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THE ENDING DIALOGUE NOO Gosh, This Is Wrecking Me AAH! Props To Yeonjun For Being The Voice Of Reason

THE ENDING DIALOGUE NOO😭😭😭 Gosh, this is wrecking me AAH! Props to Yeonjun for being the voice of reason btw😩

0x1 lovesong is actually the song that made me a MOA so you adding it to this fic makes this SO precious to me❤ I also LOVED the band positions you have the members.

SYNOPSIS: Your long term relationship with Beomgyu ended due to you both having different paths that you guys wanted to achieve in life. However why does it seem after a year later, the both of you still yearn for one another.

INCLUDES: rockstar!beomgyu x reader, exes to lovers, angst, fluff ending, mutual pining, cussing, mentions of other members, aespa’s Giselle and Winter

WC: 2k

TAGLIST: @forever-in-the-sky2 @yaevsi @bangchansbae @mental-hollows @woncheecks

A year earlier you found yourself in the most happiest point in your life. You were dating your Prince Charming and were pursuing the one thing you loved.

Beomgyu was the most uniquest person you’d ever met. No matter where you both were he seemed to light up everything and anything that was around him. He was quite literally your whole world, everything seemed so dull and grey without him.

Beomgyu was a rockstar. You had been with him ever since he used to just practice with his band in their garage. Their name was Tomorrow x Together. He was effortlessly good at playing his electric guitar, it always left you fascinated.

He’d even make small dumb songs about you and sing them to you, which never failed to bring a smile on your face.

You remembered when they dropped their first album. It was a hit and they grew in popularity very fast. Frost and Loser Lover was a total fan favorite. Although when they started going on tour, that’s when you guys both noticed how your relationship was slowly crumbling.

You were getting wrapped up in your studies and well, he was on tour. Even though you guys texted and called daily it was still hard.

Both of you weren’t present in the relationship. Your guys schedules never matching up so it began to get tiring. So sadly the both of you decided to part ways. It was weird to you because even though Beomgyu was always gone, when you both agreed it was over it hurt you way more than you expected. Maybe it was because of the fact that he was actually gone.

It took you awhile to get over him, or try to. Your moment of weakness brought you to your most stupidest idea ever. Buying tickets to one of his concerts.

In your defense a thousands of people would be there so you’d be able to hide amongst them. Plus it had been a year since your breakup so it’s not like you mattered to him anymore.

They were coming to your hometown so you thought it’d be cool, you never saw them live, only when you were invited by Beomgyu and they’d just practice. You knew they were big so you wanted to see how it would go.

Beomgyu stares out of the window, it was night time already and they were making it back to the hotel. It was so weird to be back here, all of it was surrounded and reminded him of you.

His eyes soften at the thought of you and his heart stings. He pulls away and looks at his hands, far away in his thoughts.

“Hey you okay?” Yeonjun bumps his shoulder, glancing at Beomgyu. He immediately smiles but it doesn’t reach his eyes.

“Yea I’m fine.” He nods and Yeonjun knows better, he blinks at him and shakes his head.

“It’s hard, isn’t it?” Yeonjun asks and Beomgyu’s head snaps up.

The rest of the guys knew about your breakup because it messed with Beomgyu physically and mentally. He didn’t even go on stage for a majority of a concert because he couldn’t find the will to be up there. Not without his motivation anymore yet he mustered up some of it.

Something Beomgyu never told you but hoped you knew was that you were his motivation and his will to achieve his dreams. Your support was all he needed to feel like he could take on the whole world. So when you guys broke up, you took it all with you, leaving him with nothing but him and his awful mind.

“Maybe just a little.” He sheepishly laughs.

“We’ll be outta here in no time don’t worry.” Yeonjun pats his back.

Even though those words were meant to calm him down, he feels his heart yearn for you, not wanting to leave.

It was the day of the concert and you were beginning to have your doubts, yet it didn’t help you that your friends were in complete support of it.

“What do you mean you want to refund the tickets?! You’re not refunding shit!” Giselle rolled her eyes, shooing you away with her hand.

Winter laughed glancing at you, “Nothing bad is gonna happen, just go enjoy yourself.” Giselle aggressively nods along with Winter, pointing her spatula at you.

“As a matter of fact! We’ll help you get all dolled up.” They both smile and you deadpan.

“Really. I have no one to impress.” You scoff and Giselle smooshes your cheeks.

“I don’t care! Like Winter said. You’re gonna go have fun and look sexy as hell!”

