I Keep Restricting And Then Binging Off N On And Its Getting On My Fucking Nerves. How Am I Supposed

I keep restricting and then binging off n on and it’s getting on my fucking nerves. How am I supposed to get skinny if I keep eating. I think what’s fucking with me more is I can’t track my steps at all either.

I just fucking realized I don’t have a look planned for the first day of school yet HELP

Food log: Aug. 22, 2024

Breakfast:

Lemon water (0cal)

Total: 0cal

Lunch:

Nothing (0cal)

Total: 0cal

Dinner:

Dr Pepper strawberries n cream (149cal)

Wingstop Garlic Parmesan wings, 3 wings (360cal)

Wingstop mango habanero, 3 wings (300cal)

Wingstop fries, half (185cal)

Total: 993cals

Exercise:

651 steps (21 cal)

Total burned: 21cal

Todays total: 972 cals

Notes:

Did a 17 hour liquid fast but ended up ordering wingstop after the soda bc I felt rlly weak n I had a head ache as well. I kinda regret getting the wingstop bc I love eating wings with ppl otherwise it’s depressing. So I only ate half. I should’ve just stuck with the liquid fast but at least I made it over 16 hours I guess just wish I didn’t eat a lot of cals n it’s pretty high too. I’m rlly tired.

no food log (Aug 22, 2024) bc I did a liquid fast throughout the day (matcha latte n lemon water) but had some cheezits in the evening. Not so bad but not so great either I hope I didn’t eat so many to where I went over my cal limit, I wasn’t counting how many I ate.

I went to the beach today with my bsf bc stuff went down with my “in laws” which I guess helped more with my motivation to not eat bc I now feel even more uncomfortable going downstairs without my bf. N even then, still feel more uncomfortable even if I am with my bf.

Food Log: Aug. 23, 2024

Breakfast:

Rice cake (35cal)

Nutella, 1tbsp (81cal)

3 Strawberries (146cal)

Vanilla spice tea (0cal)

Total: 262cals

Lunch:

Orange creamsicle (65cal)

Total: 65cals

Dinner:

Iced honey buns (320cal)

Total: 320cal

Snack:

Ruffles (160cal)

Total: 160cal

Exercise:

333 steps (11cal)

Total burned: 11cals

Todays Total: 795 cals

Notes:

I’m SOOOO FUCKING HUNGRY. I was vv close to binging but it was mainly snacks around anyway. I needed a lil salty treat after something sweet to balance it out. Overall felt vv fkn weak n shakey today but vv glad I restricted bc I’m going to a party tmrw. I’m gonna allow myself to binge tmrw bc I’m rlly hoping there’s tacos at the party. I’ve been eye balling this frozen pizza in my bfs freezer but I’m too embarrassed to make it so hopefully my bf would be down to make it tmrw. I still gotta figure out my look for tmrw since I also might be drinking n I’m not bout to be crunked n fugly.

Downside of fasting- I cannot fucking sleep n school starts in 3 DAYYSSS