tiredbaby29 - Bored Poet
tiredbaby29
Bored Poet

one writes when one can no longer handle the voices in their head demanding to be heard

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tiredbaby29
9 months ago

it should be illegal to take a nap and still have a headache when you wake up. like no i shut it off and back on again why are you still here

tiredbaby29
10 months ago

I actually wish I was more surprised...

I Actually Wish I Was More Surprised...
tiredbaby29
1 year ago

i cant believe i found it

Are fedoras really that bad?

Are Fedoras Really That Bad?
Are Fedoras Really That Bad?
Are Fedoras Really That Bad?
Are Fedoras Really That Bad?
Are Fedoras Really That Bad?

YES YES THEY ARE

tiredbaby29
2 years ago
The Problem With

The problem with

I love you

Is that I meant it

...but you never did

tiredbaby29
4 years ago
tiredbaby29 - Bored Poet

i have so many issues and they won’t stop adding


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tiredbaby29
4 years ago
Listen Close/ Little Enby/ The World Isn't Fair/ The World Isn't Kind/ But You Keep On Smiling/ Let Your

listen close/ little enby/ the world isn't fair/ the world isn't kind/ but you keep on smiling/ let your light shine


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tiredbaby29
4 years ago

what is this feeling...

subtle tremors shake from the marrow in bones

skin prickles in irritation to feelings unknown

small voices cry out in the midst of earth-shattering silence

wind brushes past parted lips

desperate tongue races to relieve the ache from the trembling

fingernails catch on sweaty palms

crimson drops peak on paling flesh

longing to be a cold corpse

flesh preserved in a wooden box

soft soil seeping through cracks

dressed in pale blue

holding the black rose

prepared for the eternal date

no more waiting

death waits with open arms

fate smiles from his side

leading lost souls to an eternity unimaginable


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tiredbaby29
4 years ago

Valentine’s Day Blues

Like most

Little girls

I had daydreams

Filled with 

White roses

And chocolates

Small stolen kisses

And midnight rambling

As the credits roll

Movie long forgotten

As we snuggle closer

On a couch

That’s a little too

Small

Why did love

Have to be so cruel

I wanted

Happily ever after

I didn’t need

A prince charming

No 

Damsel in distress

Wasn’t the role for me

I can slay

My own dragons

Extinguish

The hellfire

That threatens my heart

But the emptiness

A simple void

Beautifully dark abyss

Where love

Is supposed to reside

In my person

A body

With a soul

But no heart

Is no better

Than a walking corpse

Playing in fields

Of rotting flesh

Dead flies

Buzz in my ears

As I whisper lies

To myself 

Like always

Trying to comfort

The beast within

Claws scratch

At scarred skin

Vibrant rubies

Exposed on charred meat

Crystals of pure agony

Stain hollowed features

Crisp ivory flashes

Under dim moonlight

The canopy above

Blocking view

Of the heavens

Dancing in cerulean flames

Licking at my pelt

As bones creak

Under the pressure

Of shockwaves and despair

Isolation is a beauty

Long snow hair

Trailed behind her

Weaved with flowers

Eternal blooms

Radiating life

Well death

Wilted petals

Sucked dry

As the demon herself

Walks the earth

Grass withers

Skies darken

Clouds heavy

With unspoken trauma

Fires spark

Engulfing entire trees

Ancient and mighty

Reduced to ashes

In mere moments

Elegance glazes 

Her tribulate eyes

Where earth and heaven meets

Pain will rise

Cruel reality

Slips from her lips

Poison to my weakened heart 

Such a sweet melody

That she sings

Just for me

Misery dressed lullaby

Love dressed lust

Hope dressed death

I cry out

Broken howls

At the smirking satellite

That watches me

The world burns around me

Yet the room 

I lay

Is barren

Reflecting my heart

Next episode

Flashes on the screen

As tissues 

Lay scattered

On a floor

That seems so far

Yet close 

My grave calls me

The pain in my cries

Bittersweet

A choked song

Escapes my lips

Dear love

Why must you be so cruel

I didn’t mean

To be so damaged

I tried

I will still try

Please 

Give me 

Another chance

Nothing more

Than a ghost

Wrapped in life

Devoid of 

Happy Valentine


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tiredbaby29
4 years ago

Miss Sun

I miss the sun

She has ran away

Her distant rays

No longer

Kiss my skin

She was here

Shining down

When kids would play

Without me

And now

I’m cold

Feeling dread

Seep through my bones

Nude

Every scar visible

Covered in fresh blood

The only heat

My frozen soul

Can feel

Subtle whispers

Turned into uproars

Silence

Vacant rooms

For their hate

Rent free

Inside my head

Paling features

Dull and bland

Lost expressions

Feelings none

Stay

I’m afraid

They wounded

The clueless lover

A constant fighter

Desperate cries

Wrack my body

As I shiver

As I shake

The ones

Who are family

Mother and father

Two fools

That forget about their kid

Sun

Why did you leave

We had something

Your light

My darkness

We balanced each other out

