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i keep blacking out for hours

i woke up today and i was like: why didnt my alarm wake me up but i looked over AND I FUCKING BLACKED OUT AGAIN

ITS 3 AM

THIS IS THE THIRD TIME IN A ROW

how do i tumblr

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how??? magic??? empty out all my excess stupid thoughts???

If you're still taking them— E16 for Saeran because we need to see the boy to laugh-cry at least ONCE!

Growing his roots back

Reminds me of strawberry milk 🍓🥛

Request

succumbed to the outsiders brain infection and made an oc.

her name is Honda (yes, like the car) and she’s a greaser! she’s 18– turning 19 on september 14th!

more info +backstory under cut :)

she works at the dingo, mostly to protect the other girls that work there and occasionally break up fights (if she isn’t in them)

she moved to tulsa with her mother when she was 7 in 1955, and ended up neighbors with the curtis family! their mothers got along, so she met the boys by being invited over for playdates (and may or may not be the reason why ponyboy learned to run so fast due to her chasing him)

two-bit and steve were darry and soda’s friends back then, so she’d play with them occasionally as well

her mother died the day after she turned 18– and during her grieving period she relied heavily on mr. and mrs. curtis, but they ended up getting into a car crash only a couple months later.

both honda and the curtis brothers were hit really hard by their parents deaths and having no one else to rely on, so they ended up bonding a lot during this period

honda has respect for darry and how he took responsibility to care for the boys, and helps him occasionally even when she struggles to take care of her own situation

she cares for soda pony and johnny like her little brothers :)

she graduated from high school, but gave up going to college after her mom died

she actually was a surprisingly good student

hated seeing darry have to give up his dreams of college— tried to desperately work jobs to help them save but it was never enough

also cried with soda when they couldn’t buy mickey mouse

can often be found on shift at the dingo, working another job, or sleeping on the couch at the curtis house

she’d often roughhouse with the rest of the gang & join in rumbles

she, dally, and two-bit would go around doing stupid shit, but if they catcalled any girls she’d punch them

sometimes two-bit will ask her how to get with girls and she’ll just stare at him like 😐

another chocolate cake violator.

she’s rather proud of the muscles she’s built up, though it does get her some weird looks sometimes

she’s friends with the other girls at the dingo because she takes care of them, sometimes she’ll go hang out with them because she’s worried about some guy picking on them (they just think she wants to hang out though)

loves her beat up red pickup truck that runs on hopes and dreams

i have more of her seeping into the very crevices of my brain but i think it may be best to leave off here today 🙏

yoyoyo!!!!! happy ace week!!!!

over the span of my life ive been trying to find bits of my identity and my sexuality has been one of the hardest to find, but i feel like ive found myself a bit more after finding out about the aroace spectrum!!!!!!!!! happy ace awareness week <3

to all of the people who say “dallas winston wouldn’t have a soft spot for kids” and “you’re mischaracterizing him, he literally beat up children” i offer you that pony is just really fucking gullible. in my brain, dally was telling the gang a story about some kid sassing him and jokingly says “so i punched him” and before he can even vaguely clarify that it was a joke pony interrupts like “REALLY!?!” and he just looks at pony and sarcastically goes “yeah kid, i spent my afternoon beating on some children” and pony just starts writing it in his notebook. i refuse to believe he is a reliable narrator lmao