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Alright as I'm writing this it's not long till new year and I haven't planned any of this out because I never thought I would have to but here we are with a small but chill follower count. Doubt any of them will see this since they're probably busy, asleep or whatever else.

This year, to be blunt, has been a shit storm generally and personally too. It's been a roller coaster and there were moments where I considered just packing up and just leaving.

Uni wasn't going well and I considered dropping out multiple times

My anxiety and depression was at an all time high

And life just wasn't kind this year

And of course there was the passing of Technoblade. That was rough, the worst I felt in months.

I know, I know "but you didn't even know him personally" and ya I get that. I found myself saying that to myself a lot. But he was a constant in my life, probably one of my biggest role models too, since I'm a massive introvert and his whole idea of faking confidence until you make it, really resonated with me, so here I am pretending to be confident and I'm not sure if I'm good at it. But I digress the news that he was gone felt like a part of myself was dying, that I lost a life line.

But of course, I'm sat here typing this. Even though this year was hell, there was always something there to keep me afloat.

Whether it be my two closest friends, who were always there to cheer me up or just put up with my anxious and clingy ass. We could go a solid week without talking yet, if something happened if someone was hurting, we would all be there for eachother. And I will always be thankful for them and everything they have done for me.

But there was also you guys:

When I brought up that my following was small, I don't say it to have a pity party. I say if because even if my posy only got 1 or 2 likes or reblogs, that still made my day because it was like "hey I found this kinda funny" or "hey I found this kinda interesting". I'm thankful for everyone, even if they only liked one of my posts and none of the others. You kept me going on some of my worst days where I felt like giving up.

I still have uni work to get done and I'm trying to better my mental health. Even if no one see's this, I just want to say thank you, thank you everyone. I love you all

So to everyone, whether they are still with us or have passed on.

Happy New Year

I love you all and I will forever be thankful for everything you've done for me this year ❤️