I Didnt Know You Wrote!! Ill Have A Binge Session Soon, I Promise!

i didn’t know you wrote!! i’ll have a binge session soon, i promise!

Ah, yes! I’m just getting started, I don’t have a ton of stories yet, but I would be so honored if you read them! (I’ve actually thought about sending you some of my stuff because you’re one of my fave writers, but I didn’t want to be weird or obnoxious. 😄) You’ll have to let me know what you think! Thanks so much, cutie! 💕

Happy Birthday, Min Yoongi! 💕

what a relief that you exist in this world

happy birthday to the brilliant songwriter, talented rapper and inspiring artist that you are. may your trials end in full bloom. ♥

Impermanence

Genre: Angst/Fluff/Social Media AU

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader (Female); Yoongi x Reader (Established Relationship)

Word Count: 1.24K

Summary: You decide to get a tattoo to surprise your boyfriend, Yoongi. You ask Jungkook to accompany you, but this leads to a change you never expected.

Author’s Note: If anyone’s been wondering when the angst was coming... here you go. 😊

Part Five

“Let’s go, Jungkook!”

“Let’s get it, birthday boy!”

“Come on, JK!”

Jimin, Hoseok, and Namjoon encouraged Jungkook, nudging him and clapping him on the back.

His face was turned down, his eyes on his lap, a blush blossoming across his grinning cheeks.

You dropped your napkin across your empty plate, picking up your half-drunk wine glass as you leaned back in your seat, an amused smile on your lips. Beside you, Yoongi held your free hand beneath the table and on top of his thigh, his chopsticks idly moving cold noodles around his plate.

“Sing us a song, JK.” You voiced your agreement with the boys.

Jungkook looked up when you spoke, his large eyes meeting your gaze. Something passed between you in an instant; you could almost hear his voice, his words ringing in your head.

Anything for you, noona.

A slight uneasiness fluttered in your belly, and you looked away. Yoongi sat his chopsticks down, quietly clearing his throat.

“Okay.” Jungkook said out loud, reaching for his glass, and the boys clapped and cheered appreciatively as he tipped his head back, downing the last of his drink. He then closed his eyes, contemplating, and everyone quieted down, waiting patiently for him to ready himself. After a moment, he inhaled, and his voice, soft and breathy, floated through the expectant silence.

What is your name?

Do you have a place to go?

Oh, could you tell me?

I saw you hidden in this garden

You slowly lowered your glass back onto the table, deciding against taking another sip. As soon as you recognized the words, your mind began turning as fast as the blood suddenly surging through your veins. Of all the songs in his repertoire, why did he choose this one?

You searched his face, and he looked back at you, his eyes not leaving yours as he continued to sing, his voice gaining strength.

You know that I can't

Show you me

Give you me

I can’t show you a run-down part of myself

I wear a mask again and go to see you

But I still want you

Yoongi’s grip on your hand tightened. You could feel him watching you, gauging your response, but Jungkook had your gaze locked on him as he repeated his last line.

But I still want you

I still want you

His beautiful voice faded out and he took a breath, but your breath was caught in your throat. Hoseok led another round of applause and the boys’ usual friendly banter resumed, their noisy praises for Jungkook pulling you out of what felt like a trance. You finally looked away from him as he turned a shy smile on his adoring hyungs.

You dared to glance at Yoongi. Anyone who didn’t know him very well would conclude from his expression (or lack thereof) that he was completely unbothered. But you knew better. You could tell just from the set of his jaw that he was as affected as you were. He said nothing though, only reached for his drink, swirling the alcohol once around the glass before finishing it in a single swig.

You reached again for your own glass and pressed it to your lips. Something told you that you too might want to finish your drink after all.

—

“You look beautiful tonight, noona.” Jungkook exhaled, his breath ghosting across the back of your neck, sending shivers across your exposed skin.

You turned around to face him, your eyes catching sight of Yoongi over his shoulder, across the room. At the moment, he seemed deep in conversation with Namjoon.

