I Finally Did It...I Want To Die.

I finally did it...I want to die.

I'm sorry. Y'all didn't follow for all this sad stuff. I don't have people offline to share my vulnerable self with so easily. I've tried and tried to push through and figure things out by myself. I just feel like an absolute wreck of a person. I'm not even a person. I have something I must do that I've been putting off, and of course, it must be done alone. I'm very scared and angry and crying as I type this. I can only hope against hope against hope against HOPE that I will finally receive peace when it is done. That I can move on and be normal and happy and a real person again. The kind of person you'll like. I've let my family down. I've let myself down. And I feel like I've let you down. Things will be different. They'll be better. I have to believe it.

This is cool as hell! I wish I was talented like this

pencils were invented by the devil

Obi-Wan Kenobi & Qui-Gon Jinn aka The Negotiator & The Maverick

TODAY'S FUNDRAISERS

Tahseen @tahseenkhazen | vetted | gfm | $13,421 USD raised of $25,000 goal

Ahed @nooraahed | vetted | gfm | €2,609 raised of €40,000 goal

Salem @salem-baker | vetted | gfm | €6,807 raised of €38,000 goal

Alsaidi family @suppormyfamily1 | vetted | gfm | £684 raised of £30,000 goal

Esraa @esraayyad14 | vetted | gfm | €22,248 raised of €45,000 goal

Darine @drdarine | vetted | gfm | $3,537 USD raised of $30,000 goal

Mahmoud @m-albalawi | vetted | gfm | €41,356 raised of €85,000 goal

Mohammed and Lana @mohammed2lana | unverified; ris clean; donations protected | gfm | €257 raised of €20,000 goal

Yahya @yahya-abu-zour | vetted | gfm | €3,407 raised of €35,000 goal

Eslam @eslamfamily3 | vetted | gfm | $10,136 USD raised of $50,000 goal

Hany @hanyfamily | vetted | gfm | €768 raised of €20,000 goal

Ghada @ghadafamily2 | vetted | gfm | €991 raised of €20,000 goal

Hassan @mmalakhasan | unverified; ris clean; donations protected | gfm | €538 raised of €25,000 goal

Ashraf @ashraffblog | vetted | gfm | €24,145 raised of €25,000 goal [VERY CLOSE TO THEIR GOAL]

Safaa @safaakhatib | vetted | gfm | €25,002 raised of €35,000 target

all blogs, links to verification, and gfms have been checked by me personally.

I THRIFTED A JEDI COSTUME!!! I did it, everyone! I'm so proud!

Okay, so I gave up on trying to do an Obi-Wan costume specifically. People weren't going to recognize me as Obi-Wan even IF I had every screen accurate piece of clothing. I decided to just focus on making a generic Jedi costume whenever I got the time, but in the back of my mind, I figured it just wasn't going to happen. 🤷

On Friday, I'm doing a Stranger Things costume with some coworkers so I went on Pinterest to get some ideas and BOOM there was an ad for a Jedi cosplay for sale and it made me realize that I was seriously overthinking the costume! The cosplay in the ad gave me a whole new perspective on what I could put together myself!

After work, I shopped at the thrift store for my Stranger Things costume and didn't find what I needed so decided to give the Jedi costume another try. Guys. I'm SO happy with how this turned out!

I should've taken a picture before I put it in the wash 🤦 but I'll show y'all when it's done!

At my job, we're allowed to wear Halloween costumes throughout the month of October!

It'd be a shame if I didn't dress up as at least ONE Ewan McGregor character.

Obi-Wan is probably the only genuine costumey character, but in the very likely event that I can't find the materials to do his outfit, I need a backup.

Can you guys help me brainstorm costumes to put together?

It’s way too hot today so I made these