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Aggression takes a turn - Kol Mikaelson

Kol x Fem!reader

Warnings: death (kinda)

Word count: 1,690

Requested: Only if you want 2 do something like kol kills the reader and it goes 2 kols p.o.v and he starts having nightmares about when he killed the reader start haunting him just making him feel really guilty about killing her. The reader can turn evil. - Anonymous

Authors Note: I expected this to be short and it turned out to be 16 pages on paper. Thank you for requesting and sorry again that it took so long.

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“I don’t understand why you’re so mad at me.” Y/n exclaimed at Kol. She didn’t get why he was so mad at her.

“How can you stand here and tell me that you don’t see how what you did was completely reckless?!” Kol came up behind her and spun her to face him.

“I was just trying to help. Geez.” she sighed. All Y/n wanted to do was help them, and she knew she could. So what was the big problem?

“You need to stop putting yourself in danger!” He stressed. Kol didn’t know what he would do if she got hurt.

“I was trying to help!” Y/n pleaded with her eyes for him to get where she was coming from.

“Then stop helping!” Kol raised his voice and turned to leave the room to calm down.

“No.” She stated strongly not wanting to back down about this.

“What’d you just say?” he asked turning around to face her alittle to calmly for it to be comfortable.

“I said No. I’m not going to stop trying to help. I’m not useless.” Y/n cried out. Why couldn’t he get that she doesn’t want to sit out and feel worthless when they are all out fighting the new big bad.

With that it set him off. Kolblacked out for a second and it cost him everything he cared about.

“NO! No, no no, no, no, no, no. Wh-What have I done?” Kol dropped to the floor, pulling his now lifeless girlfriend into his arms. Rocking back and forth. “Come on, baby. Please, please wake up.”

Needless to say, y/n was gone. Kol ripped into her neck in a moment of anger he killed the love of his very long life. Kol felt like he couldn’t breathe. What had he just done? That question kept running through his mind. That and the statement, ‘she’s gone and I killed her’.

^     ^     ^

“Get up.” Elijah stated as he barged into his youngest brother’s room.

“Get out.” Kol grumbled into his pillow, he’s been like this for a week.

“No. You are going to get up, get dressed and we are all going to the sweet girls’ funeral.” Rebekah walked in past her two older brothers. She yanked the comforter off of him.

“I’m not going.”Kol groaned not wanting to leave his self-served and sentenced isolation.

“Oh, you are going. We all loved that sweet, beautiful girl and you ended her life. You are not missing the funeral you caused.” Klaus stated with no room to argue. y/n had become family to them and Kol ending her life cause he couldn’t control his anger? That’s bullshit!

Once Rebekah and Klaus left his room Kol looked over to Elijah and spoke softly. “You know I didn’t mean to. Right?”

“Regardless you still did it.” Elijah answered before leaving and letting Kol get ready for the funeral.

Kol sighed and get up to make himself look presentable. He is not looking forward to this event.

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“You killed me.” Y/n screamed at Kol following him around.

“I know.” Kol mumbled

“Why?” she asked raising her arms in the air.

“Because I was angry.” Kol answered her question not looking at her.

Y/n scoffed “Thats a horrible excuse.”

“I know! Ok. I know.” He yelled as he spun around to face her.

“Who are you talking to?” Elijah asked as he entered the family room.

“No one.” Kol sighed as he looked around. God, he’s going crazy.

^   ^   ^

“Do you even feel guilty?” Y/n asked sitting on Kol’s bed picking at her nails. “About what you did to me.”

“Go away.” Kol grumbled, he was ready to pull his hair out.

“No.” she stated with an unwavering look. “Now. Do. You. Ever. Even. Feel. Guilty about what you did to me?”

“YES!” he screamed. Kol has Never regretted anything more than killing the love of his life. “Yes! Ok?” Kol stressed. He sighed exhausted with how much he beats himself up over what he did. “Every God damn day.”

“Good. You should feel guilty.” Y/n nodded staring at him with a empty look deep in her eyes. “You claimed you loved me and yet you were the one to end my life.” She started with a shrug and smirk.

If it wasn’t bad enough that he was beating himself up over what he had done. He has her ghost haunting him it could be worse and it’s his own mind tormenting him more. At this point, Kol chose the ladder.

^    ^    ^

Kol woke up gasping, sitting up in his bed. Another nightmare, figures. He’s been having them since the incident almost every night. 

