Apologize - Tumblr Posts
~I'm sorry that you have to be so patient with me. I spiral quickly and without warning. I am unpredictable and easily frightened.~
-a poem of a new kind
Sorry is so beautiful she makes my eyes sore. A kaleidoscope of a girl waiting for the summer to unfold before her, she smells sticky sweet like sage smoke. When I call out to greet her, her name leaves the taste of iron on my tongue, it reminds me of oxidation. She always visits under the cover of darkness. Her favorite hour is midnight, loves to watch the dark sky melt into oil drops and practice catching them between her nimble fingertips. She tells me they feel cool and slip through her grip easily. I imagine they feel something like hair feels under my outstretched palms, slippery enough it leaves holding on impossible.
In the morning I attempt to erase her. Scrub the spicy bite of peppermint into my incisors and vanquish the taste of her that tangles between my teeth. But when I look down at my knuckles clenched hard against white marble countertop I watch a palm slide into mine. It fits perfectly and feels placating. I have so much to learn.
It feels like I forever leave her waiting.
Don’t walk away, don’t roll your eyes // They say love is pain // Well darling, let’s hurt tonight
Love this OneRepublic song. This is their current single, from Oh My My! Ryan Tedder is so talented in so many different ways; singing, songwriting, producing; and this song showcases all of that talent so beautifully. He sounds absolutely flawless in every note, and I love these lyrics so much.
Everyone is always 'sorry' afterwards. But I know it's only to remove the feeling of guilt, something for themselves. As I am forever the stain they want to remove
--mid day eye opener, Sequoia Red