Okay, But Why The Fuck Is This So Good????? I Discovered Another Beautiful, And Filthy Fic That I Really

Okay, but why the fuck is this so good????? I discovered another beautiful, and filthy fic that i really love. Thankyou for writing this, gonna keep it safe in my blog to reread it, again and again.

Descend | demon!knj

⇣18+ nsfw ⇣pairing: demon knj x female Y/N ⇣genre: pwp smut, supernatural ⇣word count: 2.6k ⇣warnings: smut, profanity, dubcon esque themes, degrading dirty talk, mouthfucking, knj fucks y/n against a bookshelf lmao, demon creampie, he’s got a forked tongue idk if that’s a warning but at this point I’m too afraid to ask. 

A/N: Request by anon who wanted demon knj smut. I hope you love it! Please praise me I spent all night on this xoxo

‘’I’d say you are wasting my time, but that was before I saw you..’’ he tugged her face closer to his crotch, the bulge underneath the fabrics visibly twitching from having her attention. ‘’You will make it worth my while.’’

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be my baby | myg sm au

banner by: @ppersonna​

🖇 synopsis:

— when the love of his life suddenly vanishes, he drives himself mad looking for her. seemingly erased from the world, he’s forced to pick up the pieces of his life and move on… fast forward three years and someone who looks a lot like the woman he lost is being spotted, holding a kid with an oddly familiar gummy smile…

pairing: rapper!yoongi x mom!reader

fic type: social media au

side ships: taekook, 2seok(?), namjoon x oc.

genre: idol au | heavy angst, with a pinch of fluff. there’s some smut too!!

disclaimer: mentions of alcohol abuse/addiction. pls don’t read if you’re sensitive to the topic or if it could be triggering!

status: completed.

updates: everyday.

A/N: timestamps make sense throughout the fic. if u want to be added to the tag list, send me an ask! + if you’ve asked to be on my permanent taglist, you do not need to ask to be added to this one !!

parts:

prologue

character profiles: yoongi nd company

character profiles: yn nd her babies

part one: no dramatics

part two: new follow

part three: answer me

part four: no bullshit

part five: looks different

part six: preparing him

part seven: fucking mess

part eight: head over heels

part nine: who are you?

part ten: blind date

part eleven: cheese fries

part twelve: need rescuing

part thirteen: best friend

part fourteen: the zoo

part fifteen: no excuse

part sixteen: teach me

time jump: not soulmates

part seventeen: absolutely stunning

part eighteen: still in love

part nineteen: you’ve changed

part twenty: forever thing

part twenty-one: what now

part twenty-two: regret it

part twenty-three: interesting night

part twenty-four: okay, daddy

part twenty-five: delicious man

part twenty-six: be all, end all

part twenty-seven: both of us

part twenty-eight: more than ready

epilogue (1)(2)

end

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My Valentine

♡ pairing: Jimin x Reader

♡ genre: Friends to Lovers au!/Fluff

♡ summary: Y/n loves Valentine’s Day, Jimin will make it a special one.

♡ wc: 4.1k

♡ warnings: slight mention of a mommy kink in passing, little cursing, some sexual thoughts.

♡ date: February 1, 2019

“I can’t believe he broke up with me,” you whine to your best friend, Ali, as you clutch the strap of your backpack tighter. Your feet hitting the concrete sidewalk hard as you stomp along beside your friend on your way to class.

The sun is out and shining proudly, the morning dew still collected on the green grass. The bright color courtesy of the rainfall from the past few days. That, however, wasn’t enough to put you in a good mood, seeing as you had just gotten dumped days before Valentine’s Day.

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Blog update.

I have not gone MIA, i’m here, just not reading fanfictions at the moment, but i’m here, just reading the book that is hyped a lot and it seemed intriguing, so thought why not give it a try?

Haunting Adeline is horror in words, and scary, but it’s good that I have the power to choose not to read it when I don’t want to, i’m at chapter seven, can’t lie and say that i don’t like zade, I do, he’s amazing, i need that fucked up shit, and Adeline is meh-meh heroine, but the author’s writing is good, so i’m gonna read more, even it that means, i need to take breaks and read the damn book!

