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BTS Dream Journal

Note: Just a log of actual dreams I’ve had about BTS. I’ve considered writing some of them out in an expanded form, like drabbles. If that interests anyone, let me know! Just drop me an ask or a comment with which dream you’d like me to write.

Morning of 1/13/20

I meet BTS backstage with several of my girlfriends and we all play musical chairs. I win and impress Namjoon. We flirt.

Morning of 1/18/20

I’m a high school student and BTS is going to perform in my school auditorium. My friends and I manage front row seats, but have to endure several unimpressive opening acts from our classmates in band, glee club, etc.

Morning of 2/3/20

I’m front-row at a BTS concert. I shout “Hi, Namjoon!” and he actually hears me. He finds me in the crowd and pulls me onstage. All the boys give me a hug and perform a song for me.

Morning of 3/8/20

I’m riding in a car with several BTS members. Namjoon is driving, and Jungkook and I are kissing in the backseat. When the members in front of us notice, they’re all disgusted and yell at us to stop.

Morning of 3/28/20

I’m on a summer vacation with BTS at a seaside cottage. Namjoon and I are dating and I can tell he’s planning to propose during our trip, but I have unresolved feelings for Yoongi.

Morning of 4/6/20

My friend and I are just fans, but we notice that Hoseok has been down lately and want to cheer him up. We find out that BTS is coming to our city that night and we decide to make him a heart balloon bouquet and try to give it to him.

Morning of 4/12/20

It’s revealed at an awards show that Hoseok has a young daughter that he’s been keeping secret and it’s a huge scandal. An actor speaks out in support of Hoseok and BTS while giving an acceptance speech. After the event, the tour bus carrying Hoseok is hit by a car. I try to Google if he’s okay, but I keep fumbling trying to type “J-Hope”. When I’m finally able to pull up search results, the reports are not definite.

Sentimental

Genre: Fluff, Social Media AU

Pairing: Yoongi x Reader (Female)

Author’s Note: My hand slipped and this first attempt at a social media AU happened. This works as a stand-alone, but also fits into a headcanon of mine where Yoongi meets you during season 4 of Bon Voyage. You catch and confess mutual feelings and start a relationship. After the show, you return with him to Korea for a brief visit before heading home, and that’s when this conversation happens. Also, fun fact: this text exchange is loosely based on something that actually happened between me and an old boyfriend. Anyway, hope you enjoy!

Impermanence

Genre: Angst/Fluff/Social Media AU

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader (Female); Yoongi x Reader (Established Relationship)

Word Count: 1.24K

Summary: You decide to get a tattoo to surprise your boyfriend, Yoongi. You ask Jungkook to accompany you, but this leads to a change you never expected.

Author’s Note: If anyone’s been wondering when the angst was coming... here you go. 😊

Part Five

“Let’s go, Jungkook!”

“Let’s get it, birthday boy!”

“Come on, JK!”

Jimin, Hoseok, and Namjoon encouraged Jungkook, nudging him and clapping him on the back.

His face was turned down, his eyes on his lap, a blush blossoming across his grinning cheeks.

You dropped your napkin across your empty plate, picking up your half-drunk wine glass as you leaned back in your seat, an amused smile on your lips. Beside you, Yoongi held your free hand beneath the table and on top of his thigh, his chopsticks idly moving cold noodles around his plate.

“Sing us a song, JK.” You voiced your agreement with the boys.

Jungkook looked up when you spoke, his large eyes meeting your gaze. Something passed between you in an instant; you could almost hear his voice, his words ringing in your head.

Anything for you, noona.

A slight uneasiness fluttered in your belly, and you looked away. Yoongi sat his chopsticks down, quietly clearing his throat.

“Okay.” Jungkook said out loud, reaching for his glass, and the boys clapped and cheered appreciatively as he tipped his head back, downing the last of his drink. He then closed his eyes, contemplating, and everyone quieted down, waiting patiently for him to ready himself. After a moment, he inhaled, and his voice, soft and breathy, floated through the expectant silence.

What is your name?

Do you have a place to go?

Oh, could you tell me?

I saw you hidden in this garden

You slowly lowered your glass back onto the table, deciding against taking another sip. As soon as you recognized the words, your mind began turning as fast as the blood suddenly surging through your veins. Of all the songs in his repertoire, why did he choose this one?

