I Used To Create So Many Accounts And Delete Them Afterwards Out Of Utter Fear And Panic Of What People

🥀I used to create so many accounts and delete them afterwards out of utter fear and panic of what people would think of me.

Facebook, Instagram, Tumblr, Pinterest, Wattpad....and so much more.

I was so focused on my hurt...I didn't think it could affect others.. until I'm was at the other end.

Now I see people's account on Tumblr that have been deleted and feel terrible.

Because now I know how it really feels to go AWOL.

I recently found out an account I've been searching for on Wattpad... deleted literally every accounts they have online.

I missed the author so bad...I cried a lot...I tried to understand, "this person must have a certain reason for leaving.... could be anything... could be something serious..."

I told myself this for 2 years.

But now I know how it feels. I know how it felt for the people I created friendships with, bonds, connections with and cut them off because I was having another panic attack.

p.s

I fckn hate anxiety

I never watched the it movie from 2017...I read stories and saw pictures...but I didn't watch it. I watched the mini series instead (Rip Jonathan Brandis 😞❤️) and I loved it. It was retro,funny and scary.

I have to admit the remake is amazing. From the cast, to the characterisation, to the plot, to the aesthetics... everything is amazing ❤️

But it hurts that not many people like the original movie....the way I love the original Beverly and Bill 😞

““I wanna get high with finn wolfhard””

— @finn-got-tall (via polaroidreddie)

me too

"I think I'm falling for you"

Kevin Schlieb Icons. Metal Lords (2022)

I wanna be the only one you cum for.