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CW sooort of a vent? Not really heavy stuff, it’s just a poem I wrote but it’s self-indulgent + kinda ventish
Back when I was a child
There used to be a pair of wings in my back
In my dreamworld I could fly
Away from worries, lost in the night
Gorgeous wings, a white and angelic pair
Their form? To my will I could change
Those were my only source of happiness
To escape my reality, one full of despair
I didn’t know how much I would miss it all
When my confidence broke, my wings tore apart
I was drowned into an eternal cry
For I never again would be able to fly
As the years went by
A pair of broken wings remained on my back
And I would try so hard to fly
Only to lose control and fall apart
Missing dearly those old childhood days
I wasn’t too happy , but I was better back then
I miss the days where I was not chained
Years passed once more
After certain events, my confidence was completely torn
And when I lost it all, a new pair of wings was born
But their appearance made me mourn
Crimson, demonic wings, made me hopeless
They were an embodiment of my darkness
They turned out to be a reflection
Of my own horrid, damned perception
I don’t want to perceive myself like this
But of these thoughts I just can’t get rid
Seems like I’m doomed to be stuck in eternal misery
Heyyy friends
So uhm, I am a bit in the need for money right now, as next month I need to pay a bunch of bills and I’m not gonna be able to pay for my shit with my monthly allowance of 16 dollars /srs
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I’m not gonna sugarcoat it: my dad has been without a job for a good while. He’s been working freelance and so far he has had work and tbh I haven’t had to worry much.
He hasn’t gotten any work this whole month however. We’re purely on my mom’s salary for now, which, while not bad, is still isn’t enough. Also my parents won’t let me get a job because in their terms, “that’s only gonna be extra stress for me and I already have enough stress with college + I’m in no need for a job” (For the record, if I didn’t make myself clear: I live with my parents. And my grandma.) which is understandable and I’m grateful for it but also means that im fully dependent on my parents on monetary terms. And like, I get money from my parents monthly, for public transportation and food: around 16 dollars (15000 CLP) but that has NEVER been enough at all. I can barely make it to the end of the month and I constantly have to be asking my parents to lend me money for both food and public transport (note: I take public transport almost on a daily basis because I live quite away from college. And public transport is a bit expensive when you live at the periphery of the city)
This usually isn’t a big issue for me, but right now my parents are NOT in conditions to be lending me money. And, again: 16 dollars has never been enough per month.
My worry at first was that I would not be really able to like, pay a couple of bills that I have to pay next month, but now I’m worried because of the economic situation in my household. I want to help, or at least be able to have my own money to pay for my things such as food and public transport, or just, anything that I have to pay for, without having to ask my parents for money all the time when they clearly are not in condition to provide it right now.
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Heyyy friends
So uhm, I am a bit in the need for money right now, as next month I need to pay a bunch of bills and I’m not gonna be able to pay for my shit with my monthly allowance of 16 dollars /srs
I’m using this as a friendly reminder to tell y’all that my commissions are open, and I’d be very grateful if you considered commissioning and/or supporting me.
My commission info: https://digitalclowns3.carrd.co/
My Ko-Fi page: https://ko-fi.com/digitalclowns
And if you can’t commission me, please consider liking and resharing this post
Thank you guys