I Never See People Talk About Having Middle Support Needs. I Am Super Smart And Can Mask Really Well.

I never see people talk about having middle support needs. I am super smart and can mask really well. I can make friends easily and fend for myself for a few days. I can go places by myself and figure out when I need to leave. I can defend myself and make sure I'm not putting up with things I shouldn't. But I also can't shower bc of sensory issues and executive dysfunction and have regular meltdowns because I can't get comfortable enough to sleep. I have extreme difficulty talking about things that aren't special to me. I overstep constantly. I have trouble making my own food, I need it prepackaged or prepared. I can't do the dishes or the laundry unless I have an especially motivated day. I stay in bed for hours on end if I don't feel like I need to move. I can't drive or ride a bike. (TMI next) I can't tell when I need to use the bathroom and my executive dysfunction is bad enough anyway that I regularly end up peeing myself. But I'm still as independent as a 13 year old in a lot of other regards. It's really hard asking for "middle" support especially with things like this. I can function for the most part in public, but in private? Completely different.

Day 4 and 5 and 6, and i don’t even know anymore

Let’s get this shit started, shall we? Three days at the time, to procrastinate on recommended reading... But it will be worth it <3 Days 4-6 for the challenge of @myhoneststudyblr

Y’all know those stories about golden children that starting failing at uni? I am an overachiever who just realized that if I am going to survive till next year - there is no way I can overachieve if I want to also: a) have enough money to sustain myself b) not eat trash and live in a trash pile c) not die at 18 due to sleeping 3 hours a day.

On the bright side - I cleaned the bathroom. I picked up my gown from the campus (i am pretty sure I am studying at modern Hogwarts tho?) and I also got a job! I am excited. As much as it seems like something you say to please your boss - this is my favourite grocery shop ever. I could DIE for that shop. They let me buy like 4-5 days worth of food for 2 people for 14 pounds.

How long have you had a studyblr?

... it will be like, my 9th day now.

Have you ever done a challenge before?

I am not much of a challenge person. My brain just resonates with “well, you gotta”, so if I decide that I am getting up at 6 am every day, then I just... will. The thing is, life sneaks through the backdoor, so Tumblr challenges are far from my priority. They are fun though, I think I did like one or two when I was younger ;)

Why did you decide to do this challenge and what is your goal?

Honestly, I am here to empower all of the folks that also get up at 6 am, do their lectures, prepare dinner, do their seminars, clean the hourse, do their readings, attend bussinesses and then still find time to be their own person.

I wanna show to the world and to myself that it’s attainable. And that it doesn’t have to be a fight for perfection. I will probably slip more times that imaginable and that’s okay. I think we need such realistic outlook on studying and bettering yourself. It surely would have helped me a lot ;)

Also, I hope it will make me more consistent. I do study everyday, so we are off for a good start.

ok hanging out on reddit is actually a great idea. someone said they didnt like henry cavill as geralt because witchers move "10x faster than a human", but cavill only moves at human speeds, and someone replied they were "fascinated by what actor they would suggest instead" given the limitation that all actors are human.

fyi the point of fucking up your data patterns isnt to avoid suspicion. it’s to make EVERYONE suspicious. same logic as the bloc, pals.  protect your comrades, be suspicious. ESPECIALLY if you aren’t doing anything likely to get you arrested.

fuck google docs so fucking much

i've just lost hundreds of docs and pdfs and i'm beyond pissed right now

they're all permanently gone

after HOURS of organisation, i present to you, my google drive library