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Thisisnotangel

because I'm not that serious

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Why I'm Still Here? What's The Reason? I'm 22 Years Old With Nothing To Lose.

Why I'm still here? What's the reason? I'm 22 years old with nothing to lose.

I don't have friends, I don't stand my family, the only speck of light in my life is gone and I'm supposed to still keep fighting? What bullshit is that?

Don't get me wrong, sometimes life it's too beautiful to just give up, but, I mean, why me? What did I do to deserve all of this? I don't think I'm bad person, I think I loved and loved deeply, I think all I did was loving and in return I get this? WHAT?! All I have is this room?

Nah, it's not fair and I don't want to become the villain. I don't want to change for the worst, but I don't even want to be this.

This stupid piece of skin, this shattered mind that is in constant pain. I really don't.

I don't, I'm just a girl, I'm just scared. I'm just me and it hurt if I think it's not enough.

Please, I'm serious, don't let me drown, please

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1 year ago

I feel this

Possessiveness doesn’t always have to be a rough touch to show ownership. It can be light and subtle as ever; a hand on the lower back, a lax arm around the waist, being so familiar with their body like being familiar with their coffee order - splash of milk no sugar- fingers resting just below the spot where you know their birth marks, scars or tattoos lay, gently brushing over clothed skin carefully avoiding the spots where you know they’re ticklish and watching the way they lean into your embrace with a smile on their face.

Possessiveness doesn’t always have to be crashing your lips onto theirs in front of someone who is trying to flirt with them. It can be an indirect kiss- taking a drag from their cigarette, and tasting the sickly sweet lip balm they always wear on the tobacco stick - the cigarette smoothly shifting from their fingers onto yours like this little habit of yours had been ingrained into their bones, or drinking from their drinks - specifically from the one a stranger had bought for them, the sudden appearance of your hand onto their beer glass barley phasing them as they continue on with the conversation they are having with the stranger- your lips resting just on the place where theirs have been, spots still wet from when they had taken a sip, while flashing a smile at the strangers over the rim , you and the strangers now both aware that you’re the only who knows how those lips feel.

Possessiveness doesn’t always have to be growling “mine” into their ear. It can be something simple as causally mentioning their name in conversations with family and friends, so much so even strangers know them through the stories you’ve told them, maybe even adding a little my in front of their name, not so much in a possessive tone but rather with a certain familiarity and fondness when talking about the socks they tend to leave scattered around the apartment or using the endearment when talking to your significant other, looking at their glittery eyes and big smile as you hand them a gift they’ve wanted for a long time, because of course you know what to get for your love, right?

2 years ago

I'll love them to death

I'll Love Them To Death
I'll Love Them To Death
I'll Love Them To Death

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1 year ago

I hate writing advices.

I'm writing my first book. It will be full of errors and plot gaps. It won't be anything special or unique. I will probably -subconsciously- take words from other books and quote other people.

So I don't need to be told how mediocre my book will be. I know it, and I like it anyway. Because it will be MY book.

Keep your advices to yourself. Thanxxx


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2 years ago

Se decidessi di pubblicare qualcosa in italiano mi chiedo in quanti lo leggerebbero


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