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When I Was 20, I Moved Out At Night With My Stuff In Trash Bags As My Mother Wept On The Floor Begging

When I was 20, I moved out at night with my stuff in trash bags as my mother wept on the floor begging me to stay, asking me how she was supposed to mother the other children in her care. When I was 20, as I loaded everything i could fit into my car my mother dug her nails so deep into my skin that I still have the scars today. When I was 20, and I was holding myself together by threads I watched my mother fall apart and shrivel before me. I left my mother to save myself. I left my siblings to save myself. I was scared and tired and put myself first and now ill never see them again.

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4 years ago

I'm infertile.

And I watch while my cousins have babies and my friends have babies

But I know that my belly won't ever grow round while my body builds a little human

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