Am I Alone In This? - Tumblr Posts
Have you ever watched something (a movie, an anime, a show) and after you've finished it just randomly felt like watching it again? Similarly, I download apps, uninstall them, and then later want to install them again. I can't explain why. I just... want to.
Please tell me someone else got a podcast notification this morning……. Not gonna reveal what next weeks podcast is in case I’m the only one that saw it but it’s exciting!!!
YES!
You put me in a room full of autistic people and I'll feel like I'm the wrong kind of autistic and don't fit in
I hate it
Cause on the one hand, literally all diagnosed with the same neurodevelopmental disorder
On the other I'm high functioning enough that I don't even really compare to my autistic brother and often have major doubts over my identity and my diagnosis
do you guys ever feel like an outcast even in a group full of outcasts. like i'm autistic and even in groups full of neurodivergent people i'm still excluded sometimes. i don't understand why
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i tell my friends i want to date someone who i'm good friends with. i tell people who ask me out that i don't do relationships out of the blue, and that you'll have to be friends with me before we even think about dating. but when i actually end up liking a friend, i push them away. why? i think its cuz i feel like i don't deserve more, like asking for more makes me greedy somehow. they've already given me friendship, it feels wrong to ask for more. i think its cuz i feel like friendship is a commodity, and that since they are just giving it to me, like i haven't earned it. its weird. i know friendship doesn't work like that, but this is literally the thought process i feel. i guess i just think i'm not worth more than friendship. it's fucking stupid, i need therapy.
I talk and ramble often. I talk too fast and can’t get my words out fast enough. I’ve been told I’m random my entire life.
My randomness, rambles, and jumping to different convos and forgetting the original topic is my normal. Sometimes I wish I could not speak at all because my friends are talking about a class, but I still can’t stop talking about a joke we said 5 minutes ago. I can tell I annoy people. My voice is hard to reign in.
I wish I could stop being something people want to get away from and not talk to.
Do you guys also draw things and stop a second because like "Wow, I'm cringe. What is this ??" but you just can't stop drawing that because it's fun ?
at the moment when you try to read but realise there's no fandom you wish to read for,
when you close your eyes but remember no character you'd rather think of
when you click on a favourite song, but there's nothing you'd want to dream of
when you pick up the brush but no face makes you want to ruin the paper
when you start to type but no thought seems worth a mention
moments like these,
the world feels a touch dimmer.