“We talked about this, JK.” You whispered reprovingly. “You said you’d try to move on. We agreed we’re just friends.”

“I’m sorry, noona.” He sighed, and you could smell the alcohol on his breath. But the small smirk curling the corner of his lips made him look anything but sorry.

“You promised, Jungkook.” You reminded him. And yourself. Your mouth was saying all the right things, but your body was feeling all the wrong things.

His smirk deepened, his eyes traveling appreciatively down your figure.

“I’m sorry, noona,” He said again, “But you should have worn a different dress if you didn’t want me to look at you like more than a friend.”

He was right, and you knew it. You had convinced yourself that you wore your sexiest little black dress tonight - the one with the open back that put your new tattoo on full display - for your boyfriend, but secretly, you had wanted to see Jungkook’s reaction. He hadn’t disappointed you either; as soon as he caught sight of you walking in with Yoongi at the beginning of the evening, he immediately became Jungshook. It had given you a delicious thrill. And now, hearing him say out loud how good he thought you looked, with his doe-eyes alight, was just as exhilarating - if not more so.

But as you looked over his shoulder again and saw Yoongi, no longer with Namjoon but watching the two of you in the corner with a penetrating gaze, you knew you’d made a serious mistake.

“I think we’ve had too much to drink.” You told Jungkook. “Maybe we shouldn’t talk until we’ve sobered up.”

“I’m not drunk.” Jungkook frowned.

“Maybe not, but I should go before either of us says anything we’ll regret.” You told him, taking a step back. “Happy Birthday, Jungkook.” You added, almost as an afterthought, as you walked away, leaving him looking confused - and disappointed.

You crossed the room, making your way around the dinner table and over to Yoongi, taking deep breaths as you walked in an attempt to slow your heart rate.

“Hey babe, I think I’m going to head home.” You spoke as you drew near. “It’s getting late.”

Yoongi nodded as you picked up your coat and purse; he knew you had work in the morning.

You quickly said goodnight to the rest of the boys, thanking them for a great evening, then headed down the hallway with Yoongi, ordering a car on your phone as you walked. But as you reached the front door, he caught hold of your arm, gently stopping you. You looked up from your phone before confirming your ride.

“Can we talk for a minute before you go?” Yoongi asked, not unkindly.

You hesitated. You were fairly certain he wanted to know about the exchange you’d just been having with Jungkook, and you really didn’t feel like getting into it right now. You just wanted to kiss your boyfriend goodnight and go home to bed.

“Can we talk tomorrow?” You tried. “I’m just really tired.”

Yoongi looked down, shaking his head almost imperceptibly.

“I don’t think this should wait until tomorrow.”

Something about his demeanor set your nerves on edge. He was acting entirely too calm - even by his standards.

“What do you want to talk about?” You were reluctant to ask, sure you didn’t really want to know.

He lifted his face, his dark eyes void of any emotion as he looked to you.

His answer was a casual sigh, as though he weren’t about to irreparably shatter your entire world.

“I think we should take a break.” He said, with no more weight than if he were commenting on the weather, but his words hit you like a wrecking ball, knocking every last ounce of air from your lungs.

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Dreams

BTS Dream Journal

Note: Just a log of actual dreams I’ve had about BTS. I’ve written some of them out as drabbles and the links are next to the dates.

January 13th, 2020

I meet BTS backstage with several of my girlfriends and we all play musical chairs. I win and impress Namjoon. We flirt.

January 18th, 2020 - Indescribable

I’m a high school student and BTS is going to perform in my school auditorium. My friends and I manage front row seats, but have to endure several unimpressive opening acts from our classmates in band, glee club, etc.

February 3rd, 2020

I’m front-row at a BTS concert. I shout “Hi, Namjoon!” and he actually hears me. He finds me in the crowd and pulls me onstage. All the boys give me a hug and perform a song for me.