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A/N : And also, I’m trying a new thing here and you are in no way obligated to do it but if any of you like my stories and want to give some support, why not buy me a coffee? ☕💜

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SERIES

3AM Drive - Thru (Jeon Jungkook x You x The8/Minghao)

Chapter 1  //   Chapter 2  //  Chapter 3  //  Chapter 4  //  Chapter 5  //  Chapter 6  //  Chapter 7  //  Chapter 8  //  Chapter 9  //  Chapter 10 // Chapter 11  //  Chapter 12 // Chapter 13 //  FINAL  //  Epilogue

Dear Jungkook (Jeon Jungkook x You)

Chapter 1  //  Chapter 2  //  Chapter 3  //  Chapter 4  //  Chapter 5  //  Chapter 6  //  Chapter 7  //  Chapter 8  //  Chapter 9  //  Chapter 10  //  FINAL  //  Epilogue  //  Drabble

Girl Back Home (Park Jimin x You x Jeon Jungkook)

Chapter 1  //  Chapter 2  //  Chapter 3  //  Chapter 4 //  Chapter 5  //  Chapter 6  //  Chapter 7  //  Chapter 8

Didn’t I Tell You That I Love You? (Jeon Jungkook x You)

Chapter 1  //  Chapter 2

Heiress Like Me Dont Marry Idols Like You (Kim Seokjin x You)

Chapter 1  //

ONESHOT

Wherever You Are ( Jeon Jungkook) 

Everything I Didn’t Say (Kim Taehyung)

Thanks (The8/Xu Minghao)

Hey, I Think I Like Your Girlfriend ft. Taehyung (Jeon Jungkook)

One New Direct Message (Kim Taehyung)

The Red Eye (Park Jimin)

Wait, What Did You Just Say? (Jeon Jungkook)

But Dont say That You Love Me (Min Yoongi)

I, YOU (Jeon Jungkook ft Kim Taehyung)

Nothing New (Park Jimin ft Park Jihyun)

What Does Being An Idol Got To Do With It?! (Jeon Jungkook)

REQUESTS

Long Way Home (Jeon Jungkook) 

Nothing Like Us (Park Jimin)

All In My Head (Jeon Jungkook)

Blue Hydrangeas (Park Jimin)

As Long As You Love Me (Park Jimin)

Changes (Kim Namjoon)  //  Changes 2nd Version (Kim Namjoon)

The Perfect Couple (Kim Taehyung)

Love Story (Kim Seokjin)

But I Still Want You (Jeon Jungkook)

Stay (Jeon Jungkook)

Let’s Not Fall In Love (Park Jimin)

Come Back, Be Here (Kim Taehyung)

Happy Ending (Jeon Jungkook) // Happy Memories (Part 2)

Art Class (Jeon Jungkook) 

Stockholm Syndrome (Jeon Jungkook)

Flawless (Park Jimin)

For You (Jeon Jungkook)

Can We Dance? (Jung Hoseok)

If You Ever Come Back (Min Yoongi)

Common, Regular, Ordinary (Jeon Jungkook, Kim Taehyung)  //  Drabble

To Make You Feel My Love (Park Jimin)

Again (Jeon Jungkook)

California King Bed (Park Jimin)

Just This Once (Jeon Jungkook)

Girls Like You (M) (Jeon Jungkook)

The House Next To Mine (Jeon Jungkook)

Superman (Kim Taehyung)

Nobody Like You (Jeon Jungkook)

Suga And His Spices (MIn Yoongi)

Until Death ( Jeon Jungkook)

Game Over (Jeon Jungkook) (M)

I Take Your Heart On Tour With Me (Kim Taehyung)

Photographs (Park Jimin)

I’m Park Jimin. I’m Human Too (Park Jimin)

To All The Boys Who Will Never Love Me (Jeon Jungkook)

I Hate You, Kim Taehyung! (Kim Taehyung)

Young God (Jeon Jungkook)

Happier (Kim Taehyung)

That’s How You Get The Girl (Jeon Jungkook)

Home (Kim Taehyung)

Sad Song (Kim Taehyung)

Lost In Japan (Park Jimin)

That Girl Will Never Be Mine (Kim Taehyung)

Promise (Min Yoongi, Jeon Jungkook)

The Other Girl (Jeon Jungkook)

Kindred Spirit (Kim Taehyung)

We Dont Talk Anymore (Min Yoongi)

i’ll Stand By You (Jeon Jungkook, Kim Taehyung)

Rich Girl, Poor Boy (Jeon Jungkook, Kim Taehyung)

Gotta Find You (Jeon Jungkook)

DRABBLE

Extraordinary (Kim Taehyung)

