Dear Crush,

Dear crush,

I think I might finally understand my attachment to you. I don’t want to say much in case I am wrong. But it would make so much sense. It might not make things easier. But at least I would understand why this is happening.

I’m trying so hard to make everyone else feel happy but I can’t feel it for myself. I try so hard to try and prevent people from feeling the pain and sadness I do but no one does the same for me it feels like. I only have one or two friends and they care about me but I can’t expect them to drop everything and text me bc I’m sad about whatever at the time. Idk

Was I really that easy to forget?

Do you ever feel yourself spiraling? Falling into that scary, dark, lonely hole? But you know there’s nothing you can do except let the feelings flow and try to think it through? But also you know that nothing really helps until it passes so you feel helpless?

Dear crush,

I did it. I blocked you. I sent you the letter first and you didn’t give me a response. That’s ok. I’m a little sad but no tears yet. I feel good that I did it. I know it’s for the best. I just feel like there’s a hole now, that was where you filled my heart and became my safe place. But it’ll heal. I deserve good things.

I wish I meant something to you