duke of Fairfield, I would rather think you both would make a marvelous match” I could feel Anthony’s stare on my face

“I would be most honored, indeed, your majesty” I say making her smile

“Perfect!” She exclaims “He will be there to see you in a few hours, the earlier you get to know him, the better”

“And we may just have two weddings done by the end of this season” my smile dimmed as I looked down at my tea cup.

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“I do wonder about the trim” Edwina said as she tried on a wedding dress “Is it too much?”

“No” mama laughed “ Nothing is too much now that the queen is hosting”

“Let me show you the French tulle” Madame Delacroix offers

“Did I tell you both we will be married by the archbishop himself?” Edwina questioned, I turned my head towards her.

“Several times” Kate mused

“We must find you a dress too”

“Oh, we have plenty of dresses”

“This one must be special” She urged “and y/n, don’t you want to impress the Duke, I’ve seen you both get closer” a smile came onto my face.

Ah yes, the Duke of Fairfield, Louis Matthews. He is a young, handsome man of seven and twenty, he is kind, has a good sense of humor and very attentive. We share a lot of interests and I am sure I would have fallen in love with him, If only I met him first. Unfortunately, I didn’t.

“the Duke will not care what I wear, bon” I mused

“Besides, this wedding is very much your triumph as it is mine” She smiled at me “after all, whatever you said to the Viscount back at Aubrey Hall, clearly swayed him to declare himself” of course.

“I cannot claim credit”

“I shall bestow it all the same, it will be so exciting living in London, the Viscount said there might be snow this winter, won’t that be exciting”

“ May you recall that Y/n and I are returning back to India once you are married” Kate tells her

“But what about the Duke?” She frowns

“I may not even marry him, Edwina, it is not certain” I shook my head, sighing “ And even if I did, the Duke lives in Birmingham”

“But you both will return to visit, of course”

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“Thank you, Clara, that will be all” I smiled at the maid and climbed up the stairs.

I walk past the drawing room before stopping and entering. “Lord Bridgerton?”

“Miss Y/n”

“Lord Bridgerton and his guest are waiting!” A footman stumbles in quickly, growing sheepish once he noticed us all staring at him.

“I see that, thank you” I sighed taking off my gloves

“This is the jeweler” Anthony nods to the man next to him “ We are to have Miss Edwina’s betrothal ring altered to fit”

“I am afraid my sister and my mother have not yet returned home” I smiled

“Of course, we should trouble you no further” he made to leave before the jeweler stopped him

“Is that cake?” He pointed to the table

“It is, indeed”

“lemon? I fancy a good lemon” he chuckles, I sighed frustrated

“Might I offer you some refreshments, Mr…”

“Brooks, only if you insist” he started to serve himself, I sighed and went to sit down on a chair

I looked at the Viscount who paced desperately. He turned his head towards me.

“It is a fine weather we are having Miss Y/n, I s it not?” I raised an eyebrow, humming

“You wish to speak to me about the weather?” I scoffed

“Is there another topic of conversation that would be more appropriate?” I stood up and walked closer to him

“There is nothing appropriate about what you are doing, proceeding with this engagement” I whispered furiously, insinuating about what happened, or what almost happened, between us.

“On the contrary, I believe it is the most proper outcome for all”

“Oh” I say “And what of everything that passed between us at Aubrey Hall?” I whispered

“Nothing passes between us, I am a gentleman, that was something that should not have happened and never will” I felt a sting in my chest

“Is that so?” I scoff to hide my pain “ might I remind you sir, if anyone other than your sister discovered us in that library, that night, then we too, would be obliged to wed”

“Nothing happened in that library, and even if someone else did discover us, they would think nothing of it, I was pursuing your sister, why would I change my mind from Miss Edwina to you?”

I looked at him with hurt plastered on my face, tears sting my eyes. I stepped further way from him, smiling sadly. “Of course”

“No, wait-“ panic filled his face “ I did not me-“

“Miss Y/n-“ Mr. Brooks started

“If that would be all gentlemen, you can wait for my mother and sister if you like, I must bid my farewell” I left the room, ignoring Anthony’s calls, wiping away my tears.

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I breath in the fresh air of the park. The Duke walking by my side. We were currently promenading, Anthony and Edwina in front of us, Kate and Lady Danbury behind us.

“Are you okay? ”Louis asks “You seem a little down” I look up at him, before looking in front towards Edwina and Anthony, and back at him again.

“I” I sighed “ I am so sorry, my mind seems to he elsewhere ” I apologize, he chuckles

“You are in love with the Viscount” he affirms, I look at him with wide eyes

“What? Of course not!” I exclaim

“It is obvious” he chuckles, I sighed

“I am so sorry, your grace, I promise I was not leading you on or anything” I explain

“You do not need to explain anything” he says “ Although, I’ll just say, I do not care that you love him” I look at him confused

“You are a wonderful woman, and to be honest, I wish to marry you” I gape at him “I will try my best to woo you, if only you give me a chance, I cannot make you forget about your feelings for him, but maybe with time you will” I smile happily

“Alright” I laugh “Courtship first, your grace, although I do not promise anything”

“That is more than enough, and you may call me Louis, none of that, your grace, nonsense” he laughs “now, accompany me on a turn around the lake”

“ I would be delighted”

We walk towards the boats, walking past Anthony, Edwina and Lady Bridgerton, nodding in greeting and continuing our path.

“There is something I must admit” Louis says chuckling as we board the boats “I am afraid of riding on a boat”

“Why would you ask me to ride one then?” I smiled confused

“Well I wanted to do something sweet” he complains “ this seemed the perfect thing to do” I laugh

After a few minutes of laughter, jokes and talking. We return back to the port, Louis trying to tie the rope while we talk.

“I see you are smiling, deedee” Edwina approaches us, Anthony behind her. “See the amusements London has to offer?”

“indeed I have, maybe something, or someone, will change my mind, after all” I smile making Louis laugh, I pay no attention to Anthony’s figure behind Edwina.

“I hope I am that reason, Miss Y/n” Louis teases

“ just Y/n, please” I say

“That knot will never hold” Anthony says sourly and goes to help Louis

“It is perfectly adequate”

“Then I must question your skills, your grace” Anthony looks over at me while I roll my eyes “Allow me” Louis huffs and steps out of the boat, holding his hand out to me.

“Pardon me” Anthony says and holds his hand out also, Louis, once again, huffs and withdraws his hand

“the Duke was going to help me” I raise an eyebrow

“Just accept my hand” he sighs “please” I accept it and he pulls me out of the boat.

He holds my hand for a minute too long before I withdraw it harshly, making him stumble back and trip on Newton, who was laying down behind him. Taking Louis down into the lake with him. We all gasp, before I start laughing.

“Your grace, are you hurt?” I ask Louis who is laughing

“I am fine, thank you for asking” Anthony says angrily, taking off his cravat, his white shirt sticking to his body.

“Your grace” I hold my hand out towards Louis “You may catch a cold” he accepts my hand and steps up into the port, I hold his hand and walk away along with him.

“Oh yes, thank you for worrying about me also, Miss Y/n, what a caring future sister in law, you are” Anthony scoffs sarcastically, I ignore him.

I turn my head back and saw Anthony watching us walk away with an unreadable look on his face. I shook my head and turn back around

He is not my problem to worry about.

Revelations

Summary: Dinner with the Sheffield’s may bring secrets forth

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader

Word count: 2.1k

Warnings:

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“You seem distracted, deedee” Edwina tells Kate

“It’s, uh, just a headache” Kate says and walks over to Edwina after the maid was done dressing her.

I look at Kate worriedly, the ladies maid doing the finishing touched to my hair.

