Disgusted

Disgusted

It crawls into my mind

takes root

A parasite I cannot remove

Cannot shake out

It stays,

It stays and festers

and grows

until it denies me myself

My independence

is no more

It is always with me,

Invisible, unkind, clenching

my heart until I burst

I stitch it back up

But the cycle continues

Hopeless? Harmless?

Everything is mud

My thoughts aren't dirt

but I couldn't tell

the sediment is all the same

The Earth keeps moving,

I don't move.

Tower

I am locked up

tall, secret, closed off

I'm surrounded by

things

but all I see

perceive, need,

is the outside.

Outside this tower

hidden away

small, scared, lost

I'm locked up

and I want the outside

it's so dangerous

scary, unfamiliar

what is familiar

is getting lost

I need to stay inside.

Shaking, breathing feeling

I get lost so easily

consequently

scared

I am always inside

I am scared to leave

I am not okay

I always get lost

Why do I bother?

I want the outside.

Unused, decrepit, diseased little town

it's windy

coldness seeps into me

wrapping around my lungs

becoming a part of me.

Barren, abandoned looming

I remember how it was

how loud it was

booming, boss, irrational

it's quiet now.

I remember it.

The damage it caused.

Caused us.

it's stormy

rain falls onto me

stays on my skin, in my clothes,

becoming a part of me.

How quiet, how small, how healthy it is

it's no longer as scary as it was,

but the cold, the rain,

it became a part of me.

Hi Noor!

If the princes went to Hogwarts, what would their favorite classes be, and who would they hang out with? Sorry if this requires a long answer or anything

as someone who was very into harry potter as a kid, then grew out of it (esp bc of she-who-must-not-be-named... GOD I CRINGED SO HARD AT THAT JOKE IM SO SORRY), then rewatched the movies with my sister and enjoyed them more than i thought i would, i was pleasantly surprised to see this ask. and pls dont apologize !

FRIEND GROUPS

the friend groups in a harry potter au wouldn't be much different from the groups in the modern college au. so this is sort of a college au sneak peak lol. also i answered a similar question in a qna before, but since then i have changed a few of their houses.

(characters are color-coded by their houses) Winter White, Anton, Espen Alistair, Luka, Aurelio Rojo, Sen, Arien Beau, Jasmir, Eli Tyrian, Rampion, MC, Miriam (im obsessed with friend groups involving students from all the houses)

However, as we all know in real life, friend groups can overlap a lot. These characters I'm pairing would interact a lot as well: Luka & Rojo, Rojo & Alistair, Alistair & Rampion, Beau & Alistair, Miriam & Beau, Tyrian & Eli. [In fact, Alistair's favorite person to hang out with is Rojo but he's like... anti-gryffindor so they cant officially be in the same friend group lmfao.]

fyi these are just a few examples, in reality a lottt more charas would be friends. like mc with everyone else bc duh

FAVORITE CLASSES

Charms: Sen, Arien

Transfiguration: Alistair, Jasmir

Potions: Miriam, Eli

History of Magic: Beau

Astronomy: Winter White

Herbology: MC

Defense Against the Dark Arts: Luka

Flying: Aurelio, Anton

Apparition: Espen

Care of Magical Creatures: Tyrian, Rojo

Muggle Studies (yes this is a class at Hogwarts, or at least was at one point): Rampion

OTHER INFO

Who would be on the Quidditch teams?

Gryffindor: Anton, maaaybe Espen if he could convince him

Ravenclaw: Jasmir

Hufflepuff: Aurelio, Sen

Slytherin: Luka ofc

Who would be obsessed with their pet? (toad, rat, cat, owl)

so they all have pets, but these characters below would LOVE their pet an insane amount

if i wanted to be lazy id do: Jasmir - cat ; Tyrian - toad ; Eli - rat ... but tbh those are too cute to not include 😭

and also... Rojo - owl ; Rampion - rat ; Winter White - owl

Are any of them secretly an animagus?

Alistair & MC are... bc I said so!

Any choir members?

Winter White, Anton, Aurelio, Arien, Beau, Jasmir, Eli, Tyrian, Rampion, Miriam

(basically all of them except MC, Alistair, Sen, Espen, & Luka. Espen is great at singing but way too shy and insecure about his voice to join choir)

Hope that was fun to read and think about! Also, I got super happy seeing you use my new name, so thanks for that :)

I'm sorry.

I felt alone

I was confused

Nothing was right

no one was there

we were all playing a game

why did it seem like everyone was against me?

Not You.

You weren't.

Sometimes it felt like you weren't playing at all

I always assumed

It was my fault

that I lost

even if they were cheating

it's always I'm sorry

cause obviously

that means I wasn't good enough

Players would throw their dice,

sometimes at eachother,

I was always willing to lose,

just for some silence.

Linger

Startled

I am awoken

from a place I need,

a place my heart cries for,

my soul lives for,

my body breathes for.

A setting I no longer am in,

A dream I wished to linger in,

A haven

Peaceful

Gives me life

Stricken

Taken from me.

I always yearn for,

Always search for it

So I can linger longer.