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"Bite the hand that feeds" -Silas
im like a dog in the way that i love too much and too hard. i wait at the door and when the people i love come back they just sigh. im like a dog in the way that it feels like i don't understand fundamentally how to be human. everyone else understands these little social cues that i have to take notes on and memorize. when they say this they mean that, but not always. im like a dog in the way that my heart has teeth. i learned to bite before i learned to speak. and when i bring them that dead bird they take it and hide it to throw out when im not looking. i find myself frequently wishing i was better at either being a person, or being a dog.
has there ever been a time when blood did not stain me? it is under my nails, in my teeth, on the bones that rattle between my jaws. to be canine is to be bloody and to be loyal. violence and love are both associated with the color red. i often mistake violence for love.
every night, without fail, i dream of a dog.
i don't really mind them. dogs, that is. on most days, I adore them. but every night I see this howling, miserable creature, my hand itches for a knife.
in the dream, i watch it roam around in the streets, tail wagging, always wagging as it nuzzles everyone's leg. they all smile and coo you're such a good boy, aren't you? and it is, so it barks and turns over to show its belly and they all laugh and everything is happy, it's splendid. is it? no one approached it during that one (thousand) time (s) it got hit by a truck and was dragged down the street, that poor old hound. no one wants to patch up a dirty, homeless dog. it will heal, anyway. it always does. and after it does, it will nip at their heels again and they'll all laugh and pat its head.
(they scrub their hands raw after that. their mothers chide them for touching a walking, breathing plague but it's fine, it's just a dog, it's not like it can hear anything anyway. the sink overflows. i sit and listen)
you can say it's loved, to some extent. if love is all smiles and stones on your back and leftover food and eyes that always yearn for praise and words that chase and embrace, then yes, it is so very loved. loved, but not enough to be called by name. it wanders the streets with its tongue out, watching, waiting, always waiting, for a stranger to take it home but a homeless dog has no home for a reason. i sit on the bench of its favourite park and all I can think is: what a stupid fucking dog.
i like cats. cats hiss. they scratch and flinch and run. they don't forgive. they never forget. but dogs never learn. slap your dog to near death, try it. after it whimpers and hides underneath your couch, extend your hand and coo a few niceties. slide its favourite treats towards its snout. sit cross-legged on the floor and call it by a name that feels like plastic on your tongue and watch it come back and lick your boots.
what a stupid fucking dog.
god forbid it snaps. god forbid it snarls and bites down on your cruel hands and saves itself from all the pain. an ungrateful beast, that's what it is. look at its teeth. is that maggots in its fur, in the holes of its wounds? disgusting, entitled bitch, not knowing its place. someone put that damn dog down.
they don't forget to feed the dog, no. they just choose not to. it was getting too fat, too loud and had the gall to growl at them when they raised their hand. really! the audacity! stupid fucking dog, look at it circle their feet anyway. look at it, waiting for them to say 'good boy!' when it drops a dried leaf at their feet, all hopeful and pathetic.
but all they do is click their tongue and beat it with a broom. watch it whimper and hide. the leaf looks like fire, like a flake of the sun, like summer. it's just a goddamn leaf and that's just a dog, so what does it matter? it doesn't. it never did and never will.
i dream of a dog every night and I hate it because it goes by my name. or rather, I go by its name. it's pathetic.
what a stupid fucking dog. someone put the damn thing down.
please.
This is just a dump post cause I think too much about a dog guy
So I made an OC called Dogman (he's a superhero, because obviously.), basically being a dog in human form but my goodness do I make things...
He is every dog motif in one person. He refuses to give up on anyone, even those who are far beyond saving. He will go through great pain and hurt to protect everyone from anything. He doesn't understand when someone doesn't like him or doesn't want to be his friend. He tries and tries to gain positivity in everyone's eyes. He has a boiling point. He barks, snarls, bites. He is good, he hopes.
Protecting his small town, he's adored by everyone. No one wants him to leave. Not even his nemesis, Sterling Shaw.
They make me want to scream.
Sterling "I can control people simply by touching them" Shaw & Connor "I've never been afraid to touch you" Cairn.
Sterling "everyone leaves me so I'll kick them even harder" Shaw & Connor "I'll never leave, no matter how hard they kick" Cairn.
Sterling "I'll destroy Connor, I'll ruin him" Shaw & Connor "I'll save Sterling, I'll protect him" Cairn.
DO. YOU. FUCKING. SEE.
Sterling has never had a friendship unbound. He doesn't understand giving. Only taking and taking. He has never had a connection not built on chains and demands. He latches onto his slaves' need to obey. They need his orders like they need air. He is bad, he knows.
They're sick. I love them.
Also I made a playlist for them, if you're interested!! It's mostly Mitski, cause I have a problem.
I came up with this idea and these characters YESTERDAY and they've rotted my brain.
I need someone else to understand my vision. Please.
I can't even develop them because every time I think about them I feel sick and have to start pacing.
This is just a dump post cause I think too much about a dog guy
So I made an OC called Dogman (he's a superhero, because obviously.), basically being a dog in human form but my goodness do I make things...
He is every dog motif in one person. He refuses to give up on anyone, even those who are far beyond saving. He will go through great pain and hurt to protect everyone from anything. He doesn't understand when someone doesn't like him or doesn't want to be his friend. He tries and tries to gain positivity in everyone's eyes. He has a boiling point. He barks, snarls, bites. He is good, he hopes.
Protecting his small town, he's adored by everyone. No one wants him to leave. Not even his nemesis, Sterling Shaw.
They make me want to scream.
Sterling "I can control people simply by touching them" Shaw & Connor "I've never been afraid to touch you" Cairn.
Sterling "everyone leaves me so I'll kick them even harder" Shaw & Connor "I'll never leave, no matter how hard they kick" Cairn.
Sterling "I'll destroy Connor, I'll ruin him" Shaw & Connor "I'll save Sterling, I'll protect him" Cairn.
DO. YOU. FUCKING. SEE.
Sterling has never had a friendship unbound. He doesn't understand giving. Only taking and taking. He has never had a connection not built on chains and demands. He latches onto his slaves' need to obey. They need his orders like they need air. He is bad, he knows.
They're sick. I love them.
Also I made a playlist for them, if you're interested!! It's mostly Mitski, cause I have a problem.
I came up with this idea and these characters YESTERDAY and they've rotted my brain.
I need someone else to understand my vision. Please.
