**essay Incoming**

**essay incoming**

Okai so I really realised that I am in just way to deep for Na, I love him so much more than I should. In all honesty, I was excited for the show mainly because of the cast and because Khaotung, Toptap, Mike, Neo, Ciize and Podd are all so amazing. But tbh I’m not sure if I would have kept watching it (or at least have looked forward to it so much every week) if it weren’t for Na’s character.

Honestly, I could go on about him for hours but I shall try not to. I think the reason I’m so in love with his character is because he reminds me so much of myself. He’s always so genuine and caring, with his love and his generosity and his bubbly, friendly persona, you can tell that he honestly does care deeply about the people he loves and even those he doesn’t even know. 

Na has never been taken fully seriously and is taken for granted by the others on occasion, as we learned this episode after he finally got Ton to realise the feelings for Chon he’d been burying because of ✨internalised homophobia✨ and he ends up sitting alone on the beach. Ai, Ni and Miriam acknowledge they never really considered Na’s emotions when they were planning to get Ton and Chon together and enlisted his help, they got too caught up in their plan that they almost forgot that Na’s feelings for Chon were very real and there was a 99% chance that he was going to end up disappointed and heartbroken because he would lose the possibility of Chon liking him back for real. Despite this, Na knew what he was setting himself up for and happily went along with the plan anyway. (I will point out here too that the other three cheer him up about this and end up having that cute little found family moment, which is amazing because it shows the development of proper friendship between the four of them)

And the reason he went along with this even though it meant losing any chance of Chon feelings for him in the end? Because the thing that mattered most to him was Chon’s happiness. Look, when he said that last night when I watched the first part premiere without subs I burst into tears. Because that’s just who he is, he’s so thoughtful and caring and when he loves he does it wholeheartedly and fully. The way Na said that too strangely reminded me of Frozen (yes as in the Disney film, I know) because in that there was a scene in which Olaf says, “true love is putting other’s needs before your own”, as well as that Nicolas Sparks quote that says, “true love means that you care for another person's happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face might be.” Na truly did love Chon and was willing to do anything to make sure he was happy, even if Chon’s happiness wasn’t with him.

This is evident again thoughout the series, whenever Na would make some comment or remark about Ton (notably that time Ton beat Neung’s ass and Pang was like, “omg so romantic and cool” and Na was all like, “tf you on about, that isn’t romantic that is straight up rude”) as well as this episode when he and Ton have a conversation and clear some things up. Na straight up tells Ton (his senior, btw who he barely knows and who he should therefore show proper respect for) that he better look after Chon properly and treat him right and love him like he deserves or he’ll take him off him himself. He doesn’t just care about his own feelings and love, but about making sure Chon is safe and happy and loved and (while he may not understand why) he does understand that the person who makes Chon happy is Ton, and Na is willing to accept that because it’s what Chon wants.

Aside from his dedication to and love for Chon, we’re shown that this isn’t just a show Na puts on in an attempt to win him over, his kindness and caring really is a part of his character, the most obvious example of this being in episode 7 when he offers his food and ice-cream to the kid and his mother out in the sun outside the restaurant. He did not do that to make himself look good in front of Chon, he did that because he saw people who would benefit from his help and his money and unselfishly took it upon himself to help a poor mother out and make a child’s day just a little bit better. He ends up saying to Chon afterwards, “to be kind to the needy is something the rich should do” (when I say eat the rich I mean every rich person except this angel)

The sad thing is (as happens a lot with characters born into money) Na’s learned that to others, his money is his most valuable asset. In the scene after the one when he buys the food for kid and mum, Chon makes a comment about how Na constantly shows off his money and brags about it and how it was kind of annoying and why no one wanted to be friends with him. This surprises Na a bit and he says that people always seem to like seeing how rich he is and all of his luxurious hotels and meals and whatever and how he always gets thousands of likes when he posts those things, however when he posts stuff promoting donating to charity or helping children in need (things that actually matter to him, unlike the money) he gets not even a hundred likes. This is why he doesn’t seem to have a problem throwing his money around in front of others- because in his experience, that’s the only way he can get people to like him and gain friendship (one of the things he wants most in the world) and he doesn’t know any better. But yea Na deserves all the love and the friendship and the happiness in the world, which is why I’m really glad he’s a part of this amazing, supportive found family, and istg if he doesn’t get a happy ending and properly appreciated by the rest of the cast I will throw hands (just like I did in my mind when Ton had the audacity to punch in the face this ep, I was fuming and had to just take a minute to calm myself before I kept watching)

So yea, that was my essay about why I love Na and why I would get him the world if he asked for it and why everyone just needs to take a second to appreciate how awesome he is.

Also can I just mention the fingerguns??? The most sweet and wholesome thing, I always end up fingergunning back at him, anyways Na bestest boy, I would die for him.

Also also he is canonically pansexual!!! I mean of course he is, I expected nothing else.

color rush is basically *shot of their hands* *sexually charged looks* *yeon woo faints* *another shot of their hands* *yearning* *more sexually charged looks* *one more shot of their hands* *yeon woo fa

Can: Type, can I eat on the couch? Type: sure as long as you are caref- Can: I spilled my drink. Type: of course. 

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Can: *crawls into Tin’s bed at 2 in the morning*

Tin: what are you doing in my bed?

Can: material possessions are the bane of mankind, technically this bed does not belong to you in the greater sense of-

Tin: you were scared of the thunder, right?

Can: *tearing up* it sounds like an evil garbage disposal

Tin: *sighing fondly* you can sleep here.

okay I’m v curious about this so fanfic writers reblog and put in the tags whether you title your fic before or after you write it