You searched his face, and he looked back at you, his eyes not leaving yours as he continued to sing, his voice gaining strength.

You know that I can't

Show you me

Give you me

I can’t show you a run-down part of myself

I wear a mask again and go to see you

But I still want you

Yoongi’s grip on your hand tightened. You could feel him watching you, gauging your response, but Jungkook had your gaze locked on him as he repeated his last line.

But I still want you

I still want you

His beautiful voice faded out and he took a breath, but your breath was caught in your throat. Hoseok led another round of applause and the boys’ usual friendly banter resumed, their noisy praises for Jungkook pulling you out of what felt like a trance. You finally looked away from him as he turned a shy smile on his adoring hyungs.

You dared to glance at Yoongi. Anyone who didn’t know him very well would conclude from his expression (or lack thereof) that he was completely unbothered. But you knew better. You could tell just from the set of his jaw that he was as affected as you were. He said nothing though, only reached for his drink, swirling the alcohol once around the glass before finishing it in a single swig.

You reached again for your own glass and pressed it to your lips. Something told you that you too might want to finish your drink after all.

—

“You look beautiful tonight, noona.” Jungkook exhaled, his breath ghosting across the back of your neck, sending shivers across your exposed skin.

You turned around to face him, your eyes catching sight of Yoongi over his shoulder, across the room. At the moment, he seemed deep in conversation with Namjoon.

“We talked about this, JK.” You whispered reprovingly. “You said you’d try to move on. We agreed we’re just friends.”

“I’m sorry, noona.” He sighed, and you could smell the alcohol on his breath. But the small smirk curling the corner of his lips made him look anything but sorry.

“You promised, Jungkook.” You reminded him. And yourself. Your mouth was saying all the right things, but your body was feeling all the wrong things.

His smirk deepened, his eyes traveling appreciatively down your figure.

“I’m sorry, noona,” He said again, “But you should have worn a different dress if you didn’t want me to look at you like more than a friend.”

He was right, and you knew it. You had convinced yourself that you wore your sexiest little black dress tonight - the one with the open back that put your new tattoo on full display - for your boyfriend, but secretly, you had wanted to see Jungkook’s reaction. He hadn’t disappointed you either; as soon as he caught sight of you walking in with Yoongi at the beginning of the evening, he immediately became Jungshook. It had given you a delicious thrill. And now, hearing him say out loud how good he thought you looked, with his doe-eyes alight, was just as exhilarating - if not more so.

But as you looked over his shoulder again and saw Yoongi, no longer with Namjoon but watching the two of you in the corner with a penetrating gaze, you knew you’d made a serious mistake.

“I think we’ve had too much to drink.” You told Jungkook. “Maybe we shouldn’t talk until we’ve sobered up.”

“I’m not drunk.” Jungkook frowned.

“Maybe not, but I should go before either of us says anything we’ll regret.” You told him, taking a step back. “Happy Birthday, Jungkook.” You added, almost as an afterthought, as you walked away, leaving him looking confused - and disappointed.

You crossed the room, making your way around the dinner table and over to Yoongi, taking deep breaths as you walked in an attempt to slow your heart rate.

“Hey babe, I think I’m going to head home.” You spoke as you drew near. “It’s getting late.”

Yoongi nodded as you picked up your coat and purse; he knew you had work in the morning.

You quickly said goodnight to the rest of the boys, thanking them for a great evening, then headed down the hallway with Yoongi, ordering a car on your phone as you walked. But as you reached the front door, he caught hold of your arm, gently stopping you. You looked up from your phone before confirming your ride.

“Can we talk for a minute before you go?” Yoongi asked, not unkindly.

You hesitated. You were fairly certain he wanted to know about the exchange you’d just been having with Jungkook, and you really didn’t feel like getting into it right now. You just wanted to kiss your boyfriend goodnight and go home to bed.

“Can we talk tomorrow?” You tried. “I’m just really tired.”

Yoongi looked down, shaking his head almost imperceptibly.

“I don’t think this should wait until tomorrow.”

Something about his demeanor set your nerves on edge. He was acting entirely too calm - even by his standards.

“What do you want to talk about?” You were reluctant to ask, sure you didn’t really want to know.

He lifted his face, his dark eyes void of any emotion as he looked to you.

His answer was a casual sigh, as though he weren’t about to irreparably shatter your entire world.