“From, uh, all the excitement these days”

“Is that all that ails you? I have seen how ill at ease you are with the Viscount” I see Kate’s eyes flick over to me “ I was hoping we had put all that behind us now that, Anthony is to be my husband” She smiled giddily

“He has asked you to call him by his given name?” Kate said shocked

“No, not yet” Edwina frowned “It is weird, he gave Y/n the privilege before me, and I, am the one who is going to be his wife” I ignore their talk

“But it sounds fine, does it not?”

“Do you think the Sheffield’s, will like us?” I ask them, changing the conversation “ My stomach is in a knot, wondering what they will think of me, considering I am one and twenty, not married yet, even if it is my first season, and that Edwina was chosen as the Incomparable being younger than me”

“Sisters, before you go, there is something I must tell you both” Kate started, we look at her expectantly

“Our guests have arrived” Lady Danbury interrupts her, Edwina and I looked at each other and smiled, we held hands and walked to the dining room together.

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“Ah, Lord and Lady Sheffield, it has been too long, may I present, Miss Sharma and Miss Y/n and Edwina Sharma” we bowed in greeting

“Oh my dears, look at you” Lady Sheffield smiled “Aren’t they as lovely as the reports say” She looked at me

“Although we were kind of shocked that your younger sister, got to be the incomparable, instead of you” She laughed “Imagine being overthrown by your younger sister, she is the Incomparable and marrying a Viscount ” my smile dimmed at her insult

I looked back at Mama and Kate, they smiled at me reassuringly, I turned back around and got a glimpse of Anthony’s expression from behind the Sheffield’s, his jaw tightened in annoyance.

“We are so happy to make your acquaintance” I said instead, Lady Sheffield gave me a tight smile

“Yes, I am sure” She turned back to Edwina, giving her all her attention “I wish to know everything about you, do enjoy dancing, music”

“You must accompany us to the opera” Lord Sheffield added

I looked between them three before turning and walking back next to Kate, my cheerful mood now gone.

“We have a box that is gathering dust”

“Indeed it has been too long since we’ve seen you both in town, Lord and Lady Sheffield” Lady Bridgerton said

“Yes, indeed it has” Lady Sheffield snarled, looking at mama

“Mother, father” mama greeted

“I do enjoy the opera, My sister, Kate, was the one who introduced Y/n and I, into it” The Sheffield’s said nothing

“Oh, shall we go through to dinner” Lady Danbury cuts through the silence

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We ate dinner, The Sheffield’s speaking only to Edwina, which was a disappointment seeing as I was excited to meet them. But what could I expect from the people that disowned my mother for finding true love.

“Of course, you shall be our guests at the Sheffield Manor, It is nothing compared to the estates of Aubrey Hall to be sure, but I think it a most pretty part of Hertfordshire”

“Do you shoot? We have a fine stock of birds and you are welcome”

“Thank you for the invitation, I do enjoy shooting”

“So does Kate and Y/n, Kate is the one who taught Y/n, and she does enjoy it much” Edwina gestures to us

“How unusual” Lady Sheffield looks at us “ Do they teach young ladies to shoot in India”

“Only the fortunate ones” Kate answers

“Lord and Lady Sheffield, how long do you plan to remain in town?” I ask them

“Well, we will stay for the wedding” Lady Sheffield answers “Imagine, the queen herself overseeing my granddaughter’s nuptials, we should spend more time together, and you tell us all about what you are planning for the wedding”

“May I be able to join you all?” I ask smiling, Lady Sheffield pursued her lips

“You are not the one marrying the Viscount, are you?” I stayed quiet “I thought so”

“Her majesty is so forgiving, after everything that happened”

“Now, now, we are all family” Lord Sheffield said to his wife, who laughed humorously

“Of course we are” she looked at mama “even after our daughter so callously rejected the match we had found for her”

“My dear, we agreed-“

“-Ah and no less, with twelve thousand acres, any other young lady would have fallen to her knees in gratitude that her parents were showing such care” I looked at her annoyed

“This was delicious Lady Danbury, you must have your cook give mine the recipe” Lady Bridgerton interjected

“it is the gooseberry, I believe” Lady Danbury laughs “Lady Sheffield, you’ve got quite the sweet tooth, I do recall?”

“And all for what? A mere clerk, was he? And with a child from a previous marriage to God knows who”

“She did it for love!” I exclaimed, everyone looked at me shocked

“Y/n-“ Mama started to say but I ignored her

“Something which I am sure you know nothing about since you disowned your only daughter because she fell in love? What kind of parents are you?” they gasped incredulously

“How dare-“

“And my sisters mother has a name”

“We could not show our faces in society for years, not that she should care” she ignored everything I just said

“She simply sailed away from all of us with that man, robbing us of our grandchild”

“Grandchildren” mama said “I have three daughters with whom you have had every opportunity to form a connection. But the choice to shun us was yours alone”

“I beg your pardon-“

“Do not think I took it lightly, being cast out by the only family I had ever known. I was heartbroken, indeed. But in time, I came to see, that in your cruelty, you did us all a great service”

“I hardly think this is a proper dinner conversation”

“I completely agree, please collect-“

“When you cast me out, what you did was set me free. Free to raise my daughters far from your constant judgment and craven demands that they should chase wealth and titles above all else!”

“I see where Y/n gets her character from, talking back to her seniors, where is her manners” Lady Sheffield chuckles “You are a fine one to talk. You speak of scoring riches, and yet you have come crawling back to snatch at our fortune”

“Lady Danbury is right-“Kate interrupts

“Believe me, I want nothing from you”

“Oh, you may not, but your daughters certainly does” She points at Edwina and i, we all look at her confused

“mama?” Edwina said confused

“The trust funds we have set up for her, the condition of which clearly states that she must marry a man of good English breeding to inherit. You did not think we would allow another generation to pollute the Sheffield name, did you?”

“What nonsense are you sayi-“ I say angrily

“Oh shut up child, you are the least person to talk seeing as it does not concern you, you are not marrying anyone of English nobility” I furrowed my eyebrows

“Deedee, what are they talking about?” Edwina asks Kate

“What have you done?” Mama snaps

“Anthony, did you know about this?” Lady Bridgerton questions

“I shall explain everything” Kate tells us

“I see this one has inherited your penchant for avoiding the truth, honestly dear, are you even raising your daughters right? Seems Edwina is the only pride of the family. The eldest one, I am not even going to bother saying anything. The second? Has the character of the first, a disappointment, does not even have one single proposal from a gentleman, and was not named the incomparable, which I can see why as Edwina is more prett-“

“That is enough!” Anthony exclaims furiously, Lady Sheffield quiets down “I can only think you’ve been exiled from good society because of your deficient manners rather than any other sin. Since the moment you arrived, you have failed to show the proper respect for the Sharma family, and I will not stand for it.”

“I declare-“

“I will not stand for it!” Anthony repeats “Lady Mary has done admirably in raising her daughters. They are intelligent, kind, loyal women and a credit to both their parents” He stares at me

“And since you clearly do not wish to jeopardize your social standing by associating with such company, I suggest you do not. You may leave at once!” he throws his napkin at the table and stands up

“You cannot be serious!”

“Please be kind to send for Lord and Lady Sheffield’s carriage, they can wait outside, and do not trouble yourselves for an invitation for the wedding, for you shall not receive one”

“This is beyond the pale, and if you think you shall inherit a single sovereign now, you are solely mistaken” Lord Sheffield says as he takes his leave

Leaving us all confused and betrayed by Kate’s actions at the table

“Lord and Lady Bridgerton, I must apologize-“

“We should take our leave” Anthony interrupts mama

“Thank you for the evening, Lady Danbury, it was quite enlightening ”

“My lord-“ Edwina stands up

“Good evening” he walks away

“Y/n, do something” Edwina begs me “Anything, he will listen to you” I look at her unsure before I go after the Viscount

“Lord Bridgerton!” I call out desperate “Lord Bridgerton, I beg a word!” he stops

“We must be going”

“please”

“Mother, I shall meet you at the house” Lady Bridgerton nodded and walked off

I looked around and walked into a room, Anthony following behind.

