Oh Crap! Just Realized That Virtual-collector-blaze Is GONE! His YouTube Channel (Adrien S) Is Gone Too!

Oh crap! Just realized that virtual-collector-blaze is GONE! His YouTube channel (Adrien S) is gone too! Dang. That truly is a SHAME. He is one of the few gainer guys I’d actually keep up with. Good luck on your next iteration man, if you ever decide to return let me know! Kinda sad. Like I know I’ve deleted everything before, I’ve seen others do it too, but for some reason this time it actually makes me legitimately disappointed. 😆

250 lbs.

So I’m 250 now. Great. I’m actually a little over now. It’s kinda cool how quickly I gained it all, a little spooky. I’m just not feeling it. I just kinda want to lose weight again.

Sure, lazy couch potato cheeseburger and french fry feederism is cool, but hear me out.

Give me feedees who don’t want to be helpless and immobile. Feedees who love their bodies but also love their hobbies. Feedees with interests apart from becoming a sentient couch for someone else to look after. Feedees who cosplay or garden or want to eat a variety of things. Feedees begging their feeders to learn how to make authentic chicken vindaloo, Jamaican style curried goat, maduros and ropa vieja, real pirogi, or llengas tacos. Feedees who work all day and come home and wolf down a table full of food because being productive enhances their appetite like no other. Feedees who absolutely want homemade apple butter and biscuits over egg mcmuffins. Feedees dragging their feeders out to the local U-Pick and eagerly filling their buckets with fresh summer berries and going “youre going to make pie AND cobbler right? and jam? i need that clove and raspberry jam. please.” 

And give me feeders who can’t just cook, they can throw down. Feeders who can make - and cure - their own sausages and bacon. Feeders who bake bread without recipes because the way their feedee eats it’s honestly easier to just bake it than keep going to the store every single day. Feedees who take pride in the variety and quality of what they put into their feedee. Feeders getting mad their feedee bought canned whipped cream because fresh is so much better and of course, there’s whipping cream already in the fridge just get the hand mixer out it takes like 20 seconds what are you doing with the Reddi-Whip. Feeders who make artisan ice cream just for their feedees. Feeders grinning at the U-Pick because they’re going to make pie, cobbler, jam, and summer berry wine for when their feedee wants something special after dinner. Feeders who have enough food skill to run a homestead if they really wanted to.

Give me cozy, loving, interesting, high-variety, quality over quantity style feederism that’s less about size and more about nurturing and the long, drawn-out path between “starting” and “ending.” Give me a leisurely walk in the inbetween instead of a sprint, and live your life in the meantime.

I was feeling kinda meh about gaining earlier after posting about the big 250 (it definitely came through on that post too) but now I’m ready to go to the buffet! I’m seriously just wanting to chase that blubbery future! I don’t know if that attitude will still be there when I wake up tomorrow, but right now I want nothing more than to stuff my face. I HIT 250 LBS!!!

Just got two double quarter pounders with cheese, two large fries, a large Coke, and a large chocolate milkshake. I had a bunch of food right before but I think it’ll be possible for me to eat it all. This will feel so good.

A very Big Smoke order. I’m starting to feel full but I’m loving sneaking more when I feel that insane hunger crop up past where the fullness is. It feels so good.

250

Up to about 250 lbs now, feels transcendent.

It feels so good I just want to explode. I want to share it with people. I want everyone to see. I want to have someone rub my belly.