Love, Jungkook (Jeon Jungkook)

That Girl Will Never Be Mine (Kim Taehyung)

But You Are Still The One For Me (Jeon Jungkook)

Drabble Game 1 (Jeon Jungkook, Enemies To Lovers)

Drabble Game 2 (Kim Taehyung Best Friends To Lovers)

All in My Head (Jungkook x You ONESHOT)

Thankyou for the request anon! I am not sure if this is the way you wanted the story would go but I had so much fun writinmg it. hope you like it! :)

A/N: and keep those requests coming in guys! especially those song based ones (it doesnt have to be, though). I always have fun writing requests

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Jeon Jungkook’s wife.

Something you have always wanted to be.

Something you have always dream of.

But its something you know wont ever come true.

Until today.

As you looked at the handsome man who is impeccably dressed in a black suit standing in front of you at the altar, you slowly pinched yourself to checked for the nth time that this is not just another one of your vivid day dream.

Its your wedding day. And you are marrying Jeon Jungkook. Your best friend who you have been in love with for years. Its supposed to be the happiest day of your life. The most joyful experience a girl can ever have. But when Jungkook looked at you with his dark obsidian eyes, void of any emotions while he slipped on the ring on your shaking finger, your marriage ring that will bound the two of you for eternity, only then you remembered that this is not the fairytale you had always wished for. Jungkook is not here, marrying you, own his own will.

Your marriage was arranged.

And Jungkook hates and blames you for it.

There was no loving hugs or kisses after the two of you were married, only polite nods and formal greetings to the guests. Jungkook wanted to keep the wedding small, only inviting close friends and relatives as he told you to keep the fact that you are married from the media a while longer. Although you heart breaks thinking about how Jungkook really hates the fact that he’s married to you to the point he is keeping it a secret from everyone, you still meekly agreed to each and every one of his condition.

As long as you still become Jeon Jungkook’s wife.

Jungkook swing opened the double doors to your new marriage home, a pent house at one of the most expensive building in the city, a gift from the both of your parents who is the most happiest to finally get their two children together.

“So… this is home,” he said as he walked in, placing the suitcases on the floor. “You like it?” you paced around the huge living area and look out from the ceiling to floor windows that lined the walls, exposing the night scenery of the city.

“I do. Its beautiful,” you whispered as you turned to looked at him. Your husband. The reality of this very fact still sounds unreal to you. “Jungkook. We-”

Jungkook akwardly cleared his throat and cut whatever it is you were intending to say.

“Erm so why dont you go freshen up or take a bath first, its late and I’m sure you are already tired,” you dropped your gaze to the floor and gave a slow nod before making your way to your bedroom. After you had a long refreshing bath, you opened you suitcase that has been pre packed for you by your mother, only too find hundreds of neatly folded pieces of various types of lingerie and nighties.

Is she crazy? What am I supposed to do with all this? This is fit for someone’s wedding nigh- wait. It is my wedding night. Should I?

You thought to yourself as you turned and run your fingers through the delicate multicoloured laces and silks, each piece only making your face warm up in embarassement. After pondering for a moment on your next move, you finally decided to just go for it. Jungkook and you are married after all, and he is a man. You nervously reached out for the most modest design, well as modest as a scrap of lace can be, a black set and hurriedly putting in on before covering yourself with a matching, barely covering anything robe. You tidied up the rest of the room, spritz on some perfume and sat nervously at the corner or the bed, waiting for your husband to finally join you. After the longest 30 minutes wait of your life, Jungkook finally walked in, hands busy trying to put on his jacket.

“Y/N, I-” he stopped when he sees the what you are currently clad in and gave you the once over, his eyes lingering all over your body, causing you to blushed a crimson red. “Oh,”

“I…uh.. ah, I have been waiting for you,” you slowly told him, feeling embarassed beyond belief. Would he think you are just embarassing yourself? What if he this is not his style? What if he dont like it? Should you change?

Jungkook run his tounge on his bottom lips and scratch the back of his neck. “I… I just came in to tell you that I’m going out for a while. I’ll be late. Dont wait up,” he informed you before quickly exiting the room and the apartment, leaving you alone and stunned by his unexpected reaction. You just sat there, unable to move, pulling the robe tighter around your yourself to cover your body as much as you can as you feel the hot tears start to trinkled down your face.

Did your husband just left you alone on your wedding night?