“You must know, neither Edwina or I knew about what Kate did, coming to England, finding ourselves a match, we had no idea, you cannot be angry at her” I plead

“I am not, I take it both of you were in the dark about your sisters schemes”

“I am sure Kate did not mean any harm, she is not like that, she only wishes the best for us” I cut in

“I take it there’ll be no dowry now that the Sheffield’s have withdrawn their support” I scoff

“You care about the dowry? I am quite certain it is because of what you just did, that the Sheffield’s withdrew it”

“It is regrettable, to be sure, but clearly Miss Edwina and I have both been misled, and it is best to call off this doomed engagement before it is the cause of any more strife”

“Of course, I would never besmirch, my mother and Lady Danbury will make a plan-“

“Anthony!” I looked at him as if he had gone crazy “What is wrong with you?”

“Why are you even suggesting this?” I ask “ Were you not the one who has been set on marrying Edwina, and now you intend to cast her?” He nodded his head angrily

“And do not say because of the dowry, you told me yourself that you had enough money of your own and did not care for something like a dowry” I scoff “So, tell me, what has she done?”

“She has done nothing, it is you. You have made this match impossible” he admits

“Me?! I have done nothing but he supportive of you both” I exclaim

“Supportive?” He huffs “Of course, you were being supportive when you put my hand on your bosoms, you were most definitely being supportive in that library when we almost-“

“I am leaving with Kate for India”

“And it is not far enough!” he stuns me into silence “Do you think that there is a corner of this earth that you could travel to far away enough to free me from this torment?”

“I am a gentleman, my father raised me to act with honor, but that honor is hanging by a thread that grows more precarious with every moment that I spend in your presence” my heart starts to race rapidly

“You are the bane of my existence, and the object of all my desires, night and day, I dream of you,” he walks closer to me “and what i- do you even know all the ways a lady can be seduced? The things I could teach you” his breath hits my face, his lips brushing mine

“Anthony” I whispered looking down at his lips “I did not ask for this, to have this feelings, for you. Hiding them from Edwina. Being driven to distraction every time you enter the room” he puts his hand on my cheek

“Then you agree, it is insupportable.”

“Impossible” his lips meet mine for a second before he pulls away, shaking his head. Tears start brimming in my eyes.

“If I wed your sister, it will bind me and you together for eternity and I will spend every day of my marriage wanting you, dreaming of you, dreading the day when my last thread of honor finally snaps.” He murmurs

“Is that the future that you want for us? For your sister? Because I do not,” he gets closer to me once again “So it is better that we call the engagement off, so as to not hurt her, and maybe, after some time, I can-“

“What is going on?!”

She knows

Summary: Arguments and farewells

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader

Word count: 1.3k

Warnings: unedited, angst, a moment you were maybe waiting for, arguments between sisters, and goodbyes

*Also, i skipped the wedding and instead made Edwina find out about Anthony and Y/n’s feelings that very night, as I couldn’t do that to my Bon. I can’t write what is supposed to be Edwina’s happiest day of her life and make it her worst. So it’s better for her to find out sooner than when she is already at the altar. Although, this doesn’t mean there will be a happy ever after that quickly, no sir/ma’am, there will still be more parts and obstacles to overcome*

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Edwina walked into the room as we jumped away from each other. “I asked what is going on!”

“Nothing is going on, bon, we were just talking-“ I say as she looks at me betrayed

“Just talking, I saw you both close enough to kiss, why would-“ realization crossed her face as tears filled her eyes

“I get it now, all those times you both would disappear alone, you both would be very pensive and distracted, you call him by his given name!” Edwina exclaims

“Miss Edwina-“

“Lord Bridgerton, if you could leave, I would be most grateful”

“But Miss-“

“Now please!” I looked at him and nodded. When he left, Edwina continued.

“I want the truth!” She exclaimed loudly, footsteps could be heard approaching the room. Mama entering soon after.

“What is going on?”

“Oh, suddenly your words fail you, sister?” She scoffs

“Edwina, Y/n, I am not sure what is going on”

“I shall tell you what is going on mama,” Edwina says “ after a time of ‘helping me’ win over the Viscount, all those talks I’ve had with her and Kate, of great, gallant notions and looks between lovers-“

“Edwina-“ I shake my head panicked

“You have feelings for him!” Edwina cries out, mama looks between us shocked “All this time, you wanted him for yourself”

“No, that is not true” I denied

“Oh, you cannot deny it now, Y/n!” She yelled “How could I have been such a fool? You made a fool out of me, again and again! You told me, you told me nice things about the Viscount, made me like him more each, and every single time!” tears drop from my eyes

“I fooled myself into believing you and only the purest of intentions, that your only desire was for me to be happy”

“And you are no one's fool. That is the truth” I plead with her, she walked closer to me.

“Do you love him?” my face paled “You told me it did not matter that he was pursuing me, that you were happy for us, but I saw you, every time, the pain in your eyes but I ignored it, your happy smile… your feelings were strong. Do you love him?” I stayed quiet

“That is enough!” Mama exclaimed “Let us all take a moment to calm ourselves, shall we?”

“Now, the Viscount does not wish to marry me any longer and it is all your fault, I am certain, this has not been the first time you have been in such circumstances, has it?” I nodded slowly, she deserves the truth after all. Edwina sobbed.

“You know, you were supposed to be the one to stop me from getting hurt, instead, you are the person who has inflicted the most pain in me, your betrayal hurts worse than Kate’s” She stormed out of the room, mama going after her.

I breath out, looking around the room before I fall down to the floor, crying.

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I was taking a walk around the garden, thinking everything over. I sit down on a bench, looking at the fountain in the middle of the garden. I sniffle as tears stung my eyes, for what seems like the million time since the country visit to Aubrey Hall.

“Y/n” I turn around wiping my eyes, Anthony behind me.

“You cannot be he-“

“I have just spoken to Miss Edwina, we thought it better to end this engagement” I stayed silent “ She certainly was harsher than I thought her to be, you know she gave me a lecture, said she thought everything over in the night and has come to a conclusion”

“She is braver and wiser than us both, she had the courage to act on what she sensed between us, and here we are, standing perfectly still, having felt it for months, and not even acting on it” I looked down at the floor

“I suffered all this time” I admitted sadly “watching you pursuing my sister, those moments that passed between us and you saying it was a mistake, and something that should have not happened, you proposing to my sister and saying that no one would suspect anything happening between us because of you had the diamond, why would you pursue a piece of coal”

“So forgive me, if it is now my wish, to suspend time, to not start something that I know is inevitable, to distance ourselves, and this time, make you wait”

I walk closer to him and put my hand on his cheek. My eyes roaming all over his face before I leaned in and kissed him.

He kissed me back fiercely, his hands on my back to hold me better, my own hands going around his neck. Our mouths move perfectly in sync, putting all those feelings we held back into the kiss.

He puts his hand on my cheek as I pull away from the kiss. Our breaths heavy as we stare at one another. I hold back my tears as I smiled sadly.

“Goodbye, Anthony” I walk away

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I enter the room where Edwina is waiting for me. She did not turn to look at me as I entered, I sighed sadly.

“Edwina, you must know, I never intended to wound you. I know I should have told you everything, about how I felt” She finally looked at me “Yes, yes, I do have feelings for the Viscount. But they were no match for the love I had, and continue to have, for you. And you must know I will do everything in my power to ensure your happiness”

“Including going back to India with Kate? That is your solution, is it not?”

“I wish to make things right. My feelings for Anth- Lord Bridgerton do not matter anymore” I sniffled

“What is to be of the Viscount?”