“Nightmare?” Y/n asked laying down next to Kol on the bed startling him.

“Kol sighed resting his head in his hands. “God. Don’t you have anything better to do.”

“No’p’e” she smirked, popping the ‘p’ for emphasis. “You seem to have them a lot lately.” Y/n stated referring to the nightmares.

He scoffed “Oh, and you care?”

Y/n smirked sitting up to look him directly in the eyes before saying. “No. I don’t. Thanks to you.”

Kol squinted, what did she mean by that? “What do you mean by that?”

Y/n smiled sweetly at him but anyone could tell there was nothing sweet behind her eyes. “You’ll find out in time, sweetheart.” She kissed him on the cheek before she disappeared again.

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There were a lot of people at the funeral. The turn out was great. Kol and others in his family did speeches, even the Mystic gang said some words. During the funeral Kol happen to just feel the need to look off to the left, and when he did he saw y/n. Standing off the to side watching him and the ceremony. After the funeral was over she seemed to approach him after everyone else was gone.

“Nice speech.” Y/n complimented as she walked up to him. “Maybe if you hadn’t killed me I could really appreciate it.” she shrugged

“Your not really here. Your just in my head.” Kol shook his head. Maybe he should find a witch to help with this hallucination problem.

Y/n smiled darkly “Wrong. Nice try, I did always say you were crazy.”

“Then your a ghost and your haunting me. An for good reason.” he concluded

Y/n let out a laugh, looking down in the grave at the coffin. “Wrong again, but I mean I would totally haunt you if that were the case.”

Kol sighed looking at the sky, frustrated at her actions and clues that make no sense. “I- I don’t understand. You gave me like all these clues, b-but they don’t make any sense.”

“They will. All in due time.” Y/n smiled walking behind him, running her hand along his back.

Leaving Kol confused more than ever. She has to be made up from his mind. There’s no other explanation for only him seeing her and being able to feel her tough just seconds ago. 

^    ^    ^

“Another nightmare?” Y/n asked one of her now usual questions, but this time Kol was expecting her. 

Kol sighed shaking his head, looking her in the eyes. “Look, I’m extremely guilty for what I did to you. I hate myself for it. I wish I had fed you my blood or-or anything that could have saved you. Anything other than what I did.”

“That is so sweet. I hope one day that little speech means something to me.” Y/n smiled at him, closer to her lover and murder. Y/n placed a hand on his leg like she use to do when she was alive.  “What’s wrong, baby?” she asked seeing his face change.

“You can touch me, a-and I can feel it.” Kol stuttered a bit in shock and confusion.

“Uh huh.” Y/n nodded

“How?” he asked

She smirked leaning in closer. “I told you thatit wasn’t your mind. I also told you that me haunting you wasn’t the case either.”

“I-I don’t understand.” Kol couldn’t Understand what was happening. This shouldn’t be possible.

Y/n rolled her eyes, she leaned towards his ear. “I’m not dead genius.”

Kol stood up and looked her up and down confused. “H-How’s that possible? I held you in my arms for hours after you died. Y-you were gone.”

“Well, it was a shock to me to. Apparently when we were making out before everything happened that day. I bit your lip hard enough that you bled. Evidently, it was enough vampire blood in my system to work its magic when you killed me. It just longer.” Y/n explained with a nonchalant attitude.

Kol stood there just trying to process and wrap his mind around what had just been relieved. Her actions lately don’t add up to the Y/n he knows and loves. Then it hit him. “So if you’re a vampire now, the reason you’ve been acting like this is cause you flipped your switch.”

Y/n clapped smiling at him. He finally got it. “Yup. I flipped the switch. Turned off my humanity.”

“Why?” Kol never thought if she ever became a vampire that she’d EVER flip her switch.

“Isn’t it obvious? The love my life, my forever. Killed me. That was enough heartbreak just to hurtful to live with.” a flash of a solem look crossed her face just as quick as it came it left. But Kol caught it. That told him she wasn’t completely gone.

Kol walked around the bed, approaching his girl. He raised his hands, cupping her face gently in his hands. It was a relief on so many levels to know not only was she alive but there was a chance to bring her humanity back. “I’ll get you back. I’ll get you to turn it back on. I promise you, and I’ll fix everything when you do.”

“Good luck with that.” Y/n scoffed and was gone in seconds. But Kol is not going to give up. Ever. She’s the love of his immortal life. He will get her and her humanity back.