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A Vague, Brief Introduction:

If anyone comes across this post, I want to informally introduce myself. My given name is Chelsea, but I’ve recently altered the spelling to Shellsea to coincide and fit the persona with the whole “sea” theme. Moving further, I am twenty years of age and I’m far from perfection. From as far back as I could recall, I’ve always had weight issues. It got worse my sophomore year in high school, where I went from being overweight to becoming morbidly obese. Every year after that has become a constant battle for me. I must admit that my inability to efficiently lose weight primarily deals with my struggle to defeat my negative mind. I feel as once I conquer and gain control of my mind, I will be headed towards success.

Nonetheless, I pretty positive that Tumblr’s weight loss community has expanded its interest in regards to wanting to lose weight and live a healthy, happier lifestyle. Kudos to all who makes that decision. No promises are guaranteed, but I’ve made a commitment to dedicate myself to lose weight in order to live a healthy, prolonged life.

I’m tired of the monotonous existing patterns that occur in my daily routine. I don’t want to become a victim of my own deception and false hopes. I mention deception because I’m one of those people who constantly tell themselves that they will change and they will do this or the next, or say they’ll lose weight and then you never live up to what you proposed. Sounds familiar right? But it seems like my bad eating habits and laziness prevent me from achieving my initial goals to lose weight.

It’s literally mind over matter! I need to understand that this is not a game of any sort because I’m putting my life at risk every time I neglect my body. Neither is it a competition or fad. You all should remember that it’s your life you’re dealing with. The sad part about existing on the face of this Earth is that life is not guaranteed. One day we could be here and tomorrow we could be deceased. And that’s what sort of had an impact on my decision to go on this weight loss journey and approach it differently. I’ve evaluated how I pretty much wasted 20 years of my being trapped in my own body, in my own mind, in my own misery, and never had the courage to stand up and change.

I see it as follows, I will become forty in twenty years (if I’m still alive by then). Forty alone seems ‘old’ in this generation. Every year you get older, your body starts to be prone to more health issues as age kicks in. I’m thinking how the hell could I relive the twenty years I wasted? The answer to that is that I can’t. But the good news is that I’m not letting that avoid me from succeeding. It’s been too long. Too long. Change makes all the difference in this world.

To be continued…