“I have told him I cannot be with him”

“Why would you do that? You love him” She questioned

“But I love you more, and I cannot be with him knowing that you liked him, I have hurt you and I will not hurt you anymore, so I will give him up, it does not matter, as long as you are happy” She smiled sadly

“I loathe that you cannot be selfish for once, I am pretty sure the Viscount already told you, I thought about this all night. You told me the very first day you saw him, that you saw him first. You helped me with him, helped him pursue me, and you never once told me you wanted him for yourself.” She said

“Why are you putting everyone’s happiness before your own? Be selfish, for once, go after what you want, what you so very desire, him. I forgive you, didi. But I will need time, to heal, to prepare myself just in case you ever do agree to be with him” She admitted “Think about what I said, yeah?” She gave me a small smile and left.

A new plan

Summary: Both families have brewed a new plan, now let's just hope it works out well.

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader

Word count: 1.3k

Warnings: unedited, bad grammar, more arguments, lingering looks, I think that's all

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“Straight into the fire, a favorite pastime of mine. Now, remember, it was a mutual understanding about a private matter between Miss Edwina and the Viscount. That is all we are to say on the subject” Lady Danbury reminds us as we promenade.

Lady Danbury and Lady Bridgerton, decided to have a promenade together, as if to say that Edwina and Anthony, broke off the engagement on friendly terms.

They announced the end of Anthony and Edwina’s engagement a few days ago, with the reasoning, that they did not share common interests and after some time, decided they would be better breaking off the engagement. Although they were still on very good terms.

The ton has been making snide remarks to us since, although a broken engagement is not unheard of, it is rare, and most of the times, it is always the lady's fault, maybe she was ruined, maybe something was wrong with her, etcetera

“is this truly our plan? Simply to pretend nothing has happened?” Edwina remarks

“We are not pretending nothing has happened, we are choosing to deal with it in private, in our own time. Scandals may cast aspersions, but they do not obligate us to answer to anyone.” Mama answers

“Besides, the ton has a remarkably short memory, with any luck, by this time next week, there will be a bigger story for them to sink their rapacious teeth into. We may find you a husband still, this season, Miss Edwina” Lady Danbury assures

“Miss Y/n” the Duke of Fairfield approaches us, greeting the rest after.

“Miss Edwina, I was sorry to hear about your broken engagement with the Viscount, you both made a beautiful couple” Louis says

“Yes, well, I am not too sure about that” Edwina gave him a tight-lipped smile, Louis hummed.

“May I promenade with you all?” He questions

“Of course, your grace, you are most welcomed” Lady Danbury accepted

Louis smiled and walked by my side. “Lovely day, is it not?”

“I suppose it is” I answer smiling

“I do not really get the people of the ton, someone breaks an engagement and suddenly, it is the worst thing they could have done and they should not talk to those people” Louis scoffs

“I am afraid that is the people of the ton” Kate mused

I sighed and looked around, I stopped once I saw the Bridgerton’s a few feet away from us, already staring at us. Anthony’s stare switched between Louis and I before his jaw clenched. I ignored him and looked away.

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“After everything that happened with his scullery maid last season, and Lord Cho cuts me?” Lady Danbury exclaims pacing around the drawing room before sitting down. We are all seated, Lady Bridgerton, Anthony, mama, my sisters and I.

“We know what we are to deal with, at least” Lady Bridgerton mused

“We shall not remove ourselves from this fight. All will be lost if we run now” I can see Edwina stare at Anthony and I.

“I should like to remove myself from this room.” Edwina stood up to get more tea as I sighed

“Every day that goes by without our altering the ton shared sentiment will harden it”

“Perhaps we need another story as to why things ended” Mama suggested, giving us a look

“We have already started to tell one. We cannot change course now”

“Well, if we cannot speak about the reasons, might we at least act as though they are of no consequence to us?”

“A ball”

“Yes, together. We prove to the ton that our story is true. It was indeed a mutual decision between all interested parties, and there is no scandal or ill will between our families at all” Edwina huffed

“A ball would give Edwina another chance to find a suitor”

“Another ball?” I questioned “So that the ton might inspect this wreckage with an even closer eye?”

“Yes, I think the same thing” Anthony agreed quickly, I looked at him with raised eyebrows, he only stared back at me.

“A ball may very well work” Edwina cuts in, breaking our stare “After all the Viscount and my sister have been so good at hiding their true feelings from everyone in public this far. It should not trouble them to do the same a little longer”

“Edwina-“ I start to say but Newton entering the room cuts me off

“Kate,” I call out as Newton makes his way to Anthony, putting his paws on Anthony’s knees “Newton, off!, Kate, your dog!” I stand up

“Newton, out!” I say and shooed Newton away, Anthony also standing up

After Newton was out of the room, I looked back at Anthony who was already staring at me. I stare back before I looked away, feeling awkward with everyone in the room staring at us.

“Was I truly that blind?” Edwina said shocked “Were they always this obvious?”

“If this plan is to work..”

“I suggest the two of you stay on opposite sides of the room at all times” Lady Danbury separates us with her walking stick.

“I assure you, that will not be a problem, Lady Danbury “ I assure them, I give Anthony one last lingering stare before going to sit next to Kate instead.

“All we need would be for someone to witness something untoward-”

“I beg your pardon, Lady Danbury” Anthony cuts her off “ I do not know what you mean to say”

“What she means to say, Anthony, is that those of us in this room at present are the only ones who know the full truth of the matter, and we would prefer to keep it that way” Lady Bridgerton explains

“If there is so much as a passing look between the two of you, then this plan of ours will be for nothing. Are we all in agreement?” We nod

“Quite, Lady Danbury” Anthony says before he walks away, Lady Bridgerton following soon.

We stay silent, no one daring to talk first “What will you do after, sister?” I look at Edwina confused “After the scandal dies down, will you marry the Viscount or did you just break off our engagement for the fun of it” I look at her in disbelief

“Edwina, why would you say such thing?” Kate says

“I am only asking, so tell me sister, what is it?” Edwina huffs

“You know I did not break your engagement nor did I do anything to sabotage it” I murmured

“Then? Because you said you did not plan to start anything with Lord Bridgerton, so then what did you accomplish with this?”

“Edwina, stop it” mama pleads

“Edwina, I know you are hurt, but that is no excuse for you to act the way you do” I snapped, angry tears brimming my eyes “I did not ask for any of this! And for you to even insinuate it, is just plain cruel”

“You know I have done nothing but want the best for you, all I wanted was for you to be happy, and I did everything so you could be it, even if it meant watching you almost marry the man I had grown to love, so do not. Do not, accuse me of sabotaging your engagement because I did no such thing!” I scoff “You said you have forgiven me and only needed time, I have given you what you asked for, space and time. Thank you so much for being so understanding and forgiving, sister” I march away angrily

Another Scandal

Summary: Maybe Lady Bridgerton and Lady Danbury's plan won't work, after all, it was only a matter of time when a new scandal would rise concerning them

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader

Word count: 2.1k

Warnings: angst, more arguments *sigh*, at least one happy moment in so long

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“Everything will be alright, bon” Kate assures me as we step out of the carriage. “Just breath and you will be alright” I gave her a thankful smile, holding on to her arm.

“Lady Danbury” Anthony and Lady Bridgerton approaches us, different types of bouquets of flowers on the Viscount’s hands.

“Lady Mary, Miss Sharma” He gave mama and Kate a bouquet, and then moved on to me.

“Miss Y/n..” He handed me a bouquet of lilacs, holding my stare, his hand lingering on mine before he turned to Edwina

My heart warmed at the gesture, thinking back to the night were I told Anthony that, lilacs, were my favorites. He made sure to remember that.

“Miss Edwina, i-“ Edwina handed the bouquet to the footman, I gave her a look making her sent me a glare back

“How thoughtful of you, Lord Bridgerton” Lady Danbury mused

“Now, remember, before we are to sent out our invitations, we must appear to be enjoying each other's company” Lady Bridgerton said as she looked at Edwina “Shall we?” she gestured to the entrance of the museum.