March 8th, 2020 - Thrilled

I’m riding in a car with several BTS members. Namjoon is driving, and Jungkook and I are kissing in the backseat. When the members in front of us notice, they’re all disgusted and yell at us to stop.

March 28th, 2020

I’m on a summer vacation with BTS at a seaside cottage. Namjoon and I are dating and I can tell he’s planning to propose during our trip, but I have unresolved feelings for Yoongi.

April 6th, 2020

My friend and I are just fans, but we notice that Hoseok has been down lately and want to cheer him up. We find out that BTS is coming to our city that night and we decide to make him a heart balloon bouquet and try to give it to him.

April 12th, 2020

It’s revealed at an awards show that Hoseok has a young daughter that he’s been keeping secret and it’s a huge scandal. An actor speaks out in support of Hoseok and BTS while giving an acceptance speech. After the event, the tour bus carrying Hoseok is hit by a car. I try to Google if he’s okay, but I keep fumbling trying to type “J-Hope”. When I’m finally able to pull up search results, the reports are not definite.

April 30th, 2020

I go to the movies with BTS, but in the middle of the movie we can’t find Yoongi. After looking everywhere, we finally find out that he snuck into a different theater to see a zombie horror movie. Later, Yoongi and I are superhero companions and our mentor is training us to fly, but we’re distracted by our attraction to one another. Eventually, we abandon the lesson to make out instead.

May 3rd, 2020

I’m Yoongi’s girlfriend and I accompany him to a formal dinner. All the members pose for pictures while the other boys’ girlfriends and I wait. Then the boys ask if the girlfriends can join. After taking a few pictures all together, Yoongi gets down on one knee in front of everyone and surprises me by proposing. Later, in a different dream, I meet Namjoon in a cafe and he invites me to a museum. At the museum entrance, security doesn’t want to let me in, but Namjoon uses his influence as a celebrity to convince them to make an exception. Once inside, we run into Hoseok and he and I walk along as we hug each other’s sides.

May 10th, 2020 - Alone

I’m hanging out with all the members in Yoongi’s hotel room after their concert. I’m Yoongi’s girlfriend and we’re snuggling in his bed while we all watch a movie.

May 14th, 2020 - Cute

May 16th, 2020

Yoongi, Hoseok, and I are all high school students, but we attend different schools. My friend and I pick up Yoongi and Hoseok after school in a minivan. My friend drives, Yoongi sits up front, I sit in the middle, and Hoseok sits in the back. As we drive, I lift my hands up over my head and rest them behind the headrest behind my head. I wait while Hoseok looks at his phone, hoping that he notices my hands and holds them. Eventually he does interlace our fingers and gives mine an affectionate squeeze.

June 19th, 2020

I’m at a play place for kids, adjusting some ropes above one of the play structures, when Yoongi (who I don’t know and I guess who works there) yells up at me telling me to stop messing with it, but I can’t understand him because he’s speaking Korean. I then climb down to the floor and Yoongi walks up to me like he knows me and grabs my face and nuzzles me and kisses my cheeks and lips, saying something obviously cute and affectionate, but again I can’t understand him.

June 28th, 2020

I’m hanging out with Yoongi and my friend is a third wheel. When my friend finally leaves, Yoongi and I immediately start making out. While we’re cuddling, I ask him if we’re officially boyfriend/girlfriend now. He hesitates before answering and I get mad, saying he’s just like all the other boys I’ve dated.

June 30th, 2020

I’m in a theater with all the Bangtan boys and we’re trying to choose our seats. I want to sit up front, but everyone else wants to sit in back. Namjoon volunteers to sit with me, and when the others head to the back, Yoongi gives me a quick and tiny goodbye kiss on the lips in passing. When Yoongi is gone, Namjoon gives me the same kind of kiss as we settle into our seats, then says, “You know Yoongi does that all the time because he’s in love with you, right?” And I’m like, “What do you call what you just did?! You do it all the time, too!” Then he smiles and starts really kissing me and we make out through the whole movie.