But the bitter truth

I am nothing

Without you

You are everything

Without me

Had I lost purpose

Caramel skin

Now rotting flesh

Disposed prison

My heart 

Still bound

To the inside 

Of a bottomless pit

Filled with fear

Longing for escape

Miss Sun

I still need you


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tiredbaby29
4 years ago

Mister Moon

I miss the moon

He has been

Hiding from me

And I miss

My old friend

He was there

Watching over me

When the demons

Came out to play

And now

I’m afraid

Shivers race

Down my chilled spine

Exposed

Bare skin

Covered crimson

Warmth enveloped

Broken heart

To the voices

That no longer

Stay quiet

Leave me alone

There is no room

For your hatred

Can you not see

That my own

Fuels my bitter existence 

One by one

All those

That I love

Leave

He stole my sanity

She stole my soul

A hollow cry

Escapes my desert throat

Raspy cries

Muffled by soaked pillows

The vibrant night

Outside my window

Remains ignorant

To my suffering

But why

Tell me why

Does it still hurt

Moon

Why did you go too

You and me

We had an understanding

Made a promise

As the silence threatened

To decimate my body

You told me

I wasn’t alone

Wiped away 

Crystal tears

That stained 

Rosy cheeks

Guess I was destined

To immerse myself

In excruciating isolation

Before quietly wilting

Like the decaying rose

Sprouted new poppies

But it is too late

To be saved

Mister Moon

I still love you


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tiredbaby29
4 years ago
We Hold On To The Memories Of You And Me Dancing In Open Fields Overflowing With Daisies And Roses. We

We hold on to the memories of you and me dancing in open fields overflowing with daisies and roses. We hold on for the fear of losing our childhood innocence. We play our parts in a broken society that forces kids to grow up too fast. We are one in the same; two sides of the same coin. I am the sun and you are the moon but together we make the world go around.

~K. Sin


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tiredbaby29
4 years ago

Goodbye

I always try my hardest To see you smile That special sunshine smile That only you can do I hold my breath As I go to great lengths For your melodious laughter To fill the room Even if it means Embarrassing myself I would do anything For you I try To be okay Put on My fake face And pretend That my world Isn't crashing down Around me Broken shards Of a discarded heart Embedded in a bitter soul Bleak and hopeless Crimson waves Washing away My sins Crystal tears Making their way Down rosy features As a hollow cry Is never heard By bystanders Unknowingly witnessing The destruction Of the once Radiant child Pure and blissful Beaten down By words Pushed away By loved ones Forgotten completely By friends There is no love Left in the void Caged inside A bony prison Steady beating Pounding skull Wasted space No more A soft smile Graces my features As I close my eyes For the last time K. Sin


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tiredbaby29
4 years ago

Our Time

Ky: *looks out over the city* This is our kingdom

Alex: *smiles* Hell yes

Ky: We will bring chaos

Alex: *pouts* But snack time though...

Ky: *sighs* After snack time...


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tiredbaby29
4 years ago

Love’s Game

Trusting someone

To stay

The idea that they

Have the simple human decency 

To at least wave

Before disappearing

Into the skyline

The blinding sun

A mask

For the thieves

That escape

From love’s grasp once more

Heartbreakers and heartbroken alike

Wait in distress

As they stare

Into the vast sky

Shimmering stars

Highlighting the moon’s 

Crooked smile

Gasping for air

The ethereal beauty

Of the night oasis

Crystalline stained rose cheeks

Flushed from exhaustion

Of chasing after a dream

That they will never capture

Unrealistic hopes crushed

By reality’s cruel game

Playing with the hearts

Of those who abandon

And who have been abandoned

Lovers are no more fools

Then the lonely cries of the isolated soul

A. Simone


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tiredbaby29
4 years ago

Foolish Lover

Thinking

Times were ok

But it's not

How longing for you

The simplest of conversations

Have rendered the mind immobile

Staring at the ceiling

Of a room

Dimly lit

By the faded light

As it passes

From the tv screen 

To pale walls

Watching

As a heart breaks 

It's always

Painful

Forcing down

These damned crystalline tears

Streaming down rosy cheeks

Flushed features accented 

By choked sobs

Desperate cries

Muffled by drenched pillows

The moon tries

To shine light

Through tight-lipped blinds

But it's muted 

Constantly silenced 

As the body

Collapses into itself

The heart shatters 

And the soul grows bland

But that heart

Belonging to a fool

Still chasing love

Hoping one day

That maybe

Love will be kind

And the heart can rest

Arms wrapped around a fool

Since the fool

Has found home

In the arms of their lover

A. Simone


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tiredbaby29
4 years ago

Feelings??

