GUYS I NEED TO KNOW IF TWICE IS REALLY DEAD OR NOT

GUYS I NEED TO KNOW IF TWICE IS REALLY DEAD OR NOT

WHY IS HANNIBAL TRENDING WHAT DID I MISS

tw: transphobia, homophobia

as someone who is trans i've always felt very close to castiel's character. he's an angelic being who doesn't fit in with the other angels, but isn't necessarily normal in team free will either. i've always connected my experience with coming out as how chuck and the angels treated him. i was forced back into the closet. my parents did not agree with hormones, constantly misgender me and all that. but i still love them, just as castiel constantly tried to show his worth to the rest of his tribe. however, dean and sam and all of the other humans accepted cas. dean once said “sorry cas, i'd rather have you. broken or not,” and it really resonated with me. tomorrow marks one year since i came out to my friends (tho i was already out to my parents for a few months before) and they're the ones i can openly be myself with. they use my current name, they use my pronouns, and we act like nothings changed. but upon seeing castiel's character being thrown out the window as soon as he confesses his love to dean, a man he's loved for 12 fucking years. it hurts. it really does. a show i only started watching before season 15 started. i spent my entire summer break watching and falling in love with characters i could connect with. actors i know who accept my kind. people who consider me family. normally i wouldn't care because i know there's never representation for people like me. but a few minutes of castiel crying and telling this man he loves him, only to die and only get mentioned once. to never have dean fully understand what happened. still beautiful, still dean winchester. for what? nothing. it makes me sick. and i bottle it up because i know they don't want to hurt their cishet viewers feelings. it makes me feel like castiel when he first arrived. an outsider, simply following orders blindly without any idea of what is actually going on.

so thank you, cw, for reminding me fanfiction is the only way i can ever get representation. because it's not only supernatural that you've ruined for me. you've ruined the flash, the arrow, swamp thing, batwoman, constantine, and every other dc hero you've picked up.

sometimes i forget i can use social media to let out what's on my mind because i think these are things people want to hear then i remember that no one will see it so i just continue to bottle it up inside anyways here's this photo of my minecraft dogs i took a few weeks back

so can i just say something? i absolutely love the fusion of hank pym and ultron. i dont know why. it just really interests me on how this machine truly believes himself to have become his creator. and i wish i got more of that before they decided “hey, tony stark is gonna tell him it's all a delusion and then they lock him up for good.” OKAY AND? homies i want to see more of this chaotic man. give me more. i crave more.

i made my username when i was an early teenager but now i'm 15 and i really don't know what i'm gonna do when i'm a legal adult. because somefanadult just doesn't sound as cool

and i suck at usernames so ig i'll just ride this train as long as i can