The night of the concert both of the girls went to drop you off.

“I still don’t understand why you guys didn’t wanna come with me.” You grumble, getting ready to leave the car.

“You let us know all late! Plus did you see those resale tickets! You’re crazy if you think I got that type of money.” Giselle sighs, you and Winter laugh. Winter hugs you and rubs your shoulders.

“Have fun okay! Text or call if anything!” You nod, waving bye to them.

The venue was pretty big, when you checked in, it was clearly an amphitheater, however there was room for the pit. You decided to stop at the bar and get yourself a drink, nodding along to the other bands that were opening up for TXT.

However you couldn’t help but notice you were getting a lot of stares. Obviously, since Beomgyu is a rockstar, he’s famous. People were bound to know he had a girlfriend and when he broke up with said girlfriend.

You guys were never private about your relationship either. So you began to feel uneasy when people were starting to turn heads and whisper. Tonight was gonna be a long night.

Backstage, the members were all setting up their equipment since their time on stage was coming up. Staff members all running around to make sure soundcheck was good and everything was set up perfectly.

Inside the dressing room, Beomgyu and his members were doing some last minute check ups. However Beomgyu was filled with the same sense of dread again. Yeonjun could and would always read Beomgyu like an open book.

“Are you fine to go one stage?” He asks him and Beomgyu nods.

“Yea I just got this weird feeling, I don’t know.” Beomgyu rests his hand over his beating heart.

“You sure it’s not just the adrenaline?” Yeonjun grins and Beomgyu chews on his lip.

“Yea, maybe.” And with that Beomgyu leaves the room, and Yeonjun glancing at the closed door with a look of concern.

By the time the last band had finished, the pit filled up with people rushing down from their seats. So to say you were kinda squished was an under statement. The lights had already dimmed and the crowd begins chanting their name.

They all walk on stage waving at the crowd and you feel like your heart stops when you see Beomgyu.

His hair was long now, enough to cover his neck. It was dyed an orangey brown. A choker adorning his neck. He wore a ripped up knitted striped sweater and his classic black ripped jeans.

His smile was huge and with the way his eyes sparkled, you knew he was born to do this.

“Whattup MOA!” Yeonjun yells and the crowd cheers. The rest of the members move to get their instruments.

“Wow there’s so many of you guys.” Soobin laughs, adjusting his guitar. “Duh, they sold this shit out!” Taehyun yells and people scream.

“Before we start playing for you guys, there might be some newbies here so we’d like to introduce ourselves.” Kai suggests, starting a basic drum line to get the crowd going.

“We’re Tomorrow by Together! We’re a little different from other bands, even though I’m chosen as the leader singer, we all do sing.” Yeonjun laughs.

“Alright so on bass we have Taehyun!” The crowd yells as he plays a small riff, his face adorning a huge smile.

“On guitar we got Soobin!” He waves and bows with a cute smile.

“We could never forget our best drummer out there, Kai!” He plays a more upbeat drum track and the crowd cheers.

“Last but not least, our lead guitarist, Beomgyu!” The lights go crazy and he waves, running a hand through his hair as he smiles.

You don’t miss the fact on how the crowd goes crazy over Beomgyu, he truly was an ace and everyone favored his raspy voice and excellent guitar playing.

The lights shut off out of nowhere and the intro to Frost begins playing. Beomgyu begins strumming the strings on his guitar as Kai’s voice rings out through the venue.

“Are you fucking ready!” Yeonjun yells. The crowd begins to move, clapping along with the beat. Right before the beat drops Yeonjun yells.

“Let’s go!”

You’re quickly emerged in the music, you find yourself smiling. They really did sound way better than in their garage. However you couldn’t seem to take your eyes away from Beomgyu.

You fondly smile at the way he seems to play with so much passion, his confidence eliciting from him, surrounding him like some sort of aura.

You lose track of time and they have already played through most of their songs so they take this time to interact with the fans.

“How are we all doing?” Yeonjun smiles and the everyone throws a thumps up in the air.

“You guys are killing it.” Taehyun smiles as well.

“So there has been some speculations of us coming out with a new album soon.” Kai says as the crowd gasps, everyone waiting in anticipation.

“In which we do.” Soobin laughs and the whole venue screams, some fans fanning themselves.

“This is gonna be our last song for you tonight.” Yeonjun says, making the crowd whine with a no. “But our last song will be a song from our new album.” The crowd immediately switches up, cheering loudly. With a wide grin, the members all turn to Beomgyu.