The sinister thoughts stayed with you the whole night until you wake up the next morning, only to find a cold empty space beside you, a sign that Jungkook didnt even bother returning home the night before.

Guess I should stop thinking about you all the time

You flicked through the channel and stop at some entertainment news after you had your breakfast. Alone. You dont know where Jungkook is and you are not sure if you are allowed to call and ask him about it. Would it just pissed him off?

You wonder where he is. Is he safe? Who is he with? Is he with the boys? Does he have a schedule today? Have he eaten? You shake your head to get the thoughts of him out from your mind. Jungkook has been your best friends for years, and you have been in love with him ever since you can ever remember. Being in love with a well sought after idol is really the best way to inflict pain on yourself when you have to see and listen to him talked about his latest conquest for the week, or sometime even for jusy the night. You always plastered on the brightest smile you can muster and act like the supportive best friend that you are, wishing that you he will one day see you that way.

Sometimes you cursed yourself for self inflicting the pain of loving him onto yourself. You told yourself to stop thinking about him all the time, but the effort never fruitful. Thoughts of him always plagued your mind like a disease without a cure. You thought you are doomed for eternity, forever loving someone who will never reprocicate your feelings, until both of your parents dropped the news of the arranged marriage, taking the both of you by surprised. You were shocked when Jungkook didnt put out any fighy, but instead seems to willingly agree with it, although he is nonchalant about the whole thing. You on the other hand are overjoyed. You are going to marry Jungkook, and right then, it doesnt matter if its arranged. Jungkook is your best friend, the two of you will make the marriage work. You are sure you will. Nothing could go wrong.

Or so you thought.

I see you with her and it crushes me inside

Your thoughts were interrupted when the TV screen changed and showed a video of your husband, from the night before. Apparently he spend the whole night at the club celebrating his alleged girlfriend’s birthday. There were rumors about them being together, even before the two of you were married. You had asked him about it once but he just shrugged and didnt give you any straight answer  The screen changed again to show Jungkook and Nara, snuggling againsts each other, laughing and drinking with their friends while answering some of the reporter’s questions. You quickly clicked the off button, turning the TV off and try to calm your shattered heart that is beating rapidly. You can feel the tears stinging the back of your eyes, struggling to get out.

So that is where you went on our wedding night.

The thought crushes every part of your being and you can no longer held back your tears and finally let it flow freely down your face.

Maybe this is what I needed maybe this is a sign Maybe I’ve been blind to reality baby tell me

You finally woke up from your curled up form on the couch after hours of crying over Jungkook and trying to sooth your broken heart. All this while, you thought by being married to you, he would at least try to stay loyal, dropping the girls he always took home before. You are, after all, not just some random girl. You are his best friend.You thought, he would at least respect that. That maybe in time Jungkook would learn how to love you.

But you thought wrong.

The marriage is only something he has to do to pleased his parents, and definitely nothing more.

As the images of Jungkook and Nara flashes in your mind, you realized that there is no point in hoping for the relationship to go anywhere anymore. This is the sign you have been waiting for. Jungkook doesnt love you, and he never will.

Maybe its really finally time for you to get over him.

Every little glance my way Every time you wanted to hang You seemed so interested

You tried your hardest to push your feelings aside. Trying not to show Jungkook any sign that you are hurting. You and Jungkook only exchanged akward greetings here and there during breakfast and dinner, and on the rare occassion that he’s actually home, he will usually spent the night in his little work room or slept the couch. Your heart ached everytime you thought about how he rather sleep on an uncomfortable couch than spend the night sharing a bed with you.

Where did it all went wrong?

The two of you used to be so close. And this marriage ruined everything.

You sighed as you stabbed your already limp piece of pancake, drenched in syrup.

“Hey… you okay?” Jungkook’s voice startled you. He sounds so careful, as if he is afraid to talk to you.

“Yea.. yeah. Just a lot on my mind,” you give a quiet reply before shoving a big piece in your mouth. Jungkook looks closer at you and cleared his throat.

“I.. um, we are having a break since promotion season is over,” he breaks the silence. You raised your eyes to met his, who is already staring at you. You can feel your heart beat faster. There is no way in hell you will ever get over him. Its never going to happen. “And I thought… maybe we can spend more time together. You know, hanging out like we used to?”

You almost choked on your pancake at his suggestion. The two of you has been akward with each other ever since your wedding, barely saying a word to each other, and now he suddenly wants to hang out?

