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Keep laughing, because it’s a beautiful sound.
a/n: a first attempt at an angsty letter 😐😐 yes, im indulging all you lucky ducks with never seen before exclusive angst content.
warnings: there are inaccuracies, lets pretend voldemort kills scrimgeour and ignore that the timeline is wrong 😘
word count: 451.
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Dearest, y/n.
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Happy Anniversary, love. Or rather, sad anniversary. I hate that the worst event of my life occurs on what was the best day of my life.
Yes, I know. I am stupid and shut people out. I don’t like to admit I’m wrong, I’m cold sometimes, and you could probably list a million more faults and even though I’d protest, you’d be right. I miss that about you, your brutal honesty but I miss all of you beyond what words could convey.
I haven’t seen you in over a year because of him, but he said it was to protect you. God, y/n. God, I wish it were any other way, I wish I could somehow steal a Time-Turner and go back and protect you from all of it. All I want is your safety.
You’re so far from me now, but I hope you’re safe and happy. Promise me that you’re safe and happy.
The Dark Lord (as Father has forced me to call him) keeps me from knowing anything important. He says it’s because I’m not ready. Father says that, I mean. I don’t think Voldemort cares about me anymore. He used me to try kill Dumbledore and now I’m just discarded. I tried to stop him, y/n. I did, I promise you I tried.
But you know all this. You knew I wouldn’t be able to kill Scrimgeour (Voldemort’s did that himself.), but now, in the eyes of every Death Eater I walk past, my father, him, I’ve failed. Between you and me? I’m glad I did because that was one of my last moments with you, right before the battle.
I’m sending this letter by owl to your parents now. They’ll put it in a place I hope you will be able to find, but I know you won’t read it. Because you can’t read it.
Every night I hate myself a little more for letting you go.
You’re laughing at how cheesy that was. But please keep laughing because it’s a beautiful sound and I think we all need some beauty right now.
Love you always,
D.M.
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P.S: It’s now the 2nd of May 1999. Almost the 3rd because I’ve been up so long thinking if I should even write this note, but by now we both know I’ll always have more to say when it comes to you, so here it is. It’s been exactly a year since I found out you died, and three since your actual death. This is my 12th letter. I don’t want to say this is my last, but I don’t know how much longer I can do this. I love you. I’ll see you soon.
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