Not As In Work Or Maintaining Formal Relationships Like Have Social Media Or Group Of Friends Like I

Not as in work or maintaining formal relationships like have social media or group of friends like i read how humans are social creature and cant survive on their own ?

Socializing:

If you don't like being social, then there would be reasons to explore. Do you feel like you're not yourself when you're with others? Or maybe you feel like you want to know who you are before you socialize? Or maybe socializing makes you feel a lot of emotions and confusions? Or maybe socializing is too stimulating and fast paced for you?

Maybe you can take a man out of society but cannot take out society out of him. Society is very much absorbed by us, like we are sponges and absorb the social norms, language, culture, habits, practices. It makes life predictable.

Maybe without socializing you cannot self introspect because others are like a mirror to you and your reflection in them  helps you understand yourself.

Maybe sometimes you'll like socializing and other times hate it. Dr. Carl G Jung once said that "there is no such thing as a pure introvert or extrovert. Such a person would be in the lunatic asylum." Prof Yuval N Harari said that we live in a shared imagination. Humans are the only ones who live a double life, an objective and a subjective life. A shared imagination. And this imagination is shared by many people. That's how we understand language and ideas. If I say "marriage", you can understand what it means because you and I share the social meaning, idea and imagination of marriage.

I cannot answer your question because I don't know the answer. Whatever someone says won't make sense unless the answer comes from inside.

I have similar questions as yours: Why do I want to talk to someone else? Who is it that I'm talking to? Why do I have the urge to tell someone my thoughts? What will I feel after I speak? What kind of reactions do I want from someone? What if that someone reacts differently opposite to my expectations? Etc.

Survival:

I think we cannot survive on our own. It started the moment we were born, someone else was taking care of us. Physical needs are dependent on others.

Think, think, think...

Dependency may appear to be love because it is a force that causes people to fiercely attach themselves to one another. But in actuality it is not love; it is a form of antilove. It seeks to receive rather than to give. It nourishes infantilism rather than growth. It works to trap and constrict rather than to liberate. Ultimately it destroys rather than builds relationships, and it destroys rather than builds people.

The Road Less Traveled

M. Scott Peck

Image with kind permission from Kate Louise PoWell.

Do do not fear those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul.

Rather fear him who can destroy both soul and body.

Gospel of Matthew