Edwina walked in first, followed by Lady Bridgerton, mama and Kate. I gave my flowers to the footman, before I walked in, sparing no glance to Anthony.

I walked along with Lady Bridgerton and Edwina, paying no heed to the murmurs that followed us as we walked.

“Do not be deterred. If we can put the wedding behind us, so can they” Lady Bridgerton said before we all parted, Kate and I, headed off to see what the museum offers.

“I am grateful for you, deedee” I admit as we stared up at the sculpture of a man and woman “ for your support, all this time, since I’ve told you of my feelings, you have been nothing but understanding and supportive, you have not once judged me for what I did, nor shut me out, and I am grateful to call, and have you as, my sister” Kate smiled

“I know you would have done the same, were I, in your place” Kate stared at me happily “And you have, when everything happened with the Sheffield’s inheritance, you let me explain myself and did not hold any ill feelings towards me. Just like I know that you will be when I tell you that, indeed, I met a man back in India” I looked at her shocked

“I will tell you all about it some other time, for now, there is too much ears around” Kate laughed while I nodded

“It seems both Miss Cowper and Miss Goring are swallowing the story about the engagement being halted due to a mutual decision” Edwina murmured as she approached us

“That is good” Kate says

“Well, I appear to be a very good liar” Edwina turned to look at me “Something else you and the Viscount have taught me, perhaps”

“Edwina” I huffed “What will it take for you to forgive me? Because honestly, I am getting tired of all your snide remarks everything the Viscount and I are in the same place. But you are my sister, and if I must apologize every day for the rest of my life, I will”

“But you cannot say you forgive me and then continue making this type of comments, with the excuse of being hurt. Your happiness is all that has mattered to me, Bon, to us” I gestured to Kate and I “and believe me, I am reaping the consequences of destroying it every second and day that passes” Edwina stayed silent

“ I remember the books you used to read to me from Appa’s library.” Edwina tells Kate “The stories of true love and happy endings against all odds. Now I question if either of those things are true. Do you, yourself, truly believe them?”

“Of course I believe in true love, and happy endings. How could I not?” I answered

“You saw appa and mama, how happy they once were-” Kate added

“What I saw is how even that ended in tragedy. Happy endings do not exist, sisters. At least not in real life. Even if I do forgive you with time, y/n, I am never going to forget, you be sure of that” I blinked away my tears as Edwina walked away from us. Kate rubbing my shoulder comfortingly

“Give her more time-“

“How much time am I suppose to give her? It has been a week and she still is as hurt as when she found out. I do not understand why she is acting as though it is the end of love. Anthony is the first man she has even remotely liked, and has not even bothered to look at any other man, and I daresay, she only liked him because he was the first man to pursue her, and because of his title. I know it is cruel for me to say this, but it is true. She does not love him, if Edwina really loved Anthony as much as she acts like she does, she would only desire to see him happy, no matter who it is with” I scoffed

“She is just seventeen, she has more time to become a wife, or fall in love, so why I’d she acting like love is not real”

“I am not sure” Kate pursued her lips “With time she will forget about it, I am sure, she will fall in love again with another man and we will all go back to how we were before everything happened”

“I really hope so, deedee, I really do” I mumbled

“Now, I will go speak to mama and Lady Danbury” I nodded before she left

And then there was one, one who was seriously rethinking everything she has done since coming to London.

Were those moments I shared with Anthony, really worth it? Was he worth it? Losing my sister’s trust and love over my feelings for the Viscount. Something which I know I will never get back, no matter how much Kate says I will.

I will never be as close to Edwina as I was before coming London. Edwina herself has said it, she may forgive me, but she will never forget, and I know that she will always be reminded of pain I inflicted when she sees me or spends time with me.

I never asked for it, any of it. And if I could take it back, I would. No man is worth losing family over, at least the family that has always loved and supported you.

“Miss Y/n” Anthony snapped me out of my thoughts, I looked at him behind the sculpture. “I’ve been wishing for a moment to be alone with you. To speak”

“There is nothing to speak about, Viscount Bridgerton” I murmured

“We kissed-“

“We did no such thing. Nothing happened between us, how could it?. You were my sister’s intended, there is no world in which we could kiss”

He rounded the sculpture, looking at me in disbelief “Are you quite serious?”

“We, I, did a terrible thing” I stare at him as he walked closer “We should be ashamed of what we did. It was a mistake, it should not have happened at all” he furrowed his eyebrows

“And there is no way it is ever going to happen again” I march off, leaving him behind staring as, this time, it is me walking away from him

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We walk through the Bridgerton house, all decorated for tonight’s ball.

Edwina still could not bare to look at me, and has not done so at all this past few days, unless necessary. To say I was hurt, angry and confused with everything going on was a understatement.

“Well, this is unexpected” Lady Bridgerton mused as we walk through the doors, the place was completely deserted, not a single soul that was not us, present.

“It is still quite early, I suppose” mama assured

“Would you still like us to play, my lady?” a man approached Lady Bridgerton

“That will not be necessary”

“If there’s no need for my presence, I’ll head to my studio” Benedict said, patting his eldest brother’s shoulder “I do not wish to be around such misery all evening”

“Wait!” Anthony called out

“I know of your opinions brother-“

“You will stay for a dance” Anthony pats his cheek “There shall be dancing, a new perspective, yes?” we all looked at each other confused before he turned back to the staircase

“Hyacinth!”

“Yes, brother?”

Anthony puts out his hands “Come down here and do me the honor” I smile as Hyacinth comes down the staircase happily, Gregory following behind.

“Come! Show this dowager the benefit of all these lessons I heat you’ve been taking, Mr. Bridgerton” Lady Danbury says as she puts her walking stick away

“He is much better than me, I’ll say” Eloise mused

“Something lively. A country dance, perhaps” Anthony said as we all grabbed hands, forming a circle. I felt Anthony’s stare at me as the music started, I stared back at him, smiling admiringly.

We separated into pairs, bowing as we started to dance. We laughed as the men walked into the middle of the circle before choosing a pair. I got stuck with Kate and Colin, not that I am complaining.

Now it was our turn to walk into the circle, after, I was still with Colin while Kate was now with Lady Bridgerton. We twirled happily, our moods now brightening. We formed a circle, the men’s turn to walk in. This time, Anthony walked towards me before anyone else could.

I laughed as he smiled smugly, twirling me around, holding me softly, a lot closer than we needed to, as we stared at each other’s eyes. But this was our time to be close without anyone saying anything.

He twirled me around one last time before the dance ended. Us still holding each other’s hands as we breathed heavily. He pulled me closer when everyone was not paying attention, giving my cheek a kiss. I playfully shoved him away, smiling, before I stepped away from him.

“Perhaps a quadrille” Hyacinth suggested cheerfully

“Perhaps, we should start eating some of that food” Colin said

We headed off towards the tables, Kate and I chatting happily as we grabbed some food. I extended my hand to grab a glass of lemonade, instead I crashed into another’s grabbing the same thing. I laughed as I looked up, Anthony’s smiled greeting me. He gestured for me to grab the glass and I did, thanking him

“It was just delivered ma’am” we looked at them to see Mrs. Wilson handing Lady Bridgerton a piece of paper.

“Is that Lady Whistledown?” Eloise asked as she approached them “Has she published, mama?”

“Indeed she has, now we may know why we are the only ones here” Lady Bridgerton answered as she read. We crowded around them as they looked up shocked.

Eloise looked crestfallen as she finished, we looked at each other worriedly as she ran up to her bedchambers. With the mood now ruined, we did not know what to do.

“Should we return home now, bon” Kate asked Edwina as we approached her.

