Fanart Of Kendall Performing In A Cowboy Outfit For @miss-morgans-lover's Beautiful Vamp!kendall Au :)

fanart of kendall performing in a cowboy outfit for @miss-morgans-lover's beautiful vamp!kendall au :) literally carrying the kendall morgan lore on your back fr

(i was the one who asked on your tiktok if i could draw her lol hope you like it)

i have recolored pictures of my otps to look like tv girl's "who really cares" album cover forcibly tv-girlified all of my prdc otps

(all those tv girl/dangerously yours audios on tiktok are just kendall/heckyl core)

In honour of me sending this just before I go to sleep

What do you think Kendall's sleep schedule is like?

Kendall TRIES (keyword: tries) to keep a healthy sleep schedule, but given how busy her job is, this often produces mixed results. She has a lot to deal with as a curator and as tech support for the Rangers (and as a Ranger herself) and I can imagine that would keep her up for hours on end. I also HC that due to her trauma it would be difficult for her to relax enough to go to sleep. Usually when that happens she tries to read or watch a film or work on something until she finally finds herself drifting off. She doesn't like using sleeping pills or melatonin, not wanting to risk an addiction or overdose.

(incoming yap fest + tw for mentions of emotional abuse + neon genesis evangelion/power rangers dino charge spoilers!!)

honestly as controversial as misato is in the eva fandom the amount of material in "the case of misato katsuragi" that is applicable to kendall morgan is actually insane

"Because I have no Daddy; because I have to be good and not bother my Mommy. But I don't want to become like my mom; when my father's not here, she always cries. I can't cry, I can't depend on anyone else. So I have to be good! That way, maybe my father won't hate me so much. I hope. Maybe my father won't hate me if I be good."

this is me treading into hc territory but the likely reason why kendall is so stoic and controlled throughout prdc (and why her parents were never mentioned even in the presence of her grandmother) could be because she was abused as a child. she was always taught to trivialize and control her own feelings for the sake of others or her goals, which was only further worsened by her intelligence, weaponized against her by parents who wished to exploit it in order to exalt themselves as the proud parents of such a gifted child. and like any young child who has no one but their primary guardians to rely upon, who has no one to love but their parents, kendall took these "lessons" (emotional abuse) to heart and became the well-behaved, composed child any parent would want (and developed into the equanimous, deadpan, repressed figure in her adulthood that we see in the show) all at the (likely) expense of her mental health.

"But I hated my father... and I hated being a good child. I hated it... I'm tired of it, I'm tired of wiping myself clean. I'm tired of pretending to be pure and noble. I'm so tired of it all! I want to disgrace myself, to get so dirty that no one can stand it! I want to see my life and my reputation ruined!"

like any repressed, emotionally abused child raised in such a stifling environment against their will, kendall grew to absolutely hate how she was raised and yearned to rebel against the people who abused her. this could also cross into the show, having to shoulder being tech support for the rangers, having to bear the weight of expectations from people like them and keeper, and having to keep the museum afloat as its curator. a common pattern presented throughout the show is kendall being presented as someone to be looked up to. the stolid team mom who must always have the answers and always be flawless in her technology and museum affairs, or everyone else will suffer. it's as if the fear mongering that had been pushed onto her as a kid finally became a terrifying reality, that she really can't express herself as much as she wants because there are too many people who rely on her, and she's tired of it. she wants the freedom, impulsivity and spontaneity that comes with rebellion, to no longer be the noble, intelligent, phlegmatic figure whom everyone can lean on while she practically has no one. this reputation she has does not feel entirely like herself (never really did) and was pushed on her against her will. why would she emotionally want to hang onto it?

"The 'me' who is recognized is the 'me' who is performing a role in order to be appreciated, but she's not the real 'me'."

however, kendall's fatal mental flaw is that deep down, she still craves the praise she gets from those who rely on her, much like she did when she was a kid. no matter how straining this persona is on her mental health, no matter how spurious it is, she still needs affirmation. this crosses over into her being neglected throughout season 1, her never getting the opportunity to be a ranger until super late into s1 despite being one of the very first people selected by keeper to find and safeguard the energems, and essentially being the raft that keeps the rangers technically and emotionally afloat (coming between conflicts and stabilizing matters, having to constantly develop and adapt technology against sledge's monsters). kendall is putting in all this work and it's barely, if ever, affirmed until she becomes a ranger, and is barely even affirmed afterwards. kendall is ambitious but her position forces her to be stagnant. she is relied upon but barely appreciated (especially from a viewer's perspective given the neglect of her character by the writers).

i do wish to clarify that i don't believe the rest of her team intentionally overshadows kendall and aren't malicious with it in the slightest; it's her reputation as the levelheaded one that instinctively causes the others to lean on her, further exacerbated by her reluctance to reach out for help, a product of her (likely) trauma. kendall has so convincingly played this part that the rangers hardly think to ask if she's okay, assuming she's always okay. if she isn't, she finds her own way out of it because she's that capable. that's just kendall. ofc i wish there were more scenes of them checking on her since she is their close friend and ally but it's been 8 years since dino charge wrapped up & that's probably not gonna happen.

this is partially my fixation crossover brain going crazy (as i adore purple-themed team mom figures) and my anger at the amount of introspective character study and development potential kendall (as well as ivan and koda) possessed, only to be overlooked by the more conventional plotlines of other, more cliché characters.

Thoughts on Kendall being adopted???

Ngl, up until your vamp!Kendall AU I didn't think to consider the possibility but now that it's been presented I actually can get behind this. Her being adopted probably adds extra angst points to her lore (additional HC that she was adopted solely so they could use her intelligence to serve as a trophy or brownie points for her parents)

(Incoming TW for emotional abuse & religious trauma)

Within the vamp!AU I think it would be interesting if her adopted parents were conservative Christians, and that they tried to indoctrinate her into their strict Christian beliefs, since it would add an extra dichotomy between what they believe is "righteous" and "pure" by their religious standards (and what they tried to push onto her by extension) and her eventual vampirism, which is something historically seen as an "unholy disease", and the same could be said for her trying to develop her sexuality/gender identity in a home that highly discourages that way of thinking, especially for girls. Because her parents are adoptive ones, they would probably gaslight her into thinking that she's so lucky to have them when her birth parents were reckless, alcoholic sinners and that they can save her soul as long as she trusts them wholeheartedly (which is textbook emotional abuse).

This could help further cement her rebellious nature against the way she grew up and her being more free in her adulthood and going all out (almost to her detriment) before finally grounding herself and finding a balance that allows her to thrive as a vampire.

just saying if we got to see tyler and shelby have an adorably corny pop style duet we should've gotten kendall and heckyl singing a heavy, musical theatre style duet

i don't even care about what the subject matter is, just let them sing together please