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"Goodbye"

The tape is in a silent room, full of the scent of ash and something metallic and wrong. It sits there, perfectly normal, with a set of ashfilled clothing spilled across the ground. All that’s left of the person you once knew is a set of clothing and ashes… But the tape… If hit to play… *Static….*“H̶̞̥a͎̼h̷͕̥͕̠̟ ̟̖͎h̜̝̜̳̝a͎̲̞͈͇̮͖h͍̯͕͇̦.̖͉.̜̟.̧.̯͉͎͔͕̘̞͡ ̸W̷͚̰̝̯̰͚̪ẹ͕̫̦̘͞l͔͙̩̩l̦͚.͇̠͘ ̱T͏h̘̯̲i̱̱͎̙ş̝̤͓̩̮͔̩ ̥̟̦̙͙̺̤ḏ̴̯̯̣̗̞a̫͉̥̩̝y̢͓̲̞͉ ̝̱̺͢c̳͙͈̠͇͟a̢̦̭̦m̳͇e̩̫̰̹̱̥͟ ͕͍̱s̪̞o͓̘͜o҉̱͍̜̣̭n҉͉͔̩̣e͖͕̪̦̝̜̘͘r͕ ͎̦̹͍̼̤̕t̘̤̮̕h̯̳̻͎̻̼a̖̫̫̖̙n̼

̘̼ͅȩ̬͇̦̞͚̖̰x̫͈̜͎͓ͅp̝͎͚͍e͓̫͍͠c̼̤͔͢ṯ̻́e͠d́.̵͓̺̼͉̯̹ ̵͙̩͔̦I̞̠͙̟ ̣̘̻͚k̖͈͇̹̼̘n̰̹̪͟o͔̘̜w͏̩̗̜ ̫y̯̣͎͖̝o̞̖̱ú̠̳̦̥̦̙̰ ̷̩͚̰̫̜̣̼ć͍͎̙̯͈̙a̪̤̤̠̦̯̜n̲'͖͉̹̜̪̺̕ͅt ̸͉̗̙h͖e̜̜̥ar͍̝̮͉͍͙͘ ̼̙̳͙͎͔͞w̗h͔͕̞̤͚̗̳͠a̯͓t̝̬͕̞͈̱̹ ̱̮̳̭I̯͚̺̲'͜m̰̝̳͖̦̪͎

͟s͏͈̬̦a̸̰̣̼̫̞̲̣y̻̥͠in̠̘͍͚̰̗̲g̸̱̻̳̠͎͍ ̝̮̪͕̺̳Ș̤͖͟a͇͔̣̖i̢̞̫̼b̬̭̹͉y̻̗̬.͚̫͎̪͚̺͞.̺͉̠̱.̣̺͇͓͔͓..̬͓ ̦̗̞̤̱̰B̬u͚̞t̤̥̬̹̬͜ ̨̺̞̤̝͇͓̪t̗̞̳͇̜͓͞r̸̩̳͇y̰̳̙̜̼̫̭ t̙̥̬͔̣͓̻͞o͞ ̛̯͔͇͙g͚ę̼t̨̘͕̪̩̮ ̙͓s̤̗̣̞̘̰͖ọ̼m̪̪͟e͍̮͕̫͕̯͞ͅo̘̯̖̻n̦̩̥͔͘e͍̟͘ ̸̹͕e̛͚̰̩̟ḷ̱s̳͉̦e̳

͈̠͕̼̘ṱ̤͓̝o̱͚ ҉̦̭͔ͅt͏̣̣̖̟r̺͚a̫̖n͍͍͈̗͚s̗͙̩̜̲ͅl̢̦̼̘͇̬̺ͅa̶̻̭̫̳̠te͕̪̻ ҉͔f̡͇o͍̠̝̰̬̗̲͠r̤̗̹̩̜͚̬͞ ̱͇y͖̟͍o͈̯̘-̝̜̘̻̼̟͝ͅ ͓̬͝ ̣ ”

Suddenly, a loud, hacking and painful sound screeches out of the player. After a few minutes there are a few heavy, labored breathes before the voice continues.

