I've Been Lurking In Fandom (I'm @litg-lover) For A While But I Thought I'd Send Around Some Love:

I've been lurking in fandom (I'm @litg-lover) for a while but I thought I'd send around some love:

This Momentary Blue was the highlight of my week when you posted it - just the whole Felix/Kassam pairing was perfect, and regardless of my views of Felix, it took those issues and made them make sense, so regardless of it being AU, thank you for that.

(also adore The Sun In My Eyes but This Momentary Blue is a favourite, sorry)

Ah, thank you so much, you don't know what that means to me! I worked on This Momentary Blue much longer than I did any of my other one shots. I spent well over a month brainstorming before I even started writing. I am so proud of it. Sadly most of my one shots tend to get nothing but crickets, at least compared to my longfic, so I've been kind of bummed that I got so little feedback on it.

I'm beyond happy that it's your favorite. It's one of my favorite things I've ever written, too.

Thank you, Amy!

God I miss the romance. The sweet tender moments that felt sincere. The sexy sex that was actually sexy. Despite the infuriating glitches and crashes and frustrations that came with S2 (let us never forget the post-Casa amnesia), it was still a season that gave us complex and interesting friendships as well as a good dose of self-esteem and fun, as we were chased by loads of hot people who were sincere in wanting us. And even when they were messy and made wrong choices, it still felt like they liked you.

Bobby McKenzie: 10/10 would die for him. S5 LI's: 1/10* would pay to see them dead.

*the 1 was for Lulu. Everyone else was a big ol' ZERO.

Also, just an aside, but like how great was it that there were canon kinks in S2? We know that Lucas likes it when you take control in bed. We know that Bobby would die happily of suffocation as long as it happened with MC sitting on his face. We know Noah liked his thighs tickled and Rahim likes to be in control. In S5 I know that... um... uh... well there's... Alfie likes... kissing? Suresh likes... vaguely adventurous sex maybe? Dana likes... being there? And Finn likes it in the shower (whoa slow down with the kinks there, Firecrotch Jesus).

I love him so much. So much.

"Get tired of my “baggage”? Well, hit the fucking gym, Alfie, if you can’t carry it, I don’t care."

YASSSSSSS. AND SERIOUSLY. EFF HIM. ALSO HE STILL NEVER APOLOGIZED FOR THE KISS. BECAUSE HE STILL THINKS YOU FUCKED AROUND WITH SURESH EVEN IF YOU DIDN'T.

Spoilers! (Sorry!)

“I told Finn I was done with you”

“It was nice to have Meera put all her eggs in my basket”

nghaaAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

And why exactly were you done with me, Alfie? What was it that I did that made you so appalled by me? Give a friendly hug to Suresh as we were trying to resolve our “baggage”? Not hearing me out and kissing Kat’s face off behind my back as some petty revenge? For your information, Alfie, I also put all my eggs in your basket! And not once - not even once was I disloyal to you! And you? What did you do? Get tired of my “baggage”? Well, hit the fucking gym, Alfie, if you can’t carry it, I don’t care. You believe Kat of all people about a kiss that didn’t happen and go ahead and cheat? And then you have the AUDACITY to even CONSIDER that I might want to be with you after Meera is dumped. You know who’s done with you? This girl! Me! I am! Fuck you, Alfie. Fuck. You.

So today's eps happened.

Welp. My thoughts are all over the place. Enjoy.

No bits. Not even a kiss. Fuck everything. Also I had to sit through not one but two Finn love confessions. I skipped all the previous ones so I can only imagine how tedious it is for those who have basically seen this same scene with him four times now. Also, I was nice to Gabi while she sat there and daydreamed about how things might play out with Suresh if I'm the one dumped. GABI IS A DICKHEAD.

AND WHY DIDN'T I GET ONE ON ONE TIME WITH MY BELOVED LULU? WHY DO YOU HATE US, FUSEBOX? AND NO SHOWER SEX? I WAS PROMISED SHOWER SEX.

Onto the positives (sort of). We got to tell off Meera, Nicolas, and Suresh. I told Suresh I'd never forgive him and want no connection with him ever and he said, "It doesn't get any clearer than that." Yep. And I only had to say it half a dozen times for it to become crystal.

Was Alfie cold for what he did to Meera? Yes. Was it hilarious? Also yes. I legit laughed out loud when he went, "Errrrr." GOLD.

I will say for me, this was one of the most fun eps of the season because Nicolas was hysterically funny to me. When he chastised Kat for believing the lies he spread I almost choked to death on my laugh snort. Though it was a little unsatisfying how happy he was to leave. He's all STICK WITH MY PLAN. Sir, your plan didn't work. You're leaving. You suck and you should feel bad about it.

Anyway, I liked it when Kat said this:

Because all I could hear in my head was this 😂😂😂

God I love that movie.

Ahem. Back to complaining. Could we not with Meera's prolonged goodbye scenes and even longer post dumping scenes where everyone kisses her ass for being so great? Soldiers going off to fight a winless war get less heartfelt, tearful farewells than this salty bitch. For as long as I had to sit through her bullshit (twice) I want the same length of time dedicated to everyone telling MC how wonderful she is and apologizing PROFUSELY, groveling really, for ever doubting her awesomeness. "Sorrrrrry," with abashed face ain't cutting it.

Oh also, when Meera found out she was leaving and Dana asked me what I thought, I chose to say that it changed nothing. Her being there or not didn't make any difference to me. And Dana had the nerve...

Yes. Yes I am. Meera has been nasty to me when I literally did nothing to deserve it. I was nice to her. I told Alfie to choose her. Alfie knows I'm not into him and I haven't spoken to him privately once since he came back with her. I've done everything to get out of their way and in return I was treated like trash by her and no one stood up for me. But now I'm supposed to pretend to be sad that Meera won't be around to insult me or call me a liar or a backstabber? Dana, you can fucking take a long walk off a short pier.

THE GALL. I told everyone that I forgive nothing. I don't forgive Meera. I don't forgive Suresh. I don't forgive Nicolas. I don't forgive any of you dicks. I AM PETTY AND ANGRY. I meant to do a self-righteous, above-it-all angel MC route, but I'm too mad 😂 I told off Meera more than once and it was delightful.

Overall, it was a little emotionally satisfying, but the fun stuff was overshadowed by yet another episode of everyone licking Meera's booty hole. Like when did she make this miracle transformation they're going on about? It seems more like she was always a bitch and she just didn't hide it on her return. We didn't get enough character development from anyone to see an actual transformation.

Oh well.

I will say, these eps inspired a fic idea. One that isn't about Suresh getting kicked in the balls, I mean. I have three of those going already. No, this is something else. I want to finish TSIME first, but I think I'm cooking up something special for S5. Mwhahahahahaaaaa.

I should probably put a read more break somewhere in this, because it's super long, but I'm cramping and don't know where to put it. Let's blame Meera.

Holy fuck, I chose Lulu and then dug out Suresh like three or four times as he was booted from the show. It was so fucking satisfying, I don't even care to finish the season. If I can't have actual romance, I'll take spite, thanks.

the thing about carrying tension in your jaw is that once you've started it's really fucking hard to stop