“I actually composed this song, so it means a lot to me.” Beomgyu nods shyly and the crowd Aw’s at his confession, yet this catches your attention.

“I made this song after a hardship I was going through at the time. This song is called 0X1=Lovesong also known as I know I love you.” He mumbles in the mic and Kai immediately starts drumming the intro.

You immediately freeze as you hear the rhythm. This was one of those playful songs Beomgyu had wrote for you, when you would chill in his room, softly nodding along to his soothing voice.

You could feel your eyes well up with tears, your bottom lip jutting out. The people in the crowd had already recognized who you were so they all would either turn to you or try to subtly look at you. You don’t stop your tears from falling when you hear him sing

“Say you love me, Say you love me.” Memories of you both singing along to it rushing through your mind. As you watch him you know he’s thinking the same thing with the way his voice seems to break as you can see him hold back tears.

Your heart breaks and this, this was thing you were afraid of. Seeing him like this, with his broken heart worn on his sleeve. The last verse he’s whispering into the mic, his voice broken yet so soft, touching the hearts of the thousands of people in the venue.

“All or nothing I want all of you, I know I love you.” Right when the words leave his mouth, the lights fade off.

The crowd is left speechless, not expecting the end of the concert to be so emotional, from a distance you could hear people sniffing and sobbing. You try to hold in your sobs but you couldn’t. You let yourself sob into your hands, your year of “letting go” and “moving on” all flushing down the drain. Some people tried to help you but you rush out of the sea of people and out the doors.

The cold air hits your face like whiplash and you rest against a wall. You sob again, your heart breaking what seems to be the millionth time. No matter how much you try to stop your sobs with your mouth or calm down it all just keeps coming out.

Right when the lights had dimmed, Beomgyu cries and Yeonjun runs to him, the others trying to help him off the stage.

“S-She’s here, she’s actually here.” He barely gets out, he didn’t know if he was relieved or even more heartbroken. Yeonjun sighs as he rubs his back.

“Beomgyu.” He whispers and Beomgyu looks at him. “If you truly feel like you guys are meant to be. Then go get her, because this isn’t a coincidence. This is fate giving you both another chance.”

Beomgyu doesn’t waste time, he rushes down the flight of stairs, taking the back door outside. He had saw you rush outside when they had finished. He silently prayed that you weren’t gone already.

His prayers are answered when he cuts the corner and finds you against the wall, crying by yourself. He feels his eyes water again, wanting nothing more than to hold you in his arms.

He whispers your name softly and your head is snapping in his direction. Your eyes widen, not being able to process that he was right in front of you.

“B-Beomgyu?” You hush out, your mind still mush. He steps closer to you, trying to clear some of the distance between the both of you.

Even though the both of you look like a mess, he’s laughing bitterly.

“How’ve you been?” He smiles fondly at you yet his bottom lip quivers.

“I’ve been okay.” You match his expression, trying to muster up a smile.

“You?”

He laughs as tears fall, shaking his head. “I’ve been okay too.”

You stare at each other, the both of you trying to rack your mind for words.

“I really miss you.” He whispers and you nod, shutting your eyes.

“I know, I do to. But we can’t Beomgyu.” Your voice breaks as you glance at your shoes.

He steps closer, “We’ll figure it out, I’ll figure something out, I’ll drop the band!” He says desperately, trying to look in your eyes and you shake your head.

“You’re meant to be up there, you shine Beomgyu, you were born to be a star. I don’t wanna hold you back from that.”

He shakes his quickly, “You won’t- You don’t hold me back, you never did. You’re the reason I got this far.”

He cries, your hand moves before you register what you’re doing. You wipe his tears, and he immediately leans into your palm, his own hand shooting up to grab you wrist.

“Please, Please I can’t live without you.” He shakes his head, his voice broken. You both cry and your other hand comes to hold his face.

“We can try again, just one last time.” You smile and he pulls you into a bone crushing hug but it feels comforting, it felt like home. His hand comes to caress your hair, as he shoves his face in the crook of your neck.

You both stand there under the street light pole, swaying side to side. His small laugh makes you pull away just enough to see his face.

“What?” You whisper and he rubs your cheek with his thumb.

“Say you love me, say you love me.” He sings softly and you laugh.

“Till the end of the world.” You sing back and he laughs softly, rubbing your cheek gently.

Neither of you say another word, letting your lips meet in a kiss you guys both had yearned for.