If One Were To Ask HIM, He'd Agree That Rizz Sounds Negative. Therefore, He Hopes Ren Has All Of It.

if one were to ask HIM, he'd agree that rizz sounds negative. therefore, he hopes ren has all of it.

so i woke up from a nap with an epiphany about kami, and some lasting results--

so kaminari never went through irminsul, right? the pain he suffers from trying to find redemption isn't just emotional, but physical too. BECAUSE he never went through and erased himself, he still has all the marks on his back from being attached to the mecha. though, i imagine that with nahida's help and help from some of the others in sumeru, those marks are cleaned up as best as possible with surgeries done to keep them closed up.

but regardless, kaminari still feels the constant pain on his back from them. should someone put their hands on his back, they could feel the tiniest little ridges from where the openings were inserted, and kaminari would wince at each touch from anyone.

he regrets it so much. kaminari hates the reminders that are permanently on his back, unable to ever go away in this lifetime. but at the same time, they're also a reminder of how much he loathes dottore and what he almost went through in order to get them in the first place! he's aware it was mostly self induced, but kaminari's anger and rage and quest for redemption and vengeance are all inside those little circles on his back. without them, he'd certainly lose his way a second time, he's sure of it.

I've talked about his wrist guard once a few months ago, but I'm having a thought now.

In game, Chongyun mostly uses his right hand with his claymore, barely using his left. I talked about how he sustained an injury, and it's the reason Chongyun wears one in the first place, but now I want to elaborate.

I see Chongyun as ambidextrous. So Chognyun could theoretically use both hands, though for awhile he defaulted to using his left hand for a majority of things. This caused great strain on their wrist, and they've had to start wearing a guard to prevent even more injury.

Unfortunately, Chongyun's wrist never recovered properly, even after resting it, so Chongyun wears the guard when out fighting/training. When they're taking a break or not having to fight, the guard comes off and is replaced with bandages.

There are times when pain will flair up and Chongyun can't do much of anything, which is part of why he isn't supposed to overwork himself, but he still tries anyway.

The same strain is starting to happen to their other wrist, but Chongyun is being more vigilant about it and keeping bandages on for that extra bit of support.

Claymores are heavy, and with how much Chongyun carries them one handed, it's no surprise that Chongyun's injuring himself.

it's LUCKY that chongyun was nearby when the possession had happened. they are used to being called whenever an incident occurs, but chongyun had always helped strangers, distant acquaintances at best. never anyone they have a personal relationship, or someone chongyun might even consider a friend.

so to be called this time had chongyun getting straight to business, mentally preparing their talismans and even weapon, preparing for a long battle. chongyun almost collapsed in fear upon realizing the person they needed to assist this time was GAMING.

there hadn't been any time to let emotions show. there hadn't even been a need to lift a blade against the host body. because as soon as chongyun arrived, the demon had all but fled, though chongyun had managed to throw down at least one attack, a circle of chilled air to surround gaming and keep him still. mostly still.

it seems as though gaming is coming back, so chongyun crouches down, ignoring the panicked murmurs from the others. it had been yet another disappointing experience, and chongyun feels ill over it this time. he doesn't like seeing people lose their sense of self in general, he likes it even less when it's someone he has a fondness for. he watches as gaming struggles to regain his senses, so chongyun balances his claymore over his knees, resting his elbows upon it.

"he's fine," chongyun finally responds. "give him room to breathe." they wave their hand, removing the circle of cold, trusting that whever the demon is now, it's not within gaming. "also no, he isn't going to die, calm down."

their gaze remains focused on the lion dancer. gaze probably more hardened than usual, though it's to hide how worried chongyun feels.

"gaming, can you hear me?" they finally ask. "if you can hear me, give me a thumbs up." it would be just like gaming to do something like that, what with how laid back and jovial he is on a good day.

@oficeandwind || Starter Call

Everything had gone so quickly that the world felt like a blur to Gaming. One moment, he’d been fighting off a bunch of Treasure Hoarders, trying to keep the relics that he’d been tasked to escort safe from their greedy hands, and the next–

The next, he’d felt as if something had wrapped around him, making it so he couldn’t see, hear, or breathe. His body felt as if he’d been encased in ice, both numbing and painful as he floated in what seemed to otherwise be a suffocating nothingness. It didn’t matter how he might try to fight against whatever had a hold over him, for each time he did, it was as if that frigid grip on him tightened further, threatening to strangle him completely. Still, Gaming knew that he needed to get free, needed to escape whatever was happening - he didn’t know what this was, but it was clearly nothing good.

And then, suddenly, it was gone, with everything returning at once. Sight, sounds, sensation, and most importantly, the ability to suck oxygen into his lungs. Along with that, however, was also a sudden weakness that caused the claymore to fall from his hands and his body to drop. Everything felt as if it were moving in slow motion as his legs buckled and he began falling to the ground, stopping only when he met with the hard dirt path. All around him, he could hear what sounded like panicked voices, and he vaguely recognized some as his employers, while others were his fellow escorts - one, however, was entirely unfamiliar to him. Had one of the Treasure Hoarders come back… ?

Someone rolled Gaming over onto his back, and the guard found himself blinking foggily up at the sky, with the world as little more than a blur around him - except there was something above him that wasn’t the sky. It took him a moment to realize this, as the figure shared many colours with the expanse that stretched out above him. Had the individual not moved, Gaming wouldn’t have even noticed them there at all…

“Is he gonna be okay?” came a frantic voice. That was… Jietang? Why did he sound so freaked out? “He’s still really pale - is he gonna die, Chongyun?”

Chongyun? He… knew that name…

it's been awhile since i talked about this, so i'm gonna talk about it again.

RE: YANG ENERGY

Chongyun's yang energy is ever present. My personal take is that when Chongyun is keeping it at bay and suppressing their emotions/trying to keep cool, their eyes are the slits we seen in game.

However, when Chongyun's yang energy takes over and he becomes yang drunk, that's when his pupils become more round, and more akin to a standard human's eyes. When one sees round pupils, that's when it's safe to assume that Chongyun is not himself, he's out of control and likely needs to be put on a leash himself.

THAT'S NOT TO SAY HE BLACKS OUT. I do not like the idea/hint that it's an entirely split personality, so I made tweaks to how it effects Chongyun. I call it yang drunk, because they act drunk. Chongyun's personality becomes louder, more playful, a lot more chaotic and willing to stir up trouble, and rarely do they ever become violent/dangerous/an actual threat. Will they chase after and attack their friends? Absolutely. Chongyun is known to swing their claymore around, never with the intent to hurt. They do restrain themself if it comes down to it, because it's still Chongyun.

Chongyun still remembers the things he's done while in this state. He doesn't black out entirely, it's more akin to feeling hazy/loopy and regretting everything after the fact.

When plunging into the yang drunk state, Chongyun feels dizzy, floaty, and completely disconnected from his body, and that feeling tends to last until the state dissipates. either by Chongyun finally getting himself somewhere cool/cold, passing out, or finding other ways of relieving that energy so he can calm down naturally.

When coming down, Chongyun will feel sluggish, disoriented and a little depressed, feeling a lot of guilt and shame for their actions while drunk. Lots of apologies, lots of attempts to make it up to people, and trying to isolate so they can rest and recover.

Chongyun's yang drunk state can be triggered by either getting royally pissed off, suffering a little too long in the heat, or by getting incredibly stressed out. If you see them struggle to walk straight, and their eyes start changing, it's probably best to get them somewhere quiet and cool so they can try to recover.

reminder that i made a ns/fw sideblog over on my mumu. you can find said sideblog @icewindafterdark < there.