“What do you say? We are, first and foremost, best friends before we are husband and wife Y/N,” he grinned at you, flashing his bunny like smile that you had missed. You ponder on his suggestion for a moment before finally agreeing with a smile.

“Yes Jungkook, that would be nice,”

Could you tell me was it real or was it all in my head

True to his promise, Jungkook spend his time with you just like the old days. He still do sleeps in his work room or the couch, but at least the conversations were no longer akward, the house is no longer silent, but instead is filled with teasing and laughter.

All thoughts of Nara and the way he just left you on your wedding night dissappeared from your mind, replaced by the smiling Jungkook in front of you. Since your marriage is still kept a secret from the public, most of your activities includes eating take aways while watching old sitcom reruns, competing against each other in video games, which Jungkook always wins and watching late night movies until you accidentally fell asleep in his embraced a few times. You could not have been happier. Everything is finally falling into place. Your marriage is working out so well, its surreal, making you wonder if this is all real or just a friction of your imagination.

“Thankyou Jungkook,” you beamed at him one night while sitting on the couch beside him. He smiled back at you, reaching to carress your cheek.

“What for?”

“For spending time with me. Like we used to,”

“Of course Y/N. Nothing is going to change between us just because we are married,” his hands keeps carressing your cheek and you close your eyes, leaning in into his touch. After a few moment of silence, you opened your eyes to see him staring right at you. Eyes so deep it feels like he is lookong straight into your soul. You take the chance and looked back into the doe eyes of the man you love so much.

“Jungkook… I…..This feelings I’m having… These weird chemistry I’m sensing between us…Please tell me if its really real? Or am I just imagining things? Is this all only in my head?” you finally find the courage to ask him the question that has been burning at the back of your mind for years. Jungkook’s gaze didnt falter as he continued to stare into your eyes, taking in your features as his hands keeps on carressing your hair.

“Y/N, I-” he didnt get to finished his sentence when his phone rang, breaking the moment. Both of you snapped back into reality as he fumbled to answer the call.

“Yes hello? What? Okay, I’ll be right there,” he quickly stands up and gather his jacket.

“Jungkook, whats wrong?” panic surged through you as you saw how disheveled he seems after the call.

“Nara. She’s in trouble. I need to go,” Jungkook quickly exited the door and slammed it shut, not looking back or even bothering to wait for your respond.

“Oh… okay. Stay safe Kookie…” you softly whispered at the empty apartment as you slide down further into the couch, feeling the warmth of the spot where Jungkook used to be.

She’s so pretty you two look so great

You were awaken a few hours later to find yourself had fallen asleep on the couch after Jungkook left. The front lock jiggles and you peeked your sleepy head at the door.

“Jungkook? Are you back? Is Nara ok-” you dont need to finish your question as your husband stumbled in carrying a drunk Nara, helping her up by hugging her tightly by the waist. You felt you heart ache at the scene. Even while drunk, Nara looked so beautiful in real life compared to what you always sees on TV. No wonder your playboy husband chose her out of his many girls, as his girlfriend. They are a perfect match for each other. Complementing each other in every way.

“Do..do you need help?” you asked, standing up and akwardly fiddling with your hands.

“No. Its fine. I just need to change her and clean her up a little,” your eyes bulged. Change her? But you didnt dare to say anything. “I’m going to take her into our bedroom, since its more comfortable. Do you mind sleeping outside today?” Jungkook asked but not bothering to wait for a respond as he is already about to close the door.

“Yes, I guess…”

You stood there stunned. Jungkook himself have never slept in your marital bed, and the first time he’s doing so, he is doing it with a drunk Nara.

He is just helping her. Nothing is going on.

You quickly wiped your tears and prepared yourself a place to sleep on the couch, curling yourself into a ball under your blanket, pushing all thoughts of your husband with another girl in your bed right now.

Was it real or was it fake? Was it all a mistake? Boy, I just gotta know was it all in my head, all in my head?

That night, apparently, doesnt seem to be the only night Jungkook ran out to rescue Nara and bringing her back, drunk, to your room. In fact it happened almost every week. You have given up all hopes that you and Jungkook would ever care enough about your feelings to see how much you are hurting by his actions. You are sure now that the feelings and chemistry you felt night between the two of you is just another one sided moment in your head. Jungkook doesnt feel anything.

He never did. He never will.

