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haha real (I just remembered how fucked up our society is and now i wanna kms)

I feel like shit

"It's no big surprise you turned out this way, When they closed their eyes and prayed you would change, And they cut your hair and sent you away, You stopped by my house the night you escaped, With tears in my eyes, I begged you to stay, You said, 'Hey, man, I love you, but no fucking way' " ~Twin Size Mattress by The Front Bottoms

Still find it hard to believe that people forget I had to deal with a lot of long term trauma and it's manifested into this disorder that completely distorts my perceptions of relationships and self image and will display shitty behavior because of said disorder impacting me in some way.

I identify as aromantic because I already gave up on trying to find a romantic relationship, it's my need for a sexual relationship but not being able to find anyone and how my relationships failed me in the past that makes me an incel (well, I actually identify as a femcel, but you get the idea)

I feel like aro/ace incels are valid because they are a celibate due to their lack of attraction (which is involuntary btw), and I think that should be more recognized in the incel community.

idk, that's just kinda my take.

(tagging as BPD because that's also why I identify as an incel)

Edit: forgot to mention that cupioromantic/cupiosexual can be used as an alternative label to describe celibacy due to attraction (as a former cupiosexual myself), and it's just as valid :>

It's kind of shitty and borderline aphobic to claim most aspec people are just incels trying to get away from the label. You seem to miss that a lot of us don't want a relationship or are already in one. If an aspec person struggles to find a relationship more than most people, it's usually because of their aspec-ness, since it can be hard to find someone ok with that. Overall you clearly have a very warped perspective of aspec people and I'd love it if you took your nose out of our business

I don't have any problem into admiting I excluded a lot of people when I said "aro/ace people are nothing more than socially accepted incel", I was actually typing an smol apology about that since it wasn't supposed to get into actual aro/ace people and I communicated myself badly

except I'm still gonna point about actual incels who use it as a umbrella term to avoid being related with the stereotypes that people think about incels

people when mentally ill person is acting like theyre mentally ill

10/16/2024

I wanna save up some money for something, but idk what to save up for.

I don't have a job, but my mom pays me for doing chores around the house, and so far, I have $21.84 in physical money (dollar bills and coins)

Here are some of the things I'm wanting to get (including amount I want to save up and why I want it):

* A new computer and a capture card - so I can start doing live streams on youtube and make money off of that (since the computers I do have are actual dog shit for streaming and i wanna make money off of that). I already have a switch so I can stream minecraft if I wanted. (around $100-$500 depending on the quality, brand and any features I want. I am wanting a windows 10 computer btw, fuck windows 11)

Some makeup stuff - yes, I wear makeup sometimes lol (about $20-$30 depending on what I decide to get, including a vanity mirror with lights so I can see wtf i'm doing)

Some new clothes - specifically from hot topic because I don't have a lot of alt clothes at home T-T (about $200 since hot topic is expensive as fuck, at least here in colorado)

* some anime figurines - I'm wanting to start a collection since I think a lot of the anime figurines are really cool and also I got nothing better to do with my life lmao (check out my intro post on @nozomi-anime if you wanna see my current collection) (about $100 since at the place I want to get mine at, they're really expensive due to the quality and value, and this doesn't include shelving btw since my dad can help out with that since he's a carpenter and works with wood shit)

* Some tony crynight merchandise - I know I'm in a split with him atm but honestly fuck it. (about $50 since I only want the "in my heart" mug to display on my shelf and maybe the red wolf skull shirt so I can style it with my other clothes lmao)

An aromantic and nonbinary flag - I'm pansexual, aromantic and nonbinary, and the only flags I have are the pansexual and trans flag (and a small paper aromantic flag I made myself), so it'd be nice to have the other flags :> (about $20-$50 depending on the quality and brand)

Either a bike or a skateboard - just so that I can get around my neighborhood more easily (I hate walking ;-;) ($50-$100 depending on what I decide to get, the accessories I want and the quality)

A canopy bed frame - The sun's so fucking bright when I wake up in the mornings and I hate it, and my sister won't let me have my old bed frame (fucking asshole...) ($200 since I found one I liked)

Other bedroom stuff - I was gonna buy some while I was redecorating my room but never went through with it, and some of my furniture in my room is... not in the greatest condition, let's just say. (about $1k since furniture is SUPER expensive)

The ones with a * on them are the ones I REALLY wanna save up for, but I don't really know which on out of all of these would be a good investment.