̗͎̘͚͓̮̱.̞̥͉͎̲͙͇.̤̭̗.͕̞̭̬͢.̱̠͇͙̲.͖͇̻͍͕͓̺͝ ͏̥̯A̹̻͈͍̝̻ṣ̗̪̭̞̞̲ ͏͉̼͉̯I̸̯̻͚̯͚ ̴̖̝̯̦̖͉̭w͕̞͓̖̙͇͢a̼͙͘s͉͕̙̭͈̠͡ͅ ͓̪̘͇̫̰̻́s̤̭̣͙a͎̮̹̙̳̫y̥̟̘̗i͏̠̰͚̻̮ͅṉ͖̰g̝̺͙̦͎͎̼͢,͈̝̳̫̖̹ ͙̳͙̺̳͍I̛͎ ̷̗͖͚̹̦̝͙j̞̜̞u҉̘̩̪͙̳͇s̹̮͈͚͇̞̕t̖͔ ̮͎͖̺̞̘̻w̪̥̬a͇̩͖̕n̞̦̜̲̙t̙̻ ͓y̨͚o̞̮̜̬u͓̬̘ ̭͎̻̼̟̕ṱ͝o̮̟̞̜͓̫ ̼k͓̖n̳͈o̺w̙̜

̖̖̥̩͝t̰͍͍́h͇̼͓̫͜a̹͇̭̘͙t̙̼̩̯͚̫͈ ͎͓̗͍̩͙ͅI̼̬̦͢ ̜͔̥̮̭l̩̫̙͉͍͈o͉̳̘̙̱͙v҉̦̹̠͙e̡̜ ̪̱̭ͅͅỳo͓͙̻̗̠͔̼ụ̴̫͇̲.̱͓̜͓͔̥ ̷͉̲̰̻͇̟̼I̹̲̮̹̖ ̻͚͝l͝o̖̗̣̫v̜͎̤̥̗͠e͠d̳̺̠̻ ̺y̵̖ͅo̞͖̹̮͖̪̫ų̹̹̟ ͚͇̮̤͖̫͘b̶̤̟e̮͕̹͖̖̙̱̕f͘o̤͘r̶e̢͖͖̻̝̣̦,̧̬̫̜̯̳ ̠̣͓̥͠a̤͍ṉ̤̩̜͇̯d̙͙͙̠̠͓͔̀ ̱I͇̮̼̟̬̻̲̕ ̥̣̗̖͈̣ͅl̹̯o̱͉̻̜͖͞v̭̤͎̹̯͡ͅe̺̣̦̰

y̦̹o̡̳͍̲u̦̺̜̬̜̩ ̵̟̲ͅn̡̬͕̱̼̩͇o̞͚̣̘̹w̭.͎͔̤͚̘̻ͅ ̡̫͉̟̝̘̟̙A̶n̻̖̯d̩͉̪̱ ̝̱͍̳̙ͅI ̬̻̦ͅc̵͎̜a͙n̠͢'̸̲t̰ ̭̞s͏̠̰̻̗̺t͈o̰p͔̩̟̜͇̠ ̤͖̘̝̭̩̤͘t̬̻͕h̯̙̜̫ͅͅi̵̦̱̳s͚̭͙̞̣͔.̼̜͔̮̘̥̺ ̬̼̪̦Į̹͈̯ͅ ̛͈͔̦͓̙̰̬w̥̹͍͎̭̣a͈̝͓n̘̭͚̳t͖̤̘̙e̝͚͚̜d̩̹.͚͔͚̣.͕͞.

Her voice cracks, and the sound of something splashing against the mic can be heard.ͅ ̱I̵̫̩̝̤̙̟ ẉ̠a̢n̪͠t̲͈̰̥è̩̫͚̣d͢ ͇͙̜s̢̭͇͚͖͎̻o͈̺̹̼ ͏̻b͢a͔͚͎̞̱͍̠d͙̖̦l̳͈͍̥̣y̸ ̖̗͉͕̩t͜o̮̥̣̥̘ ̡̥̥̳ͅli͞ṿ̣̩͘ͅḙ̸̭̞̺̳̮͇ ͖͓t̼ẖ̡͉̙ŗo̰̫̣͎͠ug̪̰͙̜͕͝h̶̬ ̗̟̟̘̝͞t̢͇̖̺h̫̗͖̜̥i͕̼͝s̯͢.̡̱͓.̡̞̤̯̤̙͕.͎̙͔.͖ ̳̰͕̫͈̠̲͜B͈́u̘͝ͅt ̝̯͎́I̲̱͕͚͙̜ͅ