“I think we should take a break.” He said, with no more weight than if he were commenting on the weather, but his words hit you like a wrecking ball, knocking every last ounce of air from your lungs.

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Wha-what is happening? My phone has been blowing up! The response to this post has been overwhelming, I’ve never had so many likes before! I’m so touched that so many people have read and enjoyed my humble little story. Thank you, thank you! I have a few more stories I’m writing and you all have encouraged me to keep working on them. Hopefully I’ll have more to post for you soon! Thank you again, a million times! 🥰

Warmth

GIF by myloveseokjin

Genre: Fluff

Pairing: Yoongi x Reader

Word Count: 0.65K

Author’s Note: This story can be read as a stand-alone, but also fits into a headcanon of mine (which I may write someday) where Yoongi meets you during season 4 of Bon Voyage.

It was a remarkably beautiful sight seeing the sun disappear behind the mountains, the snow-covered peaks sparkling in the fading rays. There was a feeling of sweeping, awe-inspiring majesty as you and your seven travel-mates stood on a precipice overlooking the whole valley, but it was hard to enjoy it when you felt so cold.

You hugged your shoulders, clenching your teeth to stop them from chattering. You mentally kicked yourself for not bringing your coat. Unfortunately, you had incorrectly assumed that it would stay warm after the sun set, but as soon as it started dipping low in the sky, the temperature began dropping, too.

You saw the boys around you finding their own coats and pulling them on. Hoseok was closest to you and noticed you weren’t doing the same.

“Aren’t you cold?” He asked, incredulous. “Don’t you want to put your coat on?”

You shook your head, feigning a smile.

“I didn’t bring my coat. But it’s okay, I’m not that cold.”

Hoseok’s mouth fell open.

“Wha-no, it’s freezing! You have to be cold!” He began shrugging his jacket off as he spoke. “Here, you can wear mine.”

“No Hobi, it’s okay, I’m fine, really. You don’t-“

But before you could finish objecting, pillowy down enveloped you, and you realized a coat was being draped over your shoulders. You turned your attention from Hoseok, still half-in, half-out of his own coat, to see that it was Yoongi who was wrapping his parka around you.

Your breath hitched, and you were sure your face betrayed your surprise as you accepted his coat and he stepped back, zipping up the collar of his fleece pullover.

“Thank you.” You smiled meekly at him, but he didn’t meet your gaze. He only shrugged, looking out over the horizon though he remained by your side.

With a small, knowing smile, Hoseok snuck away as you slipped your arms into the coat sleeves and pulled up the zipper, burrowing your frozen nose underneath the high collar. You inhaled deeply, savoring the scent of vanilla, soap, and coffee that was distinctly Yoongi’s. You then looked to him, admiring the way the golden light of the sunset reflected off his face as you contemplated his thoughtful, quiet gesture.

In the short time that you had known each other, Yoongi had always been amiable, and surprisingly easy to talk to, but this was by far the most obvious display of affection he had ever made towards you. You couldn’t help but wonder if he was starting to let you in, starting to let you get close to him.

You wanted more than anything to be close to Yoongi. As an ARMY, you’d had a crush on him for years; you had admitted to all of the guys the night you met that he was your bias. But the superficial attraction to him you felt before meeting him was now replaced by genuine endearment as he had proven to be even more kind, funny, interesting, and passionate in person. You only hoped he was beginning to see in you someone he could trust to care for and respect him like he deserved.

“Won’t you be cold now?” You asked him, feeling a little guilty as you noticed his breath was visible in the chilly air.

He finally turned his head to look at you, his eyes meeting yours in a way that made your cheeks flush.

“Seeing you warm makes me warm.” He explained simply, and though you noticed him shivering slightly, his voice was so sure and steady with sincerity that you could find no argument within yourself.

Almost without thinking, you reached for his hand, interlacing your fingers. He moved his gaze away again, his face expressionless as he observed the magnificent landscape before you, but he curled his fingers around your hand, holding on, and a soothing heat that had nothing to do with clothing warmed your entire body.

Happy Birthday, Min Yoongi! 💕

what a relief that you exist in this world

happy birthday to the brilliant songwriter, talented rapper and inspiring artist that you are. may your trials end in full bloom. ♥

Been watching season 4 of Bon Voyage, and as much fun as it would be to go adventuring with BTS, I’m left just wanting to go grocery shopping with them.