You are even more sure when he promised to celebrate your birthday with a simple romantic dinner for two at home. You slaved all day to create the perfect meal. Although its your birthday, you wanted to cooked for your husband on your special night and hoping that this night will erased all the unpleasant events that occured recently because of Nara.

Jungkook called to tell you that he will be a little late as the boys wanted to do one last practice round before ending the day. You decide to use that to your advantage and take your time to perfected your outfit, hair and makeup. You wanted to look beautiful for Jungkook tonight. You are going to find out once and for all if the chemistry you felt between the two of you are for real or is only a make believe in your head.

You are going to tell him you love him.

You waited for him, rearranging the dinner table multiple times, anxious, nervous and excited for his return. But one hour turned to two, turned to three and four, and when its official he is more than seven hours late, you know he’s not coming. You blew off the candle and start to clean up the food, not even bothering to hide the fact that you are crying anymore when the door finally opened, revealing Jungkook and of course, staggering by his side, Nara.

You just stare at the door, no longer interested to say anything. To be honest, you had already had expected it. Of course he would be with his girlfriend on your special day.

“Y/N, hey. I-” Jungkook stopped in his tracks when he saw how you are beautifully dressed, with a ruined makeup because of your tears and your now messy hair, cleaning the table that’s supposed to be the main event of the night. He stumbled a little with Nara’s weight on his shoulders, trying to get closer to you.

“Y/N. I’m so sorry. I know I promised and I know you waited for me. But Nara, she-”

“Its fine Jungkook. Its always Nara. I know,” you cutted him off, no energy left to fight or even listen to his explanations. “Just take her to the room like you usually do. Not like you ever ask me if I’m okay with it in the first place,” you turned and start to continue cleaning the table.

“Y/N please. Its not like that. I-”

“It’s my birthday Jungkook, and my only wish right now is to not hear you talk or see you tonight,” you looked straight into his eyes with your cold ones, sending shivers to his spine before spinning on your heels and turned away.

Time for me to move on now it was probably just a silly crush anyway But I just cant help but think that we, we could’ve had something

Jungkook woke up the next morning from the couch in the bedroom, stretching his body, feeling exhausted, to see Nara stirring on the couch, slowly waking up from her drunken night.

“Hey, feeling better?” Nara rubbed her temples and nodded.

“Yeah. Thanks again Kookie. I’m sorry I have been such a nuisance lately. Thankyou for always be here for me,” she leaned in and gives him a kiss on the cheek, making him winced. “I’ll should get going now,” she quickly grabbed her things and make her way out. Jungkook immediately make his way outside, only to find the apartment eerily empty. Silent. You will usually be out whenever Nara slept over, but there is always trcaes of you left. A dirty cereal bowl in the sink, a simple breakfast for him under on the table or the faint smell of coffee. But not this time. There were no traces of you anywhere. He scratched his head, wondering where might you have gone to. He wanted to have a long serious talk with you today. Its finally time to make his feelings known.

He stumble his way to the kitchen, figuring he needs a hot cup of coffee to straigthen his mind when he saw a note left on the counter in your handwriting.

Jungkook,

Being your wife has always been a dream of mine, but I know now the reality will never be as beautiful as the dream. Maybe I’m just better suited to stay only as your best friend. With that being said, I’m applying for a divorce.

I will be coming to collect my things in the next few days.

Y/N

“A divorce? No no no. This cant be happening,” Jungkook shakes his head and crumpled the paper, throwing it away to try and released a bit of his anger. He needs to find you. There is no way in hell he is letting this happen without talking to you first.

Did you ever feel the same? Was my mind just playing games? Boy, I just gotta know was it all in my head, all in my head?

You tip toed inside the apartment. You had call the company and check Jungkook’s schedule in advanced before deciding to come and collect your things. Leaving Jungkook was the hardest decision you have ever made, and you know all your determination will crumble down if you ever see his beautiful face again. Once you arrived in the bedroom, you open the suitcase that is still half filled with the unused lingerie. You looked at them with sadness, memory of your wedding night came back, making you more convinced that what you are doing is the right decision. You looked around the room and start to grabbed everything of yours that you can see and toss it in the suitcase. Organizing can be done later. You need to get out of here as fast as you can.

“What the hell do you think you are doing Y/N?” you frozed. Shit, Jungkook’s home. You summoned all the courage you have left and put on a brave face before facing him.

“Arent you supposed to be in practice?”