̵̳̣c̤͈͙͜ͅo̹͎͇̫̟̱ͅú̼̘ḷ̨̠̠ḑ͖͖̲̻ṉ̦'̩̣̀ͅt̴̜̘͚̱̣͉̗.͏͖͍ ̭̭̬̘ͅA̵͇n̢͕d̩͈͔͎͕͠ ̡̖n͏̫͇̳̬̱o͠w̲̝ͅ ̩̳͎̰̜̙̰͟y̲̠o͕̪̖̺͢u̙̬͙͕̕'͚̝͖̲̟͉r̙̩̥̠̲͕̩è̼̟̳ ̼̟̼́l̢͓͕͕̹e͈͕̯̺͔̠f̼̯̜͙̹̱͢t͝ ͕͔̙͉̹̪̫w̙̹̫i̦̹̳̲̫t̵h̵͔̠̼͕̮̹ͅo̱̦̩̙͈u̺͢t͇͕̠͖ ̜ą͎ ͕̙ḽ̢o̘̬̥̠̙v̦̯e̼͓ͅr̞̳̺͉͖͜ͅ.

̳̰̝̻S͇̮̟͈̙͎o̘ ̶̟̺̲̦p̕l̻͇̦e͖a̻s̖͉e̝͍̘̗̠.͈̩̤͉ ̺̲̣̜I̯͙͚̻̞’m ̝̪͇̰̫b̧͕̰e͙͉̞͘g̨g̪̪̥̼͜ͅi͈̪̙n̝͔͍͈͖̖̦g͚̞ ̺̮͘y̙̻̦̬o͉̥͈̲͜ṳ͍̳͚.̳̜ ̝͍͚̣̟̪͔

She takes a deep breath, and seems to steel her nerves because the next few sentences aren’t quite as shaky.M̛͔̖o̳̼͠v͈̞e̵͈̱̤̮ ҉̜o̶n̸͍̘͚̱.̵̭̗̙̮̳ ̻̹̤F̶̣̮͍o͏̞̦͇͉͈̯̙r̶̦̠͕g̮͉e͞t̯̞̪̭͟ ͕͈̤͇̜͘a̸̤͈b̥̮͡o̸̭̻u͝t̯̦̥̖ ̺̣ͅͅm̝͕̭̤e̠̙̥͖̭̰͠.͖ ͕̣̣̥G͉̩̣͖̳͝e̮̜̗̣̗͞t̝͓̺̻͎̬ ͙͎̻̤̺a͍̹ ̴̮̦ͅḿ̫̺̖͚͕u̖̰ć̫͖̲̙͔̫h͇̲̯͎̲̟ ҉̖͓̹͎̣̬b̤͖̻̘͍̞e̥̪͉t̤t̪e̵r̴̝̦ͅ,̦̯͎̼̪͞

͚s͕̣̻̹͍͇̮t̖̰͓̳̳̩ͅr̰̪̗͖̥o̙̹̳̠̠̟̳n̷̲̤̼g͈͘e̙̳͔̮̺ͅr̟̟̲̪̣ p͜e̖͘r̨̯̱͔͍s̢̝͓̗̩͉o̘̩̤͎͉͘n͖͍ ͏̭̺̼̠͖w̹͔͔̙̩̝h̡̟̣̲͖̮̥o͕̫ͅ ̶c̝̮͍a̦̥͡n̠̟ ̺̠s̡u̵r̗̦̫͙̱̹̘͞v̳i̦̪͎v̘̫͍̻̳ͅe̙.̰́ ̨͕W̝͖͔̰ͅha̸̖͇̺̟̩̜t̳̰͚e̼̟̠͞vͅe̟̟r̛

