Chapter Four:

Chapter four:

Starting to Regret

[Owen’s perspective]

After walking for a bit and trying to forget about what just happened, I decided to go back to my little, rundown hotel room. It is able to fit two people if necessary, but there’s no need anymore, it’s just me from now on.. I walked inside and went straight to the kitchen cabinet. That’s where I kept the alcohol, something I desperately needed right now. I grabbed a bottle of whiskey, shut the cabinet, and opened the bottle while sitting on the couch. I needed to drown out everything right now.

Before I knew it, the bottle was empty. I didn’t even realize that it was all gone. I drink a lot, I will admit, but the bottle usually lasts for some time. All I could was stare at it, the empty bottle which I supposedly chugged in a couple seconds. When I continued to stare at the bottle, I started to think about a lot. About tonight, about the fact that I didn’t even think about looking back when I left, about Curt..

I then threw the bottle at the wall, it shattering into pieces. My eyes started to water as I looked at all the glass on the floor. I only threw it so I could stop thinking about it all. Get all the thoughts out of my head.. But I started to regret what I did, smashing it was a mistake..

This was sure going to be a long night..

-(here’s chapter 4!! This one was also pretty hard to write, but I did it!! Also I’m gonna make some mood boards and post them tomorrow💛💙)-

I’ve never made one of these mood boards before, but I wanted to try it out on one of my favorite characters of all time- Sedgewick Bell from the Palace thief/emperor’s club.

If anyone has any suggestions for one you want me to make, tell me and I’ll tag you :)

Made this on the app Shuffles btw, love the app!!

Chapter Two

I would..

[Owen’s perspective]

I really did leave. And I had every reason to. From being left for dead by someone I loved to being called a “coward”, nothing about this sat right with me, especially the thought of Curt all together. We had a connection, we shared everything with each other. But since he left me that night, he’s only been a stranger in my eyes..

It almost feels like he’s trying to take advantage of you. He’ll tell you he loves you and leave you. It’s hard to understand how he works. Does he mean what he says or is he a liar? I would have to say a liar for obvious reasons. I felt loved by him, sure, but would someone who wanted to be with you, have a future with you when the time was right leave you for dead? I felt betrayed by him that night and I still do.

Betrayal is a horrid thing, it feels like you’re being stabbed in the back by someone who you trusted with your life. And that’s exactly how I felt with Curt. He didn’t care and if I went back and asked him, he would tell me that I'm right.

I also left because I wanted nothing to do with him in that moment. Why would I? He’s an ignorant, self-obsessed asshole who needs to grow up and move on.

Moving on is not an easy thing at all, especially when you’re perfect for someone, but sometimes it’s best. He just needs to forget about me and maybe find someone else to stab in the back, lie to and manipulate.

And the saddest thing about this is I never saw Curt this way until that night four years ago. I always saw him in a positive, caring, loving light who wanted nothing more than to make sure I was alright, make it so we weren’t afraid to talk to each other, but now, I wish I never shared my feelings with him, maybe it would make it easier to forget..

-(here’s chapter 2 of My Unreliable Partner!! Idk when chapter 3 will be posted since I still have to write it! 💛💙)-

Going to bed soon. I’m gonna start trying to post more on here. Also chapter 4 will be posted sometime tomorrow :) 💛💙

Chapter three:

Still on the horrid staircase

[Curt’s perspective]

My knees started to become weak as I thought about what just happened. It was almost too hard to believe. Owen didn’t die after all, and now he’s gone once again. I felt my eyes start to burn with tears as I fell onto my knees. Normal breaths turned into sobs as I thought about the past. Flashbacks were all that came to mind.

I thought about how I left him to die that night, alone, scared.. I kept trying to come up with an answer on why I did it, why I left?

No answers came to mind. Maybe I was too scared of what might happen or maybe I was in utter shock. But to be fair, those weren’t great answers I will admit. I wish I was able to give him a solid, well-thought out answer.

I tried to get up, but couldn’t. I fell right back onto my knees, clutching my jacket when I fell. I thought that maybe when I grabbed the jacket, I would think it was Owen’s embrace, or him trying to keep me on my feet, something like that. But it honestly made me more depressed. I wish I was able to hug him again, at least one more time. Tell him how sorry I am. I do know that when trust is broken, sorry means nothing, but it would mean something to me, just knowing that I at least tried to apologize, it would mean a lot.

And now, I’m going to spend the rest of my night, sobbing on this horrid staircase, the one that started it all..

-(here’s chapter 3! Sorry if it’s a little shorter than the others, this one was pretty hard to write 😭💙💛)-

Basically Owen just leaves/gets away for the sake of the story because we hear from him in chapter 2. I didn’t want to kill either of them off right away because they’ll bump into each other at random times(like one chapter will be based at the bar) and the last three chapters or so will be based around the staircase. He might fall at the end, but I didn’t think of an ending yet!!

So I’ve decided to start writing my little Curtwen book on here because Ao3’s being dumb 😭

It’s called My Unreliable Partner and it takes place after Curt shoots the gun out of Owen’s hand.

He doesn’t kill him when he had the chance because he thought that maybe they could talk about what happened, but instead, Owen just walks off the staircase, leaving everything behind just like Curt did 4 years ago.

(I’ll most likely be posting chapter 1 later and start posting other things about it on here.)

-💙💛