“As if you cared what I would like to do” Edwina answered angrily

“Edwina, this is cruelty-“ Kate huffed

“Do not dare… try to make me out to be the cruel one. I may not know who I truly am, but at least I know I am kind hearted than you” Edwina looked at me

“Have you not been listening to anything I have told you, Edwina, i-“ I looked at her hurt

“Enough, Y/n, you have done more than enough” She walked towards mama

“Y/n, do not list-“ I ignore Kate’s words and walk off outside, frustrated tears falling down my face.

A New Step

Summary: indeed, no one showed up, but, that will not be the end of the night rest assured.

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader

Word count: 2.0k

Warnings: SMUT!!, if you do not feel comfortable reading, there will be this 》♧♧♧♡♡◇◇《 so you can skip it if you want to, no point in saying 18+ cause let's be honest, you're going to read it anyway even if it says 18+. Arguments 😮‍💨😤, a new step for Y/n and Anthony.

Also, this will be the first time I have written smut so, don't judge or make fun. Enjoy!!

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I am so tired of everything, when will I get a break. From everything, Edwina’s cruel remarks, society scrutinizing our every move, trying and failing to repress my feelings towards Anthony. I cannot bottle everything away for so long.

I head off towards the garden’s, everything I bottled up for so long, breaking through. I covered my face with my hands, sitting down on a chair, trying to calm myself down.

“What are you doing out here?”

“My apologies” I say to Anthony as I stand up

“No, no, please, stay” He begs, I sighed, not in the mood to argue

I nod as I sit down once again, he sat down next to me “I am tired, Anthony” I rest my head on his shoulder “With everything going on, I never thought it all would get so hard. Edwina is hurt, makes cruel comments directed at us, and will not speak to me unless mama, Kate or Lady Danbury tells her to. The ton and their gossip…and, we should not be here, alone, unchaperoned” I come to my senses, standing up once again

“Nobody will see us, just sit down ”

“No, you cannot assure that, you already know what will happen if someone sees us here, I will be ruined, and you will get out unscathed, like me always do” I argue

“Must you do this? We were getting along well before you started with your arguments, why are you so complicated all the time, I cannot keep up with you, and you never listen to what I say or ask you to do” He huffs

“Well, I can certainly understand why that would be so troubling for a man like you” I narrow my eyes at him

“A man like me?” He rolls his eyes “Pray tell me, what do you mean by a man like me?” He scoffs

“A man used to always getting his way, a man always used to giving orders-” I explain

“I do not give orders” Anthony scowls

“You tell me something and expect me to listen, I do not and will not do it-“

“Perhaps you should”

“I’ll never listen to you! Or to anyone I wholeheartedly disagree with!” I snap angrily “ The fact it has taken you this long to cone to terms with that, to accept that fact”

“You wish to know why?”

“Because you yourself are complicated, refusing to accept anything that does not benefit you. I am uncertain you even know why” I huff

“I know why”

“Enthrall me with your self knowledge and awareness, oh so mighty, Viscount Bridgerton” I scowl

“It is because I have never met anyone like you” he shakes his head as he admits, I stay silent “ You are one of the nicest, supportive people I have ever met, and yet, you can be quite competitive and challenging”

“It is maddening, how much you consume my very being” he breathes out “My family is on the brink of ruin. I am nearly certain every last one of my brothers and sisters secretly despise me, my own mother, at that. Despite the fact that I have lived the better part of my life for them. And yet still, all I find myself thinking about, all I find myself being able to breath for, is you” I hold his stare

“Do you think that I want to be in this position?” I shake my head, understanding him “ Contending with these thoughts of wanting to be nowhere except with you. Wanting to run away with you. Of acting on the most impure, forbidden desires, no matter how much I must remind myself” He walks closer to me

“I am gentleman, and you are a lady, of that, that scent” he breaths in, his nose brushing my neck making me gasp out “It has remained imprinted on my mind ever since the night of my mother’s ball on the library. Lilies” he whispers out, I stare down at his lips before i look back into his eyes

“You have to stop” he says, I chuckle

“I have to stop?” I whisper humorously

“There is no other course of action to be concluded. You must stop!”

“It has been you” I admit, walking to the other side “It has been you this entire time, spinning my world off its axis, making me hate myself over and over again for having feelings for you when, Edwina was gaining feelings for you as you kept pursuing her.”

“Do you know how hard it was? Pretending to feel nothing for you except friendship, that I felt nothing whenever you touched me, or smiled at me, that I did not feel the desire to kiss you whenever you were in the room. And all for Edwina to be happy” I shake my head “You are the one who must stop, before-“

“Before what? Before we finally give in to our desires? Before we stop caring for whatever everyone else may feel and only care for how we feel?” We stare at each other intensely

He clenched his jaw, breathing out “Please go inside” I furrowed my eyebrows shaking my head “Go. Inside.”

“What did I tell you about you and your orders?” I scowl

He stares at me, shakes his head and approaches me quickly, and slams his lips to mine. I kiss back gasping as he groans.

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He puts his hands on my waist, one of his hands wandering down before pulling my dress up and disappearing under it.

I stop the kiss, I gasp before moaning out as he touches the place no one has ever before, grasping onto his shoulder tightly. He groans, letting go of me and putting his hands up in surrender.

“I will stop”

“No, do not stop” I shake my head, kissing him fiercely.

He kissed me back before turning me back around, kissing down my shoulder, unlacing my dress, letting it fall down once it was unbuttoned. I turn back around, kissing him once again as he takes off his coat. I take off my gloves, helping him unbutton his shirt once I am done, all while still kissing him.

He took of my tights and bottoms as he pulls me down to lay on a makeshift bed, getting on top of me. He kissed down my body, I gasped out as his head moved lower and lower, his hand staying on top of my bosoms. I moaned as his mouth got to that one part where I needed him the most, he opened his hand, giving me something to hold on, I grabbed it, holding onto it tightly as he pleasures me, my other hand going to grab the pillow where I was laying my head on.

I buried my head into the pillow, moaning out loudly. Anthony got on top of me once more, settling between my legs. I held onto his head, my breaths coming out fast and shallow. I kissed him once more, my hands going around his neck to pull him even closer.

He stopped the kiss and started to take off his belt and pants, once he was done, he parted my legs even more, settling at my entrance, I breath out heavily as I knew what was to come.

“This may hurt for a moment” he caressed my cheeks lovingly “I am so sorry, my love” He plunged forward.

“Oh,” I gasped. “Oh, god.” He groaned, burying his head into my neck as his body began to move in an ancient rhythm.

His mouth smashed over mine as one of his hands snaked up to caress my face lovingly. I rose my hips hips to meet his, moving tentatively at first, then with a vigor that matched the desire and passion that was rising with each move of Anthony.

“Oh, God, Y/n,” he moaned, his ability to form flowery sentences completely lost in the primitive heat of the moment. “You’re so good. So good.”

I moaned along with him, closing my eyes, wrapping my legs around his waist, bringing him even closer, him hitting places that he was not before, bringing me much more pleasure

My breath was coming faster and faster, my moans more frequent with every passing moment. Anthony turned my head and kissed me to quiet me down, groaning into my mouth.

With a ragged groan, he forced himself to stop thrusting and catch his breath. “Y/n?” he said hoarsely

My eyes, which I had closed as the pleasure was too much, snapped open. “Don’t stop,” I pleaded , “please don’t stop. I’m so close to something…I don’t know what. God, Anthony please”

“Oh, God,” he groaned, plunging back in to the hilt, throwing his head back as his spine arched. “You’re so beautiful, so unbelievably perfect”

“All mine, just mine” he murmured as he thrust in and out quickly, I dug my nails into his back, moaning.

