I Think Of Her Still And I Hate It, That No Matter What I Try To Do To Fend Off My Mind. Distract Myself

I think of her still and I hate it, that no matter what I try to do to fend off my mind. Distract myself from stuff, still I think of her even on my busiest days. This mind keeps replaying all those memories like a playlist without stop button. Sometimes I think that there's a reason why I cant get her out of my mind. I wanna believe that superstition where when you cant get someone out of your mind its because they are remembring you.

-a love trashed

list of reasons not to kill myself #???:

-my favorite tv show is making another season

-there are still movies i want to see in theaters

-friends and inside jokes that have yet to be made

-gentle puppy licks on the face

-there are tons of places i still want to see

-i haven’t vacationed outside of this country

-there are so many books i haven’t read sitting on my desk

-cats are out there waiting to be petted

-hugs... there are still hugs to be had

-i haven’t finished writing my book

-there’s more i’m not even thinking of right now !!

I wonder what fucking button did I ever pressed to be depressed this much..

I also have anxiety and don’t know what to do about it can you give me some tips..? Btw your poems are so beautiful. Wow.

Thank you much. I thought a lot about how to answer this and I don’t have a brief answer, so sorry for the long ramble.

Eat health and workout. I truly believe this approach helps some of the way, but it can be hard getting to a place where it’s manageable and it doesn’t solve everything.

Seeking help from friends, family, a trusted person or especially a therapist. A therapist can help you figure out what’s triggering it and help you come up with strategies to deal with it.

Meditation/mindfulness especially MBSR based mindfulness can help. They are evidence based and can be found for free on a lot of American Universities websites. They help you stay in the moment and focus your energy.

Free yourself the best you can from environments and people who get you down or stress you. There is no need for extra pressure or things making you feel bad. I also try to position myself in rooms and places where I know how to get away.

Learn to listen to your body and emotions. This way you can with time start to understanding and learn when and how you are triggered. This takes time and is draining, but can maybe help in the long run.

When panic attacks hit or I feel them on the way. I usually try to focus on my breathing. Focus on breathing in and out. Taking long slow breath. Depending on where it is. I walk outside to breathe in fresh air. I also might steady myself by sitting down or holding on to a wall so I don’t feel like falling.

I have also heard that it helps from stamp on the ground or move your toes. Telling your brain you are here and it can try its best to knock you out, but you will survive it.

Then there is also the idea of exposure therapy where you expose yourself for anxiety the places where it usually hits. Then you let the anxiety get to its fullest so the body learns it’s not dangerous. The theory is that if you do it a lot of times, the anxiety will be less and less and make it more manageable.

Sorry for the long ramble. Leave comments below with your advice!

Buti pa dito sa tumblr walang rant rant abou politics, pagsshutdown ng abs cbn pure depression and anxieties lang sarap mag deactivate ng facebook.

Why being in class is hell...

for a person with social anxiety

First day introductions

Too many people

Eye contact with the prof

Not knowing where to look

Presentations

Group projects

Class discussions

Taking notes

Adjusting yourself

Any movement actually

Having to sneeze

Or cough

Getting asked a question

Staring blankly even when you know the answer

“Why aren’t you paying attention?”

Trying to pay attention when you can’t breathe