Question: If I Choose To Identify As A Sapphic, And Taking My Time To Understand My Struggles With Saying

question: if i choose to identify as a sapphic, and taking my time to understand my struggles with saying the word lesbian due to comphet (crushes also), bullied, sexualised, etc that happened to the word and myself, can i still claim the lesbian flag? (because all lesbians are sapphics but not all sapphics are lesbians) and I only chose to identify this way is because im trying to feel comfortable with the word and then once i do, then yeah). but do sapphics join the lesbian community since they got attraction to women just like lesbians do (you can’t identify as both ik) ? or do i just, stick to the sapphic community instead?

i need to rant and please don’t ignore all my posts, please pay attention to them.

warning : // homophobia, bullying, r4p3, assault, and a few things.

1), i feel like people don’t understand that i have a hard time liking men and being w men. when i say, i can’t get used to it, they think it’s a joke. they think i’m “joking” when i say, i cannot feel comfortable around them. every time i always think they’re gonna hurt me or beat me up.

2), i also feel like no one is listening to me. i can’t feel attracted to men. i can’t imagine myself having a boyfriend. i can’t picture myself being friends with them. i can’t do ONE thing without thinking negatively. i know not all men are like this and i am NOT generalising them either, it’s just that since i’m severely bullied by most of them, i get really scared thinking they’ll hurt me.

3), due to issues, i don’t understand the difference between sexual attraction and romantic attraction. i know this is stupid but im really confused and i have hard times understanding stuff so im just really ugh. i am sure i identify as aroace bc i just don’t like the attraction and it feels disgusting to me.

4), when boys have a crush on me, i get a ick really quick. when most boys would go up to me and say they got a “crush” on me, i fr cant tell if they’re being fr or lying. most of them don’t even say they’re serious but next thing I know, they talk shit and say horrid things about me. and most of that counts as s3xųal bullying (?) cause they harass me everywhere, hurt me, give me bruises, etc. this is why i cannot imagine myself w a man. i’m frightened.

5), when they act all sweet or when i reject them. if one comes up to me and i say no. they get all angry and start saying “you’re so [remark on how i look]” or “i never liked you anyway [horrid name]”. most of them call me that cause apparently i identify as neurodivergent. even worse. they knew about it somehow???”

6), i HATE how i can’t be w men. i get sometimes board when i only like girls and wish I can ditch labels but I don’t FEEL like that. yesterday, I went hotel and saw this white boy who was attractive. lesbians can find men attractive without wanting to date them right? you know when the realisation hits you cause you can’t feel like that cause that isn’t who you are.

7). i want male validation ofc but i identify as sapphic cause i only like women. but how to become friends w a man without having to feel like you wanna date him but that’s truly how you don’t feel? yeah. pain. comphet is getting my ass 😹

8). i am currently planning to stay single forever. i literally cannot handle myself being scared w men. what happened to me? i used to feel so comfortable w them but the bullying... 😕 + i’ve seen how women get abused and rap3d which scares me even worse. i’ve been sexually touched before by a man and at that same night, i dreamed of being rap3d. for no reason. deadass.

so when that my irls be saying, “you turned yourself gay”, “your fault”, la la la, it ain’t my fault. fuck them and tell them to fix up.

but end of my rant, thank you for listening to all that racket 😹 .

okay y’all, my fake friends outed me twice to a teacher at work

basically where i work, there’s teachers who teach kids and there’s one who checks on me each time even though i don’t like her but mostly i do shifts at night so age difference

they outed me and said “oh she’s gay” and so the teacher went “oh she’s gay? wow” and someone went, “oh hell nah.. that’s very..” when they asked me if it was true. they started acting weird by saying they liked girls when they were straight, a STRAIGHT girl and then i asked, “why tryna act like you’re gay when you aren’t?” and they went “oh but hell no thats horrid”

so basically got outed to teachers and 3 different people

mmmhhh okay brothers🫡 this is enough for me today

the v app just shut down today #kpop

goodbye 2022, hi 2023 🎉

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