Despite The Fact That I Have Not Finish Production On The First Episode, The Series Might Have To Go

Despite the fact that I have not finish production on the first episode, the series might have to go on a very short hiatus.

The thing about this is that to create this series I was using a laptop given to me by my school. The thing is though I'm graduating on the 12th so I had to turn it in today. Now I have no computer to work on this project. So when it comes to art related to this project and the actual production of this project it will have to go on hiatus for a very short while.

Summer job lined up in place for me. So if everything goes smoothly hopefully you'll only take 2 weeks to get my check, buy a new computer, and continue production on this series. Though life can be unpredictable so I don't really know.

But just because I don't have a computer does not mean I'm not going to continue to work on this project. It just means for a while I'll have to work with notebooks instead of Google docs and I'll have to be using pen and paper instead of digital art. I don't know if any of this will be uploaded unless it's something really big I want to share. Mainly will be concept art for later on episodes since I've already got episode 1 through 3's scripts are already written out and I'm halfway through production of the first episode.

I don't know if I have a lot of fans of the series like at all but I want to apologize to those who are interested that I had to take a hiatus before I could even get the first official episode. Again hopefully this will be very short and just be a minor little bump in the production.

Thank you very much for your understanding. When production is started again I'll be more than happy to update those who are interested.

If you're seeing this please repost or share it with someone who can help. I have been trying to get the attention of @staff and @support for a bit now about ads and reporting ads. See if they can make a system where you can report ads or at least have people monitor the first before being published on the platform. As you can see from above, both of these pictures being taken on to separate days months between, there have been companies who are running very ableistic ads. Ads targeted against autistic people. As someone who is nerodivergent this both concerns me and pisses me off. I don't know how to get the attention of any moderator or staff that can help with this problem I'm trying to get it to as many people as I can so that I can somehow find a way to fix this. Cuz if I see one more of these ads I might just go crazy. Well crazier than people already think I am, you know not being neurotypically. It makes me really mad cuz this website is known for being diverse but then host ads like this. Maybe I was a crazy one for thinking that a big app like this would actually be better than something like Twitter but who knows. Now if you'll excuse me I'm going to go see if the team that belongs to Tumblr gives any money to autism speaks.

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Doll patterns

A playlist for those who also want to make the sans doll. The jacket had no pattern, It was something I made. So, eventually, I'll figure out how to write an instructional pattern for it and put it up here.

Sneak peek at episode 1!!

Here are some of the main characters for the series, not all but some.

I made an in-universe blog of my ARG.

I've been up for hours. I have always had the sensory issues but it wasn't until I got out of my dad's abusive house that they really hit me and now I'm up right now literally coughing up loogies that are pink from blood and fighting the urge to literally claw my skin off. It sounds like some edgy thing some kid would have put here on Tumblr in 2008. I hate everything I want to die it sucks so fucking bad. I clean and clean and clean off my bed before laying on it I make my bed I make sure everything is to a tee. And no matter how many fucking time to do with the bed still has something on it it could be as clean as marble and it's still feels like I'm laying in the fucking desert. Always starts off feeling like I'm laying on Sand then it gets itchy to the point that it's unbearable and I just want to claw my skin off and it hurts it stops being itchy and just straight up hurts. I am so tired and I'm just crying Non-Stop and I can't even stop myself from crying and it sucks. I'm tired I'm always you never feeling comfortable in my own skin in a literal way not metaphorical not oh I look in the mirror and I'm ugly literally feeling uncomfortable in my skin I want to be skin I would pay for someone to find a way to live without skin. This is literal agony and it's always hits me when I'm vulnerable. It never hits me in the middle of the day when I'm just chilling relaxing it's always when I'm trying to go to sleep or do something important it's always in the middle of a test or some other bull like that. It's always there I don't know what I did I'm not a good person I know I haven't taken it. And no matter how much I look stuff up we can't find any way to fix this I don't have money to buy a weighted blanket. And my next therapy appointment in this until Wednesday. Sometimes I think if I didn't make a promise that I made my mom I probably be dead. I just said melatonin and I'm hoping that I've been to just get worn out from crying and fall asleep. But it sucks that I even have to do that I want to be a normal person so waiting to sit on my bed and go to sleep. No crying no tantrum no painful itching sensation no need to literally sit as still as possible just hope that it can fall asleep without literally crying so hard that I can't speak anymore.

I just want to be "normal" person i feel bad I don't want to be neurodivergent. I want to be able to do things normally without my brain trying to punish me. This is like living hell. And it's so much worse cuz I never never the problem when I'm like distracted throughout the day I sit on the same bed all day and watch TV and do other things I work on my bed because it's the only thing I have and there's no problem the second that I actually got to go to sleep it's like oh no now your bed is made out of needles and sand and bugs. If I didn't promise my mom I wouldn't kill myself I probably do that right now. I hate everything I hate this I'm going to sleep so badly I'm literally writing this while crying and so tired that I could fall asleep but my body won't let me I'm so so tired this isn't fair.

Please please please please please please if anyone knows anything that can help please tell me I am literally having panic attacks and I can't do this. I am on the verge of just scratching all my skin off Jesus Christ and I don't even know why my brain would act like this why am I so faulty that my brain actively makes my life worse what is the possible reason that my brain would act like this