̤̣͍̹͉̖̠y̛̟͙o̩͔ṳ̘̪͚̻̲̥ ̖͙d͝o̱,̙̳̩͞

̤̣̖̠͈̖̼ș̠̪͓̪t̵̝̤͙̼̮a̸̳̻̠y͕̯ ̼͎̥a̭̲̫̼͔͇ͅḻ̴̞͉̫̟̪i͎̥ͅv҉̰̦͙͖̫̹̥e͎̱̬.̳̰̥̯̀ ̵͍̥̭͙̘̺͈I͙̼̫n̰̞̟̹̥ ͔̗͙a̰̼̺͚̼l̘̠͉rea̟̣͎̗͕ḏ͕y̻̦̳̜ ̺̝͈̦a̰͜ ̸̙̫͎̯̳̹mo̶̦̳n̢̺̼̼͉̝̤s͍t͏͖̪e̞̯̼͈̪r̸ ̜̰̙̱f̗̹͖͘o҉̠̹̪̲̭̘r͏̤͈ ̘̭͖͈̫̹̲͘ĺe̱̣̮̯͙͎͇͟a̴̜v̡͓̪̥̳͓i̦͓͔n̨̯g̰̬̲̹̗

̷y̸̻͕̖͍̹o͝ṳ̮̠̲̤͢ ̝̝͍͉̫̩l̝i̕k̭̜̦̦e̳̘͕̹̬͕ ̴̟̮tḥ̹̀i͍͖s͔,̯ ͢b̮̘͍̟͖̪͞u̩̻̠̥͚t̨̹ ̤̺͕͡f̣͞ͅo̵̲̤͖͔̜̱r̺͞ ̲̝͈̘̲͔y͇̝̪o̶̻̼u͖̝̜͍͖̪ͅ ̗͍̦̫̩̲͠ͅt̸̬o͜ ̞͓di̶̥̟̜e͓ ̖̤͙͟a҉f̥͉͖̟͓̤t̴̞͙̫̥̮e̱̭̮͙ͅṛ̢̺̣̰̬͚̹ ̙͢m̹͎̫̲͟e̫,͖ ̠̻̳̖͉̕o̠̯̥ͅr̞

̡̥̣̘̮̻̭̫ḅ̳̩͚͎͜e̵̩c͕̱̱͖̩au̶̫͕s̷̫ͅe̖ ͇͞o̷͉̩̥̰̳̙f҉͖͕͖̟̤͎̻ ̤͍̜̬̟̩̼m̵e̸͉̬͉?͍͚̮̰̠̕ ̻̫͓̺P̵͓͎̤̳͇̣ḻ̛͔ͅę͈a̦̥̯s͚͈̗̟͖͖̭ȩ̖͕̹̖͓̩͚.̪̝̘̳̱͍ ̶̻̝̝̥I͔̗̣͓̯͜ͅțs̭̤͚̪̭͇ͅ ̤͈͍̣̗͙m̭̣̮͍y̜ ̢o̬̥̙͞ṇ͕̹̙e̖̬̱̥̞̳ ͈͞wi͍͖͈ͅś̪̭h̛.͙̼

̦͘S̢̩ta͎̭̹y̺ ̜̤̙̞̳̯A͕̯̖͚̝͜ ͉̼Ļ ̰̞̟I̸̹̦̫ ͓̼̭͙͚̺͇V͞ ̻͙E̘͎̥.̴̳ͅ ̤̠̪̦̞S̸̮̱͍t͔̰̞̝̳̹a̖̫̯͖y̴ ̡̟̹̝̩d̟͝e͟t̮͎̩̩e̤̱͎͔̲̯̱r͏̭̝͇̮͕͎͙m̬̘͠i̗̘̯̼̺n̸͎̰͔͚e̡̠̤̺̘d̲̯̟̘.͈̮ ̣̞̤̰͕̝

͈̲̜̦.̥̩͇ ͇͕̥͕́.̵̠͚̲ͅ ̰̯̹͉ͅ.̟̞̫̞̝͙̲ ̪.̷̲̳̳ ̢̟͖ͅI͓͍̹̳̺ ͕̜̫̩͠l͔̤̮͖̝o̝̹͈̗͍v̜e̷ ͍̙͓̪y͇ͅ ͈̹͕̼͟o̭͍͉͕ ̤̲͇̭u̝̹̩̠̮̙͉.̘.̨͙̱͇̯̭̮.̺͡.͎̱̲̘.̦̹̀

The tape goes dead with static.