“Probably could have done this faster if you only paid attention to me before and did not start courting my sister instead, which is now making me doubt if your intentions are pure, now that I think about it” I gasped out teasingly, he stopped moving, looking at me amused

“Really? You want to speak about your sister right now?” He raised a eyebrow, I chuckle “You better stop, or I’m going to have to tie you up and have my way with you a hundred different ways, until you finally get it through your silly skull that you are the most beautiful and desirable woman in England, and if everyone else doesn’t see that, then they’re all bloody fools.” My mouth fell open

One of his brows arched into what had to be the most arrogant expression ever to grace his face. “Is that understood?” I nodded, not being able to form a sentence

“Good,” he grunted, and then, before I could catch my breath, his lips were devouring mine in a kiss so fierce, I was clutching the bed just to keep from screaming.

His hips ground into mine, frenzied in their power, thrusting, rotating, stroking until i was certain I could not take anymore. I moaned out, little screams escaping me.

I clutched at him tightly “I cannot take anymore Anthony, it is too muc- oh!” I gasped, certain I would break any given moment. My muscles were stiff, tense, and it was getting hard to breathe. But if he heard me, he didn’t care. His face was a harsh mask of concentration, sweat beading on his brow.

“Anthony,” I said, breathing heavily “I can—”

One of his hands slipped between us and touched me, I screamed, his mouth covering mine, muffling my screams. He slammed forward one last time, and everything simply fell apart.

I went stiff, then my body shaked, I felt like I had died and gone to heaven. I could not breathe, could not even gasp. My head fell back as her my hands switched between grabbing at the mattress or Anthony, with a ferocity I never have believed I possessed.

Anthony went utterly still above me after he pulled out, his mouth open in a silent scream, and then he collapsed, the weight of him pressing me farther into the mattress.

“Oh, my God,” he groaned, his body now shaking. “Never…it’s never…so good…it’s never been so good.” He kissed me again, lovingly this time, his hands caressing all over my body.

He laid down on my other side, pulling me into him, my head laying on his chest as he wrapped his hands around me. I calmed my breath as he gave my forehead a kiss.

“It is alright, darling, sleep, I will be here in the morning” he murmured sweetly.

I nodded, kissing his cheek before settling my head into his neck and closing my eyes exhaustedly, falling into a deep sleep.

New Beginnings

Summary: A relationship was now mended, cheers to new beginnings

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister! Reader

Word count: 1.6k

Warnings: angst, unedited, siblings once again happy, a mother comforting her child

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I opened my eyes, light greeting me. I gasped, sitting up in realization, bringing the blankets up to my chest. I looked down at Anthony who was sleeping peacefully, observing his form.

I was consumed with thoughts, everything we did, everything I allowed him to do, coming back to me. I huffed frustrated, picking up my clothed and putting them back on.

Tears stung my eyes as i realized what I had to do. I could not be with him, I cannot hurt Edwina more, and break what little of affection she still has for me. I cannot completely ruin my family, or let Anthony ruin his by being with me, the ton would create even more scandals concerning both families.

Not to mention that I gave myself to him. I cannot be with him, and any other gentleman will not want me when they come to know I am not pure. I am doing this all for love.

I bent down to where Anthony was laying, kissing his lips softly “I am deeply sorry, my love” I whispered, sparing him one last glance before leaving back to Lady Danbury’s home.

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I entered my bedchamber quietly after changing into my sleepwear. I successfully got to the house carefully, no one saw me entering the house or in the streets. I am certain they think I got home not too long from them last night.

I laid down on my bed, tears falling from my face as I cried quietly. I don’t know how long I spent like that, but a knock on my door snapped me out of my thoughts.

I sat up, wiping away my tears as the door opened. Anthony walking in and shutting the door. We stared at one another silently, observing.

“I want to apologize” He spoke up, breaking the silence “You deserve so much more than that” I stayed quiet, letting him speak

“I took liberties. I.. I did not want it to happen like that, so.. I came to apologize-“

“Yes you already said that-“ I nodded

“And to ask you to marry me.” I looked at him shocked “Y/n, I’m here, and I’m asking-” He took out a ring box from his pocket and opened it, I shook my head quickly

“I do not need you to ask me anything at all!”

“Y/n, i-“

“I cannot marry you, Anthony” I cut him off sadly, my eyes filling up with tears once again, he stared at me confused “I…I wish nothing more than to be yours, truly, but it is not possible”

“Why not?” He said desperately “It does not matter what everyone else thinks, as long as we lo- care for each other”

“I care about what my family thinks. What my sisters think. I care about whether or not I am harming your family’s reputation, or my own families, making Edwina not desirable for another gentleman because of the scandal” I sniffle

“And what about you?” Anthony hummed “ What about what you want? What about your happiness? Is your happiness not important?”

“It does not matter what I want, my family comes above everything, even myself, and I will do everything I can so they will not get ruined…” I looked down at my lap “Even giving up my own happiness for them, so please, do not insist any longer” I swallowed down my tears

Anthony closed the ring box, looking down with a clenched jaw. He scoffed and opened the door, walking off angrily. I finally let my tears fall once he was gone, falling down to my bed.

My heart felt like it was breaking in pieces, pain in my chest but I ignored it. I had to do what had to be done.

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I approached Edwina’s bedchambers, knocking on the door.

“Come in” Edwina called out

I opened the door, Edwina was seated near the window, reading a book. I approached hesitantly, wondering whether I should even try one last time.

“Y/n, wish I could say I am surprised, but I am not”

“Edwina, I know earning your trust again will not be simple” I start “But I am willing to continue to try, however long it might take” Edwina looked down at the floor before sighing

“ I have been cruel…and you did not deserve that as I know you have also been hurt with everything going on just as much as i” Edwina said “so I will, I promise I will, try my best to listen and put this all behind us… I do miss my sister after all. Although, I do have questions” I nodded, gesturing for her to go on

“Was there always something between you and the Viscount?” Edwina asked “Were you lying to me all along?”

“I was not lying to you, only to myself” I answered walking closer to her “Perhaps, there was something between us since the start, but, I did not want to accept it, I refused to”

“But once you were sure of your feelings towards him, why did you not tell me?” Edwina urged “Why wait for me to find out on my own by seeing you both like that, in that room?”

“I was scared. You were gaining feelings for him every day, how was I supposed to tell you I was falling in love with your intended?” I sighed

“It was easy, I have always wanted the best for Kate and you, just as you both do for me. I know I would have not been that happy with you, but I would have tried to be supportive and stopped the Viscount from pursuing me before it got out of hand” Edwina sighed “I feel like we have not been as close as we should even be, ever. I do not know you as well as I should, nor do you know me.”

“Y/n, I am done playing a part. I want to know myself truly, and to know who you are too. Because I am unsure I like the young ladies we have both been playing.”

I nodded happily, feeling a weight being lifted from my chest at this new chance and beginning we are going to try.

“Are we going to bring our new selves, to the ball the Featherington's are hosting tonight? ”Edwina asked, I nodded “I promise I will be more supportive with everything, including about the Viscount and you. Whatever action you now wish to take, I only hope it is because you are thinking of, and being truthful to yourself, not because of anyone else” I nodded pulling her into a hug

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“Dearest?” mama said, I turned to look at her, smiling slightly “ I see you are not yet dressed for the ball”

“I am unsure whether to attend or not…” I answer as she sits down next to me on my bed

“Y/n, I hope you do are unsure to attend because you are not feeling up to a part and not because you want to escape seeing certain people there” mama said, I looked at her, tears filling my eyes “Oh, I hate seeing you like this”

“I really should stop crying all the time, seems like it is the only thing I do” I chuckled amused before it faded “It is my fault, mama, everything that has happened”

“Edwina forgives you. I forgive you, you should stop being so hard on yourself”

“There is a part of me that will never forgive myself.” I sniffled “ I was supposed to help her win over the Viscount, that was going to help our family, and instead I fall in love with her intended and mess everything up”

“You cannot hate yourself for that, it is not something you can choose to feel, and yes, maybe it made everything complicated but as I said, we forgive you, you should forgive yourself and let yourself love him. Because you also deserve all of the love in the world, and to be happy with the man you love” I breathed out as mama wiped away my tears

“He asked me to marry him, Anthony” I murmured “And I could not allow it, mama ” mama looked shocked

“He and I can not be together, and I am pretty sure he was asking it out of mere obligation, because the two of us-“ I stopped myself after I realized I said too much, but mama caught on to what I was going to say.

