Butterfly/fairy Meal Inspo

butterfly/fairy meal inspo

All pics taken from Pinterest

as requested by an anon

Food Log: Aug. 29, 2024

Breakfast:

2 gum (10cal)

Total: 10 cals

Lunch:

7/11 blue slush (65cal)

Salad 300cal)

2 Hot honey boneless wings (200cal)

Total: 565cals

Dinner:

Pasta salad (354cal)

Total: (354cals)

Todays total: 929 cals

Notes:

I didn’t get to take a picture of the other foods. I broke my phone so I’ve been using my tablet so I can’t track my steps or take pictures of some of the things I eating bc it feel embarrassing doing that shit with a big ass tablet. But I found out my school gives away free foods aka the salads I got and it’s rlly filling n low in cals so I’ll be going there a lot. My home girl introduced me to some new ppl and I’m suspecting one of them has an eating disorder because the way she ate a pop tart n my friend offered her more food and she said “I ate two whole poptarts that’s enough food for today” n I worried but also competitive? I hate feeling competitive when it comes to EDs bc sometimes it feels like it outweighs my concern.

no food log (Aug 22, 2024) bc I did a liquid fast throughout the day (matcha latte n lemon water) but had some cheezits in the evening. Not so bad but not so great either I hope I didn’t eat so many to where I went over my cal limit, I wasn’t counting how many I ate.

I went to the beach today with my bsf bc stuff went down with my “in laws” which I guess helped more with my motivation to not eat bc I now feel even more uncomfortable going downstairs without my bf. N even then, still feel more uncomfortable even if I am with my bf.

I perfected my makeup routine the night of the party n I got hit on n now that I’m thinking abt it it’s so funny when someone flirts with me when I got my face on bc lil do they know I got half brows

My header image on my profile is cake. I don’t even rlly like cake, I’m not vv fond of sweet shit. But as my ED got worse during my high school period of time I LOVED eating sweet shit, I craved it all the time. Which is probably due to my body trying to eat something to gain energy, but anyway. These last few days I haven’t been eating right (I started my period). It’s not even big ass meals it’s snacks n junk. my bfs family bought home cake from a party n as a cake connoisseur THEY BROUGHT THE GOOD SHIT. It’s a two layer vanilla cake except the FROSTING isn’t that overly sweet whipped cream shit that isn’t that great after being in the fridge, no no no no, it’s THE best fucking frosting ever. The kind of cake n frosting that lasts days in the fridge, and the frosting doesn’t get all liquidy or hard, but a nice creamy but not overstimulating texture.

I am absolutely FUCKED.

I need to fast or restrict JUST SOMETHING. I’ve been eating so bad I’m getting gross with myself, I’ve been eating so much any kind of food is unappealing all I want is fucking water, but I still keep eating out of boredom. (and bc there’s CAKE)

So I’m thinking I do a liquid fast during school, n then eat cake after. I don’t know yet, I’m not gonna just eat cake only obviously bc I don’t wanna go bald again, so I’ll eat foods with nutrients I need, but overall I need a restart rlly bad. I had a dream though that I lost my ass so I need to keep up with that as well.

Also I got a stye n it’s so fucking bad half my eyelid is closed so no makeup is gonna help. And I have to go to school with it, AMD I HAVE A PRESENTATION THIS WEEEEEK. Wish me luck y’all 🫡