I'm Scared To Form Friendships Because I Know I'm Going To Give It My All. I'll Be Loyal Every Single

I'm scared to form friendships because I know I'm going to give it my all. I'll be loyal every single time. I'll stay up with them until 3AM if they just need to talk. I'll never abandon them. I'll comfort them and give them letters. I'll do everything. But for me? They'll be interested for a little bit. Then they'll drift away and abandon me. They won't care. They won't even think of me. This is why I don't make friendships; because I'll get hurt all over again and I need to protect myself.

- Dreaming of Wolves//Memoir

I am sick of hearing about shootings and death on the news. I am sick of having to hear about tragedies each day. I am sick of living in a world rooted in fear. I am scared to go to school. I am scared to go home. I am scared to go anywhere. There is no peace for this planet anymore. We need to come together as people. We need to heal those who are hurt. We need to focus on each other. We need to give the world a group hug. I am tired of living in fear. I want peace. And I am going to fight for it.

- dreamingofwolves

Important Things My Friends Have Said To Me:

- "No, it's not okay. I can tell you're upset. I'm here if you want to talk."

- "I can't help you if you don't want to help yourself."

- "Trust me. I'm not going to hurt you. I promise."

- "You are too amazing for us to forget. We'd be stupid if we forgot you."

- "Don't worry. I'll protect you."

- "I wilL PUNCH YOU WITH FRIENDSHIP IF YOU DON'T STOP TALKING BAD ABOUT YOURSELF."

- "Don't worry! I'm smiling, and you should too. :D"

- "You should've told me. I'm here for you. I'm always here for you."

- "They love you, I love you. Please, accept our love."

I have such wholesome and great friends. What did I do to deserve them?

I never really got a childhood. Sure, I had a beginning, but a troubled one. I became an escapist from day one, always flying to my imaginary world instead of the real one. I didn't like reality, and frankly, I still don't because of the people inside them. I had to grow up too fast. They pushed me into the blinding reality, and I got hurt. They laughed when I fell in my hole, and they never helped me get back out. I never forgave them for that. Now, as I look back, my beginning was stolen, my middle was me realizing it, and what will my end be? All I want is a happily ever after, something of fairy tales. I want to be the girl raised by wolves, or protected by the forest creatures. I want to find someone who makes me feel so loved I won't even have to doubt it anymore. I need something to prove me wrong that my end won't be as tragic as how it all was written in the start. It's time I pick up the pencil. It's time I start rewriting my life.

- Dreaming of Wolves// Short Stories

"You lead me on. Through every word, every single text, you romanticized the idea of our friendship. You slowly gained my trust even after years of me not trusting people. I even said I'd take a bullet for you. You told me you'd stay, unlike the others. You told me you'd stay. You told me you'd stay. And I believed you.

And then you left.

Breaking every word that you ever said to me."

- Dreaming of Wolves // Spilled

What To Do If You Catch Me Venting In A Conversation:

- liSTEN.

- Try to calm me down.

- DO NOT say that my emotions/things I am talking about are invalid.

- Put yourself in my shoes and try to see it from my perspective.

- Don't. Leave.

- Try and understand.

* I'll probably tell you sorry the next day or so if I find I'm overreacting. I'll probs just say I'm sorry in general.