She nodded, not even judging me, or yelling, nothing, she was just supportive “He does not love me, mama” I whispered

“If he could not love Edwina, who is the sweetest, most kindest person in the world, what chance do I have. And I am certain what he feels right now is just mere infatuation, something that will pass with time” I rested my head on her shoulder “I cannot marry him because he does not love me, although i- I love him”

Mama hugged me closer, rubbing my back comfortingly as I cried into her chest.

“Everything will be alright, dearest, everything will turn out how you want it, be sure of it”

Make Him Chase

Summary: 3 times you rejected him

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister! Reader

Word count: 1.3k

Warnings: unedited, fluff, kisses, Anthony being a simp.

1 more chapter + the epilogue, and we're done!

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“Come on, Y/n, cheer up, it does not matter if the Viscount is here or not, you can still have fun” Edwina said, smiling reassuringly as we entered the ball

“You cannot blame me, Bon, along with everyone in the ton staring at us, it is making me nervous” I sighed, holding on to her arm

“What do you say?” Edwina smiled “Shall we take to the floor?”

I turned to look at Kate who shrugged before turning back to Edwina “With whom?”

“Ourselves, they cannot possibly say anything about us that we have not heard before. And should your brush with death not be our best social capital yet?” Edwina pulled me to the floor as Kate laughed standing where we left her.

We danced, I laughing along with her, redness creeping on my face from embarrassment of every staring at us, but I kept dancing still.

I looked to the side, seeing Anthony staring at us. He smiled once he saw I was looking back at him. Edwina followed my stare.

“Do not mind him, just have fun” Edwina chuckled, I looked back at her and laughed as we twirled around

We walked to the refreshments table once the dance was finished, laughing as we talked, that dance brightening my mood. My eyes roamed around the room, Edwina chuckled

“Say what you want, but your eyes always search for the Viscount when you are together in a room, don’t they, deedee” She teased, I shook my head quickly “You will not be able to avoid him all night, and you should not attempt to. At least, not on my behalf. I already told you I am over him, not really sure if I ever did like him honestly and I will be happy for you with whatever decision you make. Be the sister I know that you are, be funny, brave and feeling”

“Be unafraid to follow your heart after doing the exact opposite all this time. No matter what everyone thinks, do what you desire, it is time for you to shine all on your own” Edwina smiled

“Why is everyone telling me the same thing all the time?” We both laughed

“Maybe it is a sign for you to do it” She said before walking away

I turned around, coming face to face with Anthony “Lord Bridgerton”

“Miss Y/n” he bowed his head “I was just on my way outside” I hummed

“I- I should give you, your space, everyone will tall in light of-“

“Perhaps you should not” I interrupted him “perhaps everyone will think that I was in the mood for a dance and since no gentleman is currently approaching us, you so kindly offered since you are a friend of our family still, after all” Anthony smiled, narrowing his eyes before putting up 3 fingers

“How many?” He stared at me adoring

I gave him a look, smiling amused “three” I looked into his eyes, he turned his hand around, putting up one more finger making a face.

We stared at one another before I spoke up “Are you going to ask me to dance?”

“Will you accept?” I held out my hand towards him, he grabbed my hand, pulling me to the dance floor

We started to waltz, the ton looking at us murmuring. The few couples that were on the floor, walking off to not be near us

“Do you want to stop?” I said worriedly

“Just keep looking at me” he twirled me “No one else matters” he stared into my eyes

I looked down at his lips as we danced, my hands around his shoulders while his were around my waist

“Marry me, y/n”

“Anthony…” I sighed

“You know I will not be the worst of husbands, of course I may annoy you sometimes and we may not agree on much, although you may regret your decision once you see the chaos that is my family” I laughed making him smile

“Anthony, you know I cannot” I shook my head

“What is stopping you-“

“Let us not talk of this any longer” I plead

“Alright” he pulled me closer as the music started to go more slowly

He held my hand on top, our faces getting closer as our hands went down, my eyebrows furrowed sadly before I closed my eyes, our noses brushing each other’s before we parted as the dance finished

“Everyone, outside. I have a surprise for you all” Lady Featherington said as she walked into the room. Anthony and I continued to stare at each other, our hands still holding on as everyone passed us to go outside.

The queen stopped in front of us, smiling knowingly, we bowed before her “I may have the wedding I wanted after all, Miss Y/n” She left leaving me to stare after her shocked . Anthony chuckled, I hit his chest

“Do not laugh” I walked outside with the rest, Anthony’s chuckles still sounding behind me, I smiled after I was out of his view. Okay, I must admit I like his insistence, it is no crime to make a man chase after you is there? Makes you feel more important.

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I walked through the garden as everyone walked further on. A hand burst through the shrubbery and pulled me into another path where nobody was able to see.

“Marry me”

“Anthony” I laughed as he pulled me closer to his chest

“Why do you keep on denying my proposal? Your sisters and mother already gave me their blessing-“

“When did you even ask them?” I chuckled in disbelief

“A few moments ago, but that does not matter” he huffs “marry me, stop with all your worrisome thoughts and just accept. I will be the best husband you will ever have-“

“I can only have one husband” I mused chuckling

“Exactly!” He nodded his head “I will be the best husband you will ever have had that you will not even think of having another man as your husband”

“You know, this days I am just seeing a new side to you that I did not even know you possessed”

“Yes, I did not even know I could be like this” Anthony chuckled “ You know what, I do not even care that you keep on rejecting my proposals, you know why?” I hummed

“Because I am going to keep on insisting and insisting until you give in. I am going to pursue you, bring you flowers and properly court you. I will even get on my knees if you want. I will make a fool out myself in front of everyone. Because you are worth it”

I smile before wrapping my arms around his shoulders and pulling him into a kiss. He pulled me even closer, not even letting go when I went to pull back. I pulled away, smiling mischievously.

“Then go ahead, Viscount Bridgerton. I will be waiting. Let us see if you do manage to make me accept your proposal”

I give him one last kiss before walking away.

It is never a crime to make a man chase after you.

hii would you ever write angst about the reader’s accident and how anthony found her?

also keep up the good work!! im loving this series <3

Yes!! It actually has not yet happened, It was supposed to happen after they slept together - *oh my god i suddenly just got the idea of what to put to make it more angsty* anyway , i instead decided to put it in the last part, which is coming out tomorrow, especially because of how in the series, Kate’s accident made Anthony realize how much he actually loved her, and since in my story, they still haven't said I love you, nor has Y/n accepted Anthony's marriage proposal, I wanted to make it more romantic with Anthony confessing how he felt about the accident and all making Y/n accept, honestly, it's just what happened in the gardens at the Featherington ball, just different setting and more heart to heart talk. And I'm glad you're loving the series!!♡♡ Thank you for your support♡♡

Idea for Anthony and Y/N Storyline continued….

- Wedding in Detail (Maybe Anthony trying and failing to see y/n before their nuptials and getting shutdown many a time.

- Wedding Night (wink wink, nudge nudge).

- Pregnancy and Birth of First Born and how they start to see one another in a new light due to parenthood.

- Different Arguments that are almost dumb to have but show that they really do love one another.

- Trying to focus on tasks but they distract each other due to still being in their Honeymoon phase.

Hope this gives some ideas and inspiration!

Yes!!! I absolutely love your ideas and would be more than happy to write them♡

Last and final chapter before the epilogue, coming in a hour or less as I still have some final things to add.