NSFW Headcanon Questions

NSFW headcanon questions

an ode to the rosaries I have stolen

first: black plastic and broken, a tin Christ hangs from a tin cross from one hand and rasps against his painful home in a voice that says, “no masters, only memories,” and what’s the difference, anyway? to call you ugly would break me, too. I can’t lie to someone who has seen where I came from. you were my mother’s, and I took you and your dirt-smudged string and your cracked beads from a drawer in her bedroom, from that darkness, and slung you around my neck where you twist and hang askew, the most beautiful rescue to ever be so unwhole.

second: rough-smooth green seaglass and white seed beads that beg the question, what would grow if I buried you? your version of this young god I’ve almost walked away from a hundred times is steel. you wouldn’t rust in the ground, just tarnish. when we met, I gave strangers a temporary home for a living. I watched street lights go on and the sun come up. you slept in a bowl under the workroom sink. some believer forgot you long enough for me to fall in love. I brought you home and gave you as an offering to my new god until They said I could have you back. I wear you like a heartbeat when I’m afraid of this life.

third: red-stained rosewood and silver. you were the kind of thing to kill evil. my mother said, “stop wearing that. you’ll never understand.” I returned you, a love affair slaughtered in its sleep.

fourth: crucifixion goes by one rule — no masters, only memories.

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Does this mean I can call you mom

Only when I’m drunk off the communion wine with a thousand hail marys coming out of my fat ass will u ever call me mom; hey snakeboy, ur the g0th son I never wanted, go back to ur tim burton movies

“ it’s a miracle i’m still alive ”

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| Nonou sighed, and looked at her tea, almost hoping that its murky depths held the answers on what to do about her son.  Glancing at the door longingly, she reflected on the circumstances that led to her clandestine meeting with Kabuto.  Of course, it was entirely her fault for asking him to meet her at an abandoned cabin in the most remote part of the Hidden Stone Village.  Healing the wounds of the past sounds like a good gesture in theory, much less in practice.  To ask for forgiveness requires trust in the person you have wronged, and judging by Kabuto’s rigid posture and guarded stare, there was no longer any trust for the woman who raised him; even someone without intelligence training could gather that.  Not that Nonou trusted her son either; she knew nothing about him besides that he was nestled in the insidious arms of the Enemy.  A bitterness swirled in her stomach.  Hadn’t she raised Kabuto, and all of her children, better than this?

“I know you’ve made quite a name for yourself, although it’s not the future I would have wanted for you.  But it’s a harsh world; you know that better than anyone.  Men make plans, and God laughs.  I suppose He is laughing at me now.  Perhaps this is my punishment for not trying to find you all of those years…”

Her voice cracking, Nonou carefully avoided looking at any part of Kabuto for the time being.  She knew her words were lost on him, and didn’t know if he had even heard them, or if they passed through his soul like vapor.  All she could do was smile at nothing in her particular, like she did when her son was a child, and she could actually recognize him.  Now, this prodigal boy was like a bad dream that she can’t wake up from.  Nonou’s mind began to race; perhaps she should have left him bleeding, and amnesiac, on the mountainside where she had found him all those years ago.  Perhaps it wasn’t a miracle he was still alive; he was just another trial for her to face in her endless search for purification.  Shinobi have a distinct manner of dealing with trials: bloodshed, and eradicating the target.  Heart thudding, Nonou grasped the poison-mired dagger in her pocket, and then released it with a sigh only someone who had been carrying a burden on their shoulders for millennia could utter.

“Y-yes, it’s a miracle you’ve managed to survive, but I no longer recognize the boy who wears my glasses and yet thinks nothing of the crimes he has committed.  I want to ask ‘who are you, and what have you become?’ but I’m not sure I want to hear the answer.”

rp sentence starters using lines from r.h. sin’s work , rest in mourning. 

“ you’re going to overthink yourself into oblivion. ” “ who were you before the nights when madness plagued your soul? ” “ you’ve gotten so much better at disguising your anguish. ” “ sometimes we wear masks for so long, to hide what we truly feel, that those layers become an extra skin. ” “ your reflection is the lie. ” “ even the strongest heart gets broken. ” “ even the strongest soul feels weak. ” “ you’d like to hide the truth that lives deep within you. ” “ you can be honest with me. ” “ i won’t judge you. ” “ aren’t you just holding on to ghosts? ” “ you’re the only one that cares as much as you do. ” “ you’re in love with the person they’ve promised to become. ” “ you’ll get plenty of the things you try your hardest to avoid. ” “ i hope you find what you deserve. ” “ what you demand is never too much. ” “ you’re expecting those things from the wrong person. ” “ nothing good has happened. ” “ your own vulnerability becomes your worst enemy. ” “ these words are often used by people who are just bored. ” “ their words have never matched their actions. ” “ __ has often let you down. ” “ maybe it’s for the best. ” “ everything is perfect when read on a mobile device. ” “ those lies are spelled out with everything you’d like to hear. ” “ for some reason you apologize. ” “ don’t trust words. ” “ even the devil appears kind behind the right wording. ” “ there is a certain amount of value locked within every word. ” “ silence is what i’ll provide. ” “ nothing is what you deserve. ” “ i just sit here thinking about all the hateful things you’ve said to me. ” “ everyone is in pain. ” “ the wrong person will steal your time and strip you of your youth. ” “ everyone has a breaking point. ” “ i think our demons were the same. ” “ i see god in the details of your existence. ” “ heaven is in reach whenever you’re close to me. ” “ i hate how much pain your heart has known. ” “ i’d like a place in whatever space you choose to exist. ” “ a player is just a nicer way of calling a man a whore. ” “ flirting is not giving someone consent. ” “ what is lost will be replaced. ” “ there is rest in mourning. ” “ relationships are more like hell. ” “ the hatred is hard to ignore. ” “ you pretend to be happy. ” “ smiling becomes an emotional lie. ” “ when it ends, let it end. when it’s over, let it be. ” “ don’t think about what you lost. ” “ you’re not missing anything but the bullet. ” “ my blind devotion has made me your fool. ” “ i’ll move on eventually. ” “ loving you was too draining. ” “ the truth will always reveal itself. ” “ none of this gets easier, we simply become stronger. ” “ the scars that are left tell painful stories of victory. ” “ i lost the essence of who i was while trying to be everything you wanted me to be. ” “ true happiness is in letting go. ” “ true love is already within you. ” “ my greatest mistake was believing you. ” “ i just wish you’d notice me. ” “ we try our hardest to hide our hurt with a smile. ” “ i’m not ready to give up on what i deserve. ” “ i no longer needed you. ” “ to gain you have to lose. ” “ i could never do the things you did to me. ” “ i could never lower myself to that level. ” “ sometimes what we really need is to let go. ” “ i got tired of being the victim. ” “ i wanted to be my own hero. ” “ you were incapable of saving me. ” “ i wish i could exchange my memories of you with something worth remembering. ” “ sometimes i think these words will be my last. ” “ i almost gave up on myself. ” “ you gave up on me. ” “ let yourself be upset. ” “ this is how you move on. ” “ you’ve been waiting for something that won’t occur. ” “ you weren’t able to provide what i needed. ” “ not everything is what it appears to be. ”

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