Tell me

Goddamnit 

Get up and answer

These questions

That decided

To lay waste to my mind

Because 

My heart got tired

Of speeding up

Slowly racing

Every heart wrenching moment

Wasted

On another person 

Who saw me 

As nothing more

Than a stepping stone

I tried

For fuck's sake

I gave my all

And for what

What did I get in return

Besides overlapping scars

Broken trust 

And my personal favorite

Shattered desire

I was thrown 

Into a spiraling landslide

Of overwhelming emotions

All of which

I couldn't understand

I don't want

To love you

Since you clearly

Don't know how

To love 

And I'm not

I'm not even mad

I hate it 

This forgiveness

Floods from the depths

Of my despair

As if the scars

And confusion

You caused

Never happened

I look up

At my ceiling

As the cars

Rush by

Tires screech

As if they have 

Somewhere to be

In the middle of the night

Or maybe

They are running

Like I am

From the truth

And the street lights

Numbingly illuminate

My bedroom

Through cracked blinds

Allowing the muddled hues

To paint my walls

I wanted

To be ok

Claim to be unbothered

As if you

Had no hold on me

All of my confidence

That has been slowly dwindling

Flailing embers

Dancing further

From hell’s flame

Suddenly vanishes

And I hear it

The cries

My damn cries

These choked out sobs

Being muffled

By pillowcases

Soaked in my desperation 

For a feeling of acceptance

As my body

Curls into itself

Trying to hide

From the voices

That scream

Inside my own head

Tell me

You

You

You

You didn't mean it right

That everything

We went through

Holds no value

In your heart

And I was never

Even a glimmer overlooked

In your manufactured world

Carefully crafted

To benefit you

And you alone

Please

I don't want

Empty promises

Made

By a broken soul

I don't care

If you don't like

Certain parts of me

And desire change

I will not

Destroy the few pieces

Of my identity

To force myself

Into the mold

Of your lover

When I clearly

Am not the one

When your issues

Become greater than mine

When all you see

Is what I 

Can do 

For you

Then don't bother me

I'm going to leave

Watch as my back

Fades into the distance

The shackles

You placed around me

Clank against

The floor

I don't have the time

The patience

The heart 

To deal with this

I bled myself out

And the hollow feeling

That resides in my chest

As I search

For the steady beat

Of my dismantled heart

Inside its bony cage

A soul

Drowning in blood

Beautiful crimson waves

Choking it out

Darkened by frostbite

Of a frozen world

Each cold shoulder 

Feeling as if

A refreshing summer breeze

Is warming me up

Ever so slightly

As I float

In nothingness

My world 

Has faded out

Drained of all color

No longer 

Am I able 

To enjoy the beauty

Of a sunrise

Or dawdle in the peace

Of a sunset

I reach out 

Palm facing hell

As fingertips poke

At the heavens

As if trying

To remind myself

That I am still 

Among the living

But without love

Not from myself

Not from others

Is this really 

What it means

To be alive

Or am I merely existing

Pointlessly exhausting myself

Trying to forge a path

And call it my own 

Before I close my eyes

And rest

Never to be bothered 

Ever again

A. Simone


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tiredbaby29
4 years ago
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tiredbaby29
4 years ago

Love

It’s so hard to love someone

When you don’t even know

How to love yourself

Each passing moment

You daydream

Of falling off bridges

Nose dives off skyscrapers

Eternal plunges into the abyss

Hoping that one day

The voices

Will be quiet

You keep screaming and screaming

But no one hears

Each shallow breath

More suffocating

Than the last

I’m trying my best

To understand

Where I went wrong

Because clearly

I hurt love

So bad

That it chooses to abandon

My blatant cry

As darkness washes over me

Cleansing my sins

In waves of ruby rose

Stained glass

Obscuring the view

Of my dismantled body

As it lays

Before the alter

Praying to gods

That don’t bother

With the likes of me

I’m trying hard

To run away

From these frantic feelings

That keep me fleeing

From a world

Of the unknown

I fall in love so easily

But I fall out

Just as quick

It fluctuates with the phases

Of my snow moon

Waxing and waning

Right before my eyes

My own heart

Shattered glass

Embedded in my soul

Stained from my past encounters

With each passing second

I lose a piece of me

My mind

Slowly deteriorating

As the sun sets

On yet another day

Full of silent suffering

Unexplainable anguish

This undeniable yearning

To be held

Dressed down

With the fear

Of being touched

My sins are great

And now I know

Love is no match

For my desperation

The tears I cry

Are those of a whore

Whose body

Finally lost its appeal

Nobody listens

To the vacant moans

Hollowed out

In the vast church cellar

As I face my demons

With a gleaming smile

Painful lust

Ingrained in my eyes

As I remember

That I

Have no use

Good only for my body

Which isn’t even ideal

No relationship

For bitter souls

I’m growing tired

Of this pointless fight

It isn’t relenting

Any time soon

And I’m sleepy

Let me lay

In my pink coffin

Covered in white roses

Stained red

With my blood

And darkened

By my soul

As it escapes my body


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tiredbaby29
4 years ago
How Does One Get A Girlfriend When Youre An Absolute Potato

How does one get a girlfriend when you’re an absolute potato


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tiredbaby29
4 years ago

Why do I write

When the world around me

Weeps at the sound

Of my aching heart

It has been broken

Time after time

Never fully healing

This is my suffering

Despair I choose

Tears welt in eyes

That no longer see

Desperate cries

Echo in hollow rooms

As I break down

Because of you

Again

A. Simone


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tiredbaby29
4 years ago
Honestly A Mood

Honestly a mood


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