250 Lbs.

250 lbs.

So I’m 250 now. Great. I’m actually a little over now. It’s kinda cool how quickly I gained it all, a little spooky. I’m just not feeling it. I just kinda want to lose weight again.

My biggest conundrum is that I would love to see fan art of myself, but I’m too paranoid to put out pictures, thus limiting my blog’s popularity. I guess I’ll just have to continue stuffing my face in obscurity. 😔😆

What? You thought I’d stop if no one was looking? How laughably naive!

I’ve been thinking about getting fatter all day today! My belly is just now starting to feel like its weight is being carried just a little further from me, like my center of mass has shifted! I’m just hoping some more of this weight goes specifically to my love handles because I had a friend who used to have huge jiggly love handles and I was always so jealous!

Even if I were to lose a bunch of weight again, I can almost guarantee you that my weight would still fluctuate wildly. My target weight is fickle and erratic.

I’ve noticed a trend where gainers with usernames like “super-mega-close-to-being-immobile-9000-lbs” tend to just have a starter belly and they go on hiatus really quickly. You will see a lot of the actual 700 lbs. type of gainers with usernames like “overweight-gainer” and “squishy_belly”. It’s like the Dunning Krueger Effect, but with weight gain.

I’ve just had around 3000 extra calories of granola bar. I’m tempted to keep pushing myself, but last time I did I ended up frowing up-plus I need some sleep. Maybe tomorrow I can have a nice big lunch and scatter the other 1800 calories throughout the day.

Actually surprised how easy it is to hold down granola bars as opposed to pie.