July 7th, 2020 - Surprise

I’m on a rooftop in the city at night, playing a “drinking” game with all the members of BTS, but instead of drinking alcohol, we’re eating bite-size foods.

October 14th, 2020

I was having dinner with all the members at a restaurant, it was our first time seeing each other after a long separation. While we were settling into our seats, I called across the table to Taehyung and cutely said, “Tae Tae, I love you!” He looked adorably unsure for a second while he translated in his head and thought of the correct response, then he replied, “I love you, too,” and smiled his big boxy smile, all proud of himself for speaking English. Then after dinner, we went out on the patio of the restaurant to enjoy a nighttime view of the ocean, and I gave Hoseok a big hug. I wrapped my arms around his neck and tried to kiss his cheek, but he was acting all shy and not hugging me back. I said, “What’s wrong, do you not want to hug me anymore now that I’m dating Yoongi? It’s okay, nothing’s changed between you and me. We’re still friends and we can still hug like we used to.” Then Hoseok relaxed and smiled and wrapped his arms around my waist and hugged me tight.

December 21st, 2020

A bunch of guys that all looked like either Jungkook or Yoongi were sitting around a lunch table in a cafeteria. I was going around hugging them all and giving them all cheek/forehead kisses and thanking them for being kind and caring people. None of them were the real JK or Yoongi, they just looked like clones. The dream/clone JKs were sweet and hugged back, but the dream/clone Yoongis acted like they didn’t care/were annoyed (but they actually appreciated the praise and affection).

December 22nd, 2020

I ran into Hoseok while buying tickets at an amusement park. We were friends but we hadn’t seen each other in a while. Hobi gave me a big hug and we tumbled to the ground together, but we kept hugging and laughing and he got all flirty. He tickled my tummy and gave me several pecks on the lips and was saying, “It’s so good to see you, I missed you so much!” Then he helped me stand up, we made plans to get together to catch up, and he said “see you later” with a wink before walking off.

December 25th, 2020

Another ARMY and I got to go to a rehearsal for an awards show. Yoongi wasn’t there because he was still recuperating from his shoulder surgery, so I was a little disappointed. Then Namjoon started flirting with me, and the other fan was jealous. After rehearsal, we joined the boys for dinner and Yoongi came, too. He sat next to me and I was really excited to meet him, but then he was rude to me. I didn’t understand why he was acting that way, but it turned out that it wasn’t actually him, it was the jealous fan in disguise (like she used polyjuice potion or something). She wanted to get back at me for Namjoon flirting with me. After she was exposed and kicked out, the real Yoongi showed up and he was nice (and even flirty).

In another dream, Taehyung and I had been talking but had never met in person. I made Christmas cookies using a recipe he sent me and I video-called him to show him.

December 29th, 2020

I was an extra in a new Agust D music video, and after filming wrapped, I went up to Yoongi and tried to say something in Korean that I had rehearsed. He was nice and smiled but he couldn’t understand me and I couldn’t understand him. Then everyone went to dinner together. I sat at the bar and Yoongi sat at a table behind me with his Korean-speaking friends, and he kept stealing glances at me. Then the bartender gave me a drink I didn’t order and said it’s from Yoongi.

January 30th, 2021

I was in England visiting some friends, and we were having dinner at a restaurant. My friends brought some of their friends along which included Yoongi and Taehyung. My best friend and I were sitting across the table from them and whispering about how cute they were. Yoongi looked like this:

And both he and Tae were speaking English with British accents. I told my friend I liked “that one” best, nodding toward Yoongi, then asked her which one she liked best, and she indicated Tae. I did my best to flirt with Yoongi during dinner, asking him questions, joking, smiling, leaning toward him, batting my eyelashes, and biting my lip. He seemed to get the message, and eventually slid a folded up card across the table to me with his phone number scrawled on it. Emboldened by Yoongi’s expression of interest in me, I switched seats with Tae so I could sit next to him. Then I really started flirting, touching his bicep and thigh, adjusting my slinky dress so he could get a good view of my legs, and whispering in his ear. We unfolded a menu and stood it up on the table in front of us to give ourselves a little privacy, and next thing you know we were making out. It was so realistic and I could actually feel Yoongi’s lips and tongue on mine, they were soft and smooth and felt sooo good, and while we were kissing I told him he had such pretty lips. Then Yoongi excused himself to go to the bathroom and while he was gone I moved to sit next to our mutual friend who had brought him along. I asked the friend to tell me more about Yoongi and asked him if he thought he was a good guy. I wanted to gauge his reaction to me dating Yoongi, but he was reluctant to answer my questions. Then when Yoongi returned from the bathroom, he and I left the restaurant together.

April 7th, 2021

I was traveling with BTS and when we got to the airport we found out our flight was delayed so we were just hanging out in the VIP lounge. An airport employee was being kind of rude, acting like the boys weren’t important enough for him to help, and I’m like, “Do you have any idea who these guys are?! They’re only the biggest group on the planet!” Then I was talking to a different, nicer employee and she was like, “So are you one of their girlfriends or something?” I said yes and she asked which member I was dating, so I told her to guess. I don’t remember who she guessed but she was wrong so she asked me to just tell her. I think it was supposed to be a secret, because I answered quietly, “Suga.” But she didn’t know their names so I had to subtly point him out, and when she saw him she was impressed. Then Yoongi got up to go somewhere and he discreetly grasped my hand for a second and gave me a secretive smirk as he walked by.

July 26th, 2021

I was outside on a lovely spring day flying kites with Yoongi and Hoseok. We were taking selfies together with our arms around each other, laughing and having fun.

August 22nd, 2021

I was riding a subway train with all the members, on our way to one of their concerts. Hoseok and I were sharing a seat and I had my arm through his. We were smiling and laughing, and we held hands and he kissed my cheek.

September 20th, 2021

I was filming a segment for a talk show with BTS. We were in a conference room around a table, all talking and laughing. Yoongi and I kept exchanging glances and smiles until the other members called us out and teased us for obviously liking each other.

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Dreams

BTS Dream Journal

Note: Just a log of actual dreams I’ve had about BTS. I’ve considered writing some of them out in an expanded form, like drabbles. If that interests anyone, let me know! Just drop me an ask or a comment with which dream you’d like me to write.

Morning of 1/13/20

I meet BTS backstage with several of my girlfriends and we all play musical chairs. I win and impress Namjoon. We flirt.

Morning of 1/18/20

I’m a high school student and BTS is going to perform in my school auditorium. My friends and I manage front row seats, but have to endure several unimpressive opening acts from our classmates in band, glee club, etc.

Morning of 2/3/20

I’m front-row at a BTS concert. I shout “Hi, Namjoon!” and he actually hears me. He finds me in the crowd and pulls me onstage. All the boys give me a hug and perform a song for me.

Morning of 3/8/20

I’m riding in a car with several BTS members. Namjoon is driving, and Jungkook and I are kissing in the backseat. When the members in front of us notice, they’re all disgusted and yell at us to stop.

Morning of 3/28/20

I’m on a summer vacation with BTS at a seaside cottage. Namjoon and I are dating and I can tell he’s planning to propose during our trip, but I have unresolved feelings for Yoongi.

Morning of 4/6/20

My friend and I are just fans, but we notice that Hoseok has been down lately and want to cheer him up. We find out that BTS is coming to our city that night and we decide to make him a heart balloon bouquet and try to give it to him.

Morning of 4/12/20

It’s revealed at an awards show that Hoseok has a young daughter that he’s been keeping secret and it’s a huge scandal. An actor speaks out in support of Hoseok and BTS while giving an acceptance speech. After the event, the tour bus carrying Hoseok is hit by a car. I try to Google if he’s okay, but I keep fumbling trying to type “J-Hope”. When I’m finally able to pull up search results, the reports are not definite.