Anti Recovery - Tumblr Posts

I am in a personal rut in my battle with mental illness. Mainly, the doctors have YET to find the best combination of meds to keep me calm and control my symptoms. I do not kid myself, I will be on Anti-Psychotics and Anti-Anxiety meds for the rest of my life. That being said, I have hope that at some point in the future, I will have the right combination of meds needed to finally live in peace. I have struggled with suicidal thoughts since I was in 2nd grade. With my breakdown, those thoughts increased, with me thinking that my parents would be better off without worrying about me. Those thoughts are still there but they are on the back-burner now.

Now, I fight my mind for my life's sake, and the fight is worth the backslides that appear. I have hope for the future; the sun WILL come out tomorrow, and I want to live to see it!

I don't want anyone to die because some nihilist bastards say that recovery is an impossible pipe dream that you will never achieve. Anti-Recovery? How in the hell did that get the traction it has? Don't believe the naysayers! Recovery is REAL and ATTAINABLE!

ive been on tumblr a long time and i remember when everyone said “oh don’t romanticize mental illness” and it was agreed that doing that was gross and a good way to kill people indirectly

but somehow we’ve come full circle and there are people who legit defend their right to be anti-recovery there are people who don’t want to get better and spread the idea that you can’t get better as if it’s gospel and it’s fucking frightening to me bc nobody seems to want to say “hey? this is toxic and untrue and is your disease speaking, and it’s not something you should accept.”

and i feel like every recovery post gets about 500 of these people saying “this isn’t something that will work” “cool karen i’m depressed” “maybe it worked for you but it won’t work for other people” and that’s… just… im so sorry if you’re 15. i’m sorry if you’re in high school and watching grown adults tell you it doesn’t get better. that nobody says that with time and help and patience the world stops being so heavy, that accepting your illness as a fact is one thing but accepting it as the only way to be is just wrong, that you can learn to live with it and still find some degree of “happy”…. if i had seen this shit back when i was … oh god starting at 12 when i was already self-harming …. i think i’d have actually honest-to-god killed myself. not a joke, not a funny tumblr punchline, i would have actually just killed myself. 

i’m saying this right here and right now to the adults on this site. if you for any reason shoot down positivity that’s causing no harm - you might have indirectly worsened someone else’s condition, and you should try and do better in the future. if you find it necessary to tell people “recovery is a lie”, you need to do better. i know everyone has different circumstances, but i also know that mental illness behaves in such a way that everyone thinks they can’t recover.  if you feel like you should be spreading the Word Of Relapse, you are causing toxic language to be normalized and you need to do better. 

im team “cool karen ive got depression and that means i’m going to try this because i’ve got to try something” i’m team “romanticize recovery” i’m team “it isn’t working now but it might in the future and it’s worth staying to find out” im team “hey this didn’t work for me but it might help somebody else out”

fuck guys it shouldn’t be an unpopular opinion to say “i don’t want any of you to die”.

I'll never understand why people get angry when systems have a problematic alters with a problematic/anti-recovery way of coping, or act horrible

It's all a trauma response, it's all based on what they understand and know as a way of trying to live. It would be normal to have this kind of parts cause CDD it's a disorder caused by a severely traumatized kid, and if their environment is that horrible of course the kid won't know how to cope in healthy ways and problematic/anti-recovery/horribly bad alters will appear

Am I saying that this alters should front and do whatever they want without consequences because they're traumatized? Of course not!!

What I'm trying to say is don't invisivilize this alters, don't say like they're a horrible thing that shouldn't happen, don't stigmatize alters that are like that, they're like that for a reason, and try to ignore them and treat them bad is just going to make worst the process of healing for them and you

You should acknowledge this parts, recognize they do wrong but they also have to heal. There gonna be alters that don't want to heal and are gonna be a dick head trough the process, but that doesn't mean you won't include them in the healing process, just put them aside for another part

And is they do wrong or something nocive for the system, body or externals you have to take accountability and try to control that best, I know it's difficult and sometimes you can't control this parts, but taking accountability and trying to repair the damages they made it's a very important thing

Please, let's stop pretending like this kind of alters doesn't exist or if you know they exist stop treating them like someone who doesn't deserve healing, sometimes treating them worst because of what they are makes so much difficult or worst for them to acknowledge they're doing wrong and help them grow and heal

That's my opinion, have a nice day/night :D