“I didnt feel like it,” his answer is short and leave no room for argument. “Besides, someone from the company told me that my wife calls and ask about my schedule today. So I figured maybe my wife needed something at home, so I rather be home and wait for her than staying in a room, sweating my ass off with six other boys,” he starts to walk closer with painfully slow steps, eyes boring into your statued figure.

“Erm, I-”

“Did you really think they wouldnt tell me if my wife calls Y/N? Hmm?” Jungkook is right in front of you now, his hands reaching out to tuck a stray hair behind your ear. You flinched.

“I didnt think you told anybody that you were married except for the members Jungkook,” you replied back, eyes staring back into his, not backing down although he can see you are starting to shake. He chuckled.

“What? Why would you think I’m hiding you? Keeping you a secret on purpose?” you let out a snort at that and pushed him away, continuing to toss your things inside your suitcase.

“Isnt that what you are doing? You wanted a small wedding, hidden from everyone, you dont allow me to tell anyone about us, not even my friends! Just so you can continue to be all sickeningly sweet with your girlfriend, without the pressure of people knowing that you are someone’s husband, isnt that right?” you scoffed. You dont care about Jungkook’s feelings anymore. You are tired of being heart broken. You just want to get over all this, over him and move on with your life. “Well, guess what Jungkook, you are free now. The divorce will be finalized soon and I will stop getting in your way,”

“Wait,” Jungkook raised a hand, shaking his head and he looked shocked. “Is that what you think I’m doing all this while? Hiding you because I want to be with Nara?”

“What am I supposed to think Jungkook?” you sighed as you tossed a bottle of your perfume in the suitcase, frustrated with him. Why is he acting as if he doesnt know what he did? What kind of games is he playing with you now? “You didnt want to marry me remember? You were only doing it because you have to. Having to give up your throng of women and your girlfriend, for someone like me,” you scoffed again while you look at his bewildered face. “Even I would hate me for that. You hide our relationship from everyone. You brought back Nara to our house almost every night and slept with her in our marital bed, which, by the way, you left me alone in, on our wedding night, where I embrassingly presented myself to you, which of course, you are disgusted with,” the memory from that night still makes you cringe, “you probably have more beautiful women to pleased you every night, right? So you tell me Jungkook, what am I supposed to think?” Your eyes flickered softly across his face. Looking at the face you love so much while saying out loud all the things that he did to you only makes the whole thing becoming even more real. You sighed and quickly collect the rest of your things before pulling out another small suitcase when Jungkook just kept silent. You need to get your packing done as fast as you can and get out from here.

“You know…” you eyes runs over his face and settled at his doe eyes, “I love you Jungkook,” you admitted softly. There is no point in hiding it anymore. You are letting everything out once and for all today, and maybe then you can finally moved on.

“Wh.what?”

“I love you. There, I said it. I have loved you, wanted you for as long as I can even remembered,” you close your eyes and let out a deep breath. “I know you wont ever love me back,  how can you? You are so perfect… and just look at me,” you dropped down on the bed, sitting beside your opened suitcase. You are emotionally drained, you dont even have anymore tears to cry,  "but on those days when you look at me deep in the eyes, or when you seems so happy to hang out with me, it just sends me a ray of hope, that maybe, just maybe you might see me as more than just your friend,“ Your eyes lowered to your lap before flicking back to his face and stood up, preparing to get your suitcases out. Jungkook is still statued to the same spot, but his hands are now balled into fist by his side.

“Tell me just this once Jungkook. Do you ever feel the same about me? Do you think you ever will? Was I only imagining things all this while? Is it all just in my head?” your voice is barely above a whisper, looking at him with tired eyes. “I’m sorry, but I cant do this anymore. I cant torture my own heart anymore. Seeing you with someone else while being your wife… that is just the last straw. I’m sorry Jungkook,” you carried your suitcases and start to make your way out but Jungkook stopped you, making your bags dropped to the floor. He looked at you with dark eyes, filled with anger…and lust?

“Are you done?” He growled and didnt wait for your answer. “Now you listen to me,” he slowly walks closer towards you, making you walk backwards, trying to get away from his intimidating steps. He lets out a sinister laugh.

“You really do like to just assume whatever you want about me dont you, Y/N? You never think about how I felt. I thought you should know me better, being my best friend and all,” he snickered at you.

“I wanted a small wedding because I dont want to get caught up in the media circus. I dont want you to be exposed to my fans, I dont want you to get hurt. It would kill me if you get hurt because of me. I dont care how big the wedding is, as long as by the end of the day you become my wife, then that’s all that matters,” your mouth formed into an O shaped, surprised at what he’s saying. “And have it ever come out from my mouth that I dont want to marry you? You said I’m doing it because I have to, but does it ever occured to you that I actually wanted to?”

“I…urm-”

“Of course not. You only assumed the worse of me Y/N,” he lets out a bark of laughter, but it lacks any form of humour to your ears. “If you had only asks me, then you will know,” he continue to close the gap between the two of you, making you flatten yourself to the wall behind you, trying to avoid him  "how,“ closer, "much I,” closer, “actually,” closer “want,” he closes the gap, “you,”

His face is directly in front of you now, caging you in, his breath feels warm across your face. You closed your eyes and tilted your face to the right, trying to avoid his gaze.

“Wh…what about Nara? If you really wanted to marry me, you wouldnt still be with Nara,” you managed to stutter out your words. Jungkook cupped your chin and turned you to face him.

“I’m really sorry about Nara. But Y/N, there’s nothing going on with me and Nara. Never have and never will. She is my closest acquintance from the industry. People like to gossip us together. She’s having a hard time lately since her company ended her contract, that’s why she’s always getting drunk. I’m only helping her. We didnt do anything Y/N. We didnt even sleep on the same bed. I only stayed in the room because she tends to wake up and throw up in the middle of the night when she’s shit drunk,” his warm breath hits your face with every word he said, making you shiver. “And if you would have bother to wait every morning, you will find that she actually wanted to meet you, my wife, to say her thanks and apologized,”

Saying you were shocked was an understatement. All this while you thought Jungkook and Nara were really a couple. They were so close even before you were married. Those lingering looks and secret touches you saw between them, are they all only in you head?

“But…but, you didnt want to be with me Jungkook. You left me alone on our wedding night to be with her. Even when I’m already waiting for you. Ready to give myself to you…” the embarassing reminder from that night brought tears to your eyes. Jungkook softly wiped those tears that rolled down your cheeks with his thumb.

“If only you knew how much I have always wanted you Y/N. I have longed for you for so long, but I’m afraid to ruin our friendship. What we had is special to me. And now you are my wife,all ready, willing and mine for the taking. You really dont know what you do to me Y/N, ” he let out a staggered breath. “Seeing you dressed like that just for me that night, I almost went crazy. You didnt know how much restrained it took me to not just take you right then and there, making love to you all night long until you cant remember anything else other than my name,” the suggestive words that he whispered to your ears makes your whole body shivers, sending tingling feelings straight to your core. Is Jungkook really saying all these things to you?

“Why…why didnt you then?”

Jungkook smirked at your bold question before his eyes turns soft. “I was afraid Y/N. How can someone so innocent and pure like you wants to be with someone like me? I dont know how to touch you, how to love you. All those women I’ve been with, they are just distractions to get my mind of you. Someone I never thought I could have. I’m afraid that I will ruined you, corrupt you with someone unworthy like me. I dont think I deserve you Y/N. I stil dont,” he finally admitted. Your eyes widen at his confession. How is someone as perfect as him thinks he doesnt deserve you?

“Jungkook… you are everything I have ever wanted,” you whispered to him, finding the strength to raised your hand and touch his cheek. He held your hand against him and leaned in into your touch, closing his eyes and just enjoying it.

“I love you so much Y/N. Being asked to marry you is the greatest thing that had happened to me. I’m sorry for hurting you all these years, when what I have always wanted to do is to hold you close and kiss you every time that I can,” he opened his eyes and stare at you with his doe ones. You smiled at him. “I love you Y/N. I promised I will make it up to you for the rest of your life, as your husband, if you would still have me,”

“I love you Jeon Jungkook, of course I will” you said between your smile. Never in a million years would you thought that Jungkook will be saying those three little words back to you and now he is saying it, repeatedly, making your heart beats so fast it almost burst.

Could you tell me was it real or was it all in my head Was it real or was it all in my head

“And to answer to your question, no Y/N, its not all in your head. I am desparately head over heels in love with you, my best friend, my lover, my wife, my everything,” he grinned, teasing you by answering the question you didnt even remember asking anymore. You slapped his chest and pulled him close.

“Shut up and just kiss me,”

“With pleasure,” he